“In Truth, It Never Was”: Journey of Worth 2.0 – Day 13

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Love yourself for the Truth within you. The Truth within you Knows you for who you are—Pure Love, Only Love, beyond all valuing of the world. In Love all are equal, for we are One. This is how Truth Knows you—Pure, One, and Free. This is your Truth; this is our Truth; this is the Self you love.

 

Sharing

I’ve been learning so much about Love lately. I want pure love, real love, authentic Love. Yet, I also wonder what pure, real, authentic Love is. (You know me, I always ask, how do I know?)

In my stubbornness to accept only pure, real, authentic Love, I tend to dismiss or deny a feeling that could be Love, but I don’t know for certain.  If I don’t know, then (maybe) it isn’t pure, real, and authentic. I want that Love that is so certain it is absolute. 100%. I don’t even need to think about what it is or how I know, because it’s just there, surrounding me, flowing through me, bubbling up in me unprovoked and unannounced.

Well. For a while now, I have been feeling empty (or, more specifically, numb). It’s that kind of empty that is on the verge of a breakthrough. The emptiness of making room for more, the emptiness of clearing away the dross, to replace it with the Divine. But it still feels empty, and that can be a difficult space for lengths of time.

There have been a couple of things that have happened over the past week that have given me the gift of feeling so much love for people, all people; my heart has opened, love pours out. The first thing that happened was a conversation with a former-monk who really knows how to be this thing called love. If you have never spent any time with someone who has simply practiced love…I recommend it; their very presence moves and shifts how you feel, and opens you to Love in a way other people and situations do not. I aspire to being that for others.

The second thing that happened was a dream I had of my “first love”. Do you remember your first love? For me, it was a complete and total submission to and immersion in love. It was fully enveloping. It was unconditional. It was all-encompassing. I had forgotten that feeling–my first love was a long, long time ago, but in this dream it all came back. The joy! The freedom! The purity! The innocence!

Both the conversation with the ex-monk, and the dream have reminded me of what Love is and that this Love is not “mine”, but it’s something that flows through me of its own accord. I am reminded what It feels like, what It truly is, and how joyous it feels to simply love and to love simply, to love purely, innocently, unconditionally–beyond all valuing of the world. I am so humbled and grateful for these lessons, for the memories, for the experiences.

And now, I just want to love everyone…all the time. The emptiness is gone, as though it never was, because in Truth, it never was.