False boundaries

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Guiding Thought

I am ready and willing, here and now, to be courageous. I release my mind’s idea of security, of “right” and of “wrong”. I allow my personality to dissolve and to become One with the Love that Is, everywhere. All false boundaries evaporate like mist in the sun as I devote myself to the Oneness of Love.

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I get it now. This Journey is making so much sense! It really amazes me how things come together, just doing this process.

The first few days I was asking, “What does this have to do with courage?” Now I get it.

Love is gentle. Love wants us to come to it. The first few days of each round, Love is showing us it’s gentle.

Before beginning, I was a bit on edge about this Journey of Courage, because courage often implies facing something scary. Who wants to take that on willingly? So, instead of showing us something scary, Love gave peace and assurance first. That’s what the first three days of each round are: softness, gentleness, Love saying, “It’s ok; I’m here. I enfold you, give you safety. Come to me.”

“Come to me.”

It’s like the growling Doberman turns into a puppy those first 3 days. Who doesn’t want to just run up and mush on a puppy? “There’s nothing to fear. Come to me.”

The reason this works—when Love shows me its softness and gentleness—is because it’s what I want. I’ve just had too much in the way, and I don’t think I can trust Love.

That’s where courage comes in. It’s not Love I am afraid of; it’s all my own stuff I can’t trust that gets in the way and causes me to think/feel fearfully. Figuring this out and walking through my stuff, being able to “release my mind’s idea of security, of “right” and of “wrong”’…that takes courage.

That’s why on this Journey, courage doesn’t even enter the picture until day 4. Love assures us, then it encourages us to walk through (and release) the mire of misunderstanding and misperception.

Love is there for us. It leads us through the mire of our minds. It leads and I follow because It’s what I want.

Love knows me better than I know myself. It knows what I need to be One with It, and just how much I can handle before I get too scared and turn away from It. It knows just the right way to lead me to Itself. All I need to do is release and follow.

When I am not following Love, that’s when I am over-thinking—anticipating (Day 25). But ultimately Love Knows…and Love leads. The more I follow, the more I experience Love’s beauty and gentleness, which results in me trusting It and wanting to trust it more. The more I trust my experience of Love, the more I want to let go of my misunderstandings, my ideas about security, of “right” and “wrong”, my false boundaries, and the more I want to follow and to devote myself to Love.

Each day I’ve been assured of Love leading (Day 11). Devotion and surrender now have a new, richer color. Before, devotion and surrender felt like giving up, submitting, losing something. But now, the more I feel Love leading me, the more I want it to, the more I want to give up everything that gets in the way. I simply want to be with Love, to do whatever it takes, and do whatever it wants for me. It’s so much better than anything I could imagine or do for myself.

Guiding Thought

Be ready and willing, here and now, to be courageous. Release your mind’s idea of security, of “right” and of “wrong”. Allow your personality to dissolve and to become One with the Love that Is, everywhere. All false boundaries evaporate like mist in the sun as you devote yourself to the Oneness of Love.

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Am I ready, here and now, to be courageous? I am still asking myself “What is courage?” How do I know if I am ready to be courageous if I am not even sure what courage is?

Is courage releasing my mind’s idea of security? Is courage releasing ideas of “right” and “wrong”? Is that what I am supposed to understand today? Is courage allowing my personality to dissolve? Is courage becoming One with the Love that Is, everywhere? Is courage being willing to give up false boundaries?

I am not sure.

I have this idea that courage requires some bold, brave activity in response to some threat, like soldiers, or people who have faced and overcome bodily trauma like cancer or the loss of limbs, or people who have recovered (or are recovering) from an alcohol or drug addiction, or people who face daily struggles of pain, or personal issues. I have this idea that courage comes under certain circumstances. It’s contextual.

So what does it mean to “have courage” without a context, to simply be courageous?

Is courage momentary, or perpetual?

If I have been courageous in the past, does that mean I am courageous in the present?

Is courage something that can be practiced?

If so, does that mean I would need to place myself in “threatening” situations in order to practice being courageous (and if so…would I want to do that!?)?

All of my contexts for courage include the body/mind, so what does spiritual courage entail?

The “answer” I got to that last question was, “release false boundaries”. I think that means my concept of contextual boundaries is “false”. But I am not sure. I’ll have to think/feel about it.

Ok, so who are spiritual people who have been courageous? The ones that come readily to mind are Jesus, Gandhi, and Martin Luther King. But now that I am asking myself that question, I can think back on history and I come up with Giordano Bruno, or Saint Thomas Moore, or any of the (primarily Christian) martyrs who have died for their beliefs about God.

What made these people courageous? The thing that connected them is that they loved, and were willing to stand for, God or a higher ideal, over and above politics or societal beliefs about “right” and “wrong”.

Am I courageous in that way? Am I doing this Journey so I can be? I am already seeing a lot of things to explore.

What do you think/feel?