Gaining in Letting Go; Listening Within. Journey of Fulfillment: 03.06.08

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Guiding Thought

My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice. In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my will is simply to share Joy and Love.


Two thoughts today.


“My will is my choice.” What about “Thy Will be done“?

So often it seems, people seem to think that “Thy Will be done” means that they must lose, give up, or surrender their personal will. That’s what makes “Thy Will be done” so difficult, yeah? “I don’t want to give up my will. I want my freedom!”

The Journeys are all about aligning with Divine Will, though–allowing Divine Will to come through “me”. And there does seem to be a certain amount of letting go, of surrendering.

Yet, my will is my choice. And I can use my choice to choose Thy Will. Then, I’m not giving up or surrendering; I’m fully utilizing my own free will to choose Thy Will. What’s more, Thy Will holds so much more Peace, Harmony, and All things in Right Order than my little will. Thy Will is so much better for me than my will!

It’s nice to think that even in so-called surrendering to Divine Will, I still have full choice to do or not do, to align with the Divine or decide everything for myself. Life is easier when I make the one small, simple choice to allow Thy Will.


More and more recently, I am listening within for Guidance. It’s not always completely conscious; sometimes I only realize I’ve done it after I have done it.

This is how it happens: I naturally ask questions a lot. Sometimes I am addressing another person, sometimes my questions are in my head. Recently, I’ve “heard” answers to questions that I think are just in my little brain, but the answers are not of my little brain.

Here’s an example. Someone said something to me, and immediately I thought, “Is this B.S., are you lying to me, or are you telling me the truth?” And then all of the sudden, I knew/heard that the answer I was just given was about 70% true, with about 30% exaggeration. Then I immediately asked, “Can I trust this person”? and the answer I got was, “Yes. There is no willful deceit, just trying to make a point”. And this is not the first time something like this has happened.

Now, I am coming to understand that I need to be aware of this question-answer, and to enter into the relationship a little more intentionally, asking questions that I want the answer to, then listening within for the guidance.

I’ll be experimenting with this now!


Square One Commencing. Journey of Fulfillment: Day 03.06.07

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Guiding Thought

My joy unifies! Accepting my own joy, acknowledging it, sharing it, and expressing it heals me and others. To be wholly joyful means to be wholly love…means to be wholly my Self.


I know from experience that the Guiding Thought is correct. I’ve verified it for myself. I’ve experienced situations where joy has unified, where it has lifted and healed. I understand that Joy is a True Expression of the Self.

These are cognitive recognitions and memories of a time. Currently, I neither feel this Truth, nor know how to access it cognitively. >sigh<

Here’s why: I’ve felt really stressed out and overwhelmed the past two weeks. It had been building for a bit before then, but these past two weeks I have felt the walls closing in. Pressure. (This is being reflected in my physical body by headaches and sinus pressure).

I could talk about what it is that is happening; I could tell you the psychology going on; I could tell you some of the things I’m “working on” that are contributors…but what would that accomplish?

I’d rather share what I’m doing about it (so here it is). This was my realization today:

Earlier on in the Journeys, I had to remember to remember my Divine Self. I would do the Journey, meditate, and feel like, “OK I got this”. Then I’d go out into the world, where there was vulnerability to noise, chaos, and distraction and I would forget. So I had to learn to remind myself to remember my Divine Self, so that amidst the noise, distractions, and chaos, I could still center my attention on my Divine Self.

This remembering has gotten much, much better. I now often remember my Divine Self, and call It forth. But now I have something new that I need to remember to remember, another layer shall we say.

That new thing is: my Divine Self does not need to take my human crap, and I can tell my human self “NO MORE”. NO more with the stress. No more with the overwhelm. No more with the pressure. No more playing tired, playing small, playing defeated. NO MORE. I Can Choose. I am a Divine Being, created with Love, with full access to ALL that Love has to offer. I direct my mind and actions with Love, by Love, through Love, and I decide for my highest good (which incidentally has naught to do with stress, pressure, or overwhelm).

What does this mean in practical terms?

In the moment I must recognize that I am feeling/behaving as less than a Divine Being and I must call forth the full Power and Authority of God I Am to take dominion over all my thoughts-actions. I must align with the Divine Will of All Good, All God, and be in Harmony with the Law of Love–the only Law of Power, Expansiveness, and Harmony, dismissing any thought-emotion-action that is less than the Law of Love.

Square One Commenced.

“Peace be with you”: Journey of Abundance 2.0 – Day 15

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Guiding Thought

Your Inner Divine Love Presence Knows what you need or desire before you do. It is constantly providing you with ideas, material goods, situations, and interactions to fulfill all your needs and desires. Relax! and allow the Presence Within to supply you with everything you need.


Today was a day for relaxing! A day for trust! A day for feeling good! A day for joy and satisfaction and simply being. I hope you have had a peaceful, relaxing day full of that natural communication with Self/Spirit, which simply carries you buoyantly through your day, through your life.

As you know, there are ways to communicate with Self/Spirit that are not verbal or mental. I have been so relaxed and in the peace of the moment all day that I wanted to continue it through the doing of the Journey—contemplation (thinking) would have taken me out of the flow.

Since I have the option of communicating with Self/Spirit through my coloring, I chose that today.

In my picture, I am relaxed with all my needs fulfilled. I am in a beautiful place, surrounded by beauty, with the perfect head/back rest, showered with sunlight. I am so thankful for this. I feel so much gratitude for all my needs being met, for feeling so at peace, so comfortable, surrounded by beauty…all I can do is thank God, thank Spirit, thank Self/soul/the Divine/the ALL that IS that surrounds me and contributes to my being. The blue from my heart is this thankfulness. I can’t tell you how calm and peaceful and right it all feels.

I wish for you an amazing, peaceful, trusting, relaxing day. If you didn’t have one as I did today, I wish it for you right now, or tomorrow, or when it is right and perfect for you (every day!!). Peace be with you, now and always.


The More Beyond Words. A Journey of Fulfillment: Day 10

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I am light. My body is light. I am free. I know my fulfillment: I feel it rise within me, expand out from me.


Like many things in the realm of God, the meaning of the word fulfillment goes beyond words or rational understanding. It’s like I have a sense of it (as yesterday’s article attests), yet even with all those words and definitions, there is something more.

What is the more?

Again, I have some words, ideas, and definitions. And again, those are insufficient.

The more of fulfillment is letting go—really letting go, trusting in life, trusting God, trusting my Self, and trusting myself.

When I think about it, I say, “of course I trust God; of course I trust my Self (the Self who Knows).” Then I realize it is myself that leaves me in doubt.

This makes sense to me. Myself is the part of me that is so close (indeed—IN) the immediacy of the material world, so the physical world surrounds me all the time. I can’t get out of it. Even the dead remain in it, in a different form.

The physical world holds my attention and it takes a real effort to move my attention to the non-physical. Then it takes more effort for the non-physical to hold my attention. Then it takes more effort for me to see/understand the effects of the non-physical in the physical world.

With all that effort, it makes sense that I can doubt or that I do not rely on the self-of-me that is making that effort.

[Two quick notes about this phrase, the self-of-me that is making that effort: a) I would like to acknowledge the possibility that there is no self at all, that the self, the “ego” identity, is an illusion (as in some philosophies and/or religions) b) I’d like to point out that there are ways to ease this effort (whether or not you believe in the self as real or as an illusion)—like the practices of earth, air, water, fire, mind, and Love.]

Which brings me back to the letting go…

Since I know I trust God, and I know I trust my Self, it is the self that is so close to the material world that I need to let go. I need to let go the effort, let go the struggle, let go the need to see/understand, and decide to give my attention to my Self; decide to listen, decide to trust (after all, I say I do trust, right!?)

OK. That was part of the what is the more. What else?

Fulfillment is freedom.

But I don’t mean freedom like “I can go anywhere, do whatever I want” kind of freedom.

Fulfillment’s freedom is more like lightness, absence of cares, worries, or burdens. How would it feel to have “not a care in the world”? That’s part of it.

How would it feel if I didn’t have bills to pay, always knew I would have food when I am hungry, always know everything is just taken care of? That’s part of it.

How would it feel if my body always felt expansive, supple, and flexible?

How would it feel if I were just content all the time? Really content and happy and satisfied… all the time?

Here’s the thing: I have raised the quality of my thoughts as I have worked on letting go the self of me that is invested in the physical world (refer to above). As I have learned to listen, connect with, and be directed by God, through my Self, I have experienced what I am describing as freedom—I have been Light and carefree and expansive…I know how this feels, and it is blissful! Can you think of a time when you have felt this way?

So why don’t I feel it all the time? Why don’t I feel it all the time, even after 25 years of doing the work of unraveling and letting go? Because there must be a lot to do! But it’s great to see progress and be optimistic about what is possible.

This is the work now; these journeys are the work, and the reason I share them. I have glimpsed, I have felt, I have been—for moments-hours-days—in a state of blissful freedom of joy and peace and gratitude, that I know is accessible to everyone.

I want that experience more…and more…and more. And I want it for you too.

I want you to Know fulfillment beyond words, to experience it so deeply that you have no words. I want you to feel my words as more than words—as who you are: the essence of fulfillment.




Life Itself is the Essence of Fulfillment. A Journey of Fulfillment. Day 09

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May those who seek, help others find;

May those who sorrow, be compassionate;

May those who are lost, light a path for another;

May those who question or doubt, give guidance;

May those who worry, lift the burden of another;

May those who hide, see their own light in the eyes of a stranger;

May we all give peace, no matter what.


Fulfillment is Joy and Love and Peace, and listening to the still voice within that Knows and guides appropriately, always appropriately.

Fulfillment is knowing with total satisfaction that I am in the right place at the right time, doing the right thing. Fulfillment is being confident in the choices I make…or in the choices I refrain from making.

Fulfillment is a feeling of satisfaction, a feeling of accomplishment—whether or not I’ve done anything to “deserve” it.

Fulfillment is human-connection, whether a brief glance of “Namaste” with a stranger, or a two-hour Skype conversation with a friend or loved-one (or anything in-between).

Fulfillment is watching the doubts-fears-uncertainties waft by, knowing they have no foothold.

Fulfillment is hearing the nay-saying (in my own head, or from the mouths of others), and knowing it has no power, knowing there is another voice cheering me on, guiding me, directing me, leading me, while being my biggest fan.

Fulfillment is knowing that LIFE is not my job or my income, not my family or relationships,  not the car I drive or the house I live in, not my health or my diet or my future.

Life itself is the essence of fulfillment; Life lives as me!

Life fills my bones and my marrow, fires my neurons, wiggles my toes, thinks my thoughts, feels my feelings, fills me up to overflowing with the essence of Source—the source of the universe, the cosmos, of all.

I just experience it all and enjoy the ride.


The Quality of Thought. A Journey of Fulfillment: Day 08

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My motivation is my choice. My intention is my choice. My will is my choice.

In Peace, I listen within for guidance so that my actions are motivated by joy, my intentions are love, and my will is simply to share Joy and Love.


There are three really “big things” going on today through the guiding thought. The first one is acknowledging that I am “in control”, so to say. This isn’t saying that I can control things or people. No, it’s saying I can control myself. Behaviors and actions begin as motivation, intention, and will. By choosing in advance what motivates me, and the attitude with which I want to approach a life experience, my will is enacted to accomplish those results.

The second thing going on is recognizing that I have complete and total free will—I have choice, I make my choices, and I am the only one who makes my choices. That’s very liberating! But it also implies responsibility—I am the one responsible for my outcomes. Don’t like your outcomes? Change your mind! Do you want to emulate someone’s behavior? Do you have a role model you admire? Emulate their thoughts, mimic their mind!

(And, by the way, you will never “lose yourself” if you emulate or mimic someone else. The information you gain from someone else will only enhance and raise – assuming positivity – the quality of information you have already accumulated, which is totally unique.)

Continue to increase the quality of information that constitutes your thoughts and the quality of your outcomes will increase.

I choose and I have free will. These things imply that I can make poor choices. In the context of fulfillment this means things like disengagement, withholding, numb, disconnected, and uncaring. Because what fulfillment means is to be in tune with creativity, to be accepting and acceptable, and to attract all the wonderful experiences life can bring.

The third and final big thing in the guiding thought is that I have help/assistance in making better choices. “In peace I listen within for guidance”. “Guidance” implies it is possible to become lost. Guidance implies there are many choices, some better than others. Guidance implies I may not know my own best interest.

But there is a part of me who knows! And I can connect with that part in the peace and stillness of my own mind. That part of me will assist me toward the better choices and help me direct my mind to the fulfillment of Joy and Love.

Doing What Comes Naturally. A Journey of Fulfillment: Day 07

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My joy unifies! Accepting my own joy, acknowledging it, sharing it, and expressing it heals me and others. To be wholly joyful means to be wholly love…means to be wholly my Self.


I’ve noticed that I’ve been in a better position to compare/contrast life experiences since beginning this journey. I have a better idea of what it means to be fulfilled: feeling expansive joy, feeling more ease, enjoying work, people, relationships, and feeling connected. Admittedly, I can’t claim to feel “whole love” or “wholeness” (but I am still working on it!). But what I do notice now is just…nice. I feel a sense of naturalness, of being able to relax with no tension.

I realized this because I had a contrasting experience.

I was in a situation that I’ve been in many times before, but this time the thought just popped into my head, this is unnatural. So I stopped…and felt…and wondered…and compared. Yeah, I feel isolated (unnatural); Yeah, I feel tense (unnatural); Yeah, I feel uncaring (unnatural).

I know I am a loving, caring, giving person, so to notice myself withdrawing and withholding was significant. But I was able to notice…and that is also significant. Unless I notice, I don’t know where to begin to make a change.

Truly, the deepest part of me wants to be joyful, wants to give and share that joy, wants everyone to know and to be and to have that joy. For a moment I really “got” this.

For a moment, the words, the ideas expanded in my chest, radiated from my mind, became solid and tangible…and I know this is true; this is right, this is who I am and what I want.

And so I plod on, deepening my understanding, broadening my awareness, knowing there is a part of me that knows—that gets it.

The guiding thoughts lead me on a journey to that part of me—the real part, the natural place, which truly is wholly joyful, wholly giving, wholly whole.

I do my best to keep up.