A Loving Tribute to Leonard D. Orr –Journey of Freedom 02.12.22

Leonard Orr
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Guiding Thought

We freely release patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit our Freedom! We allow our thoughts and feelings to transform through remembrance of Freedom through Love. We were born with everything we need to be free in Love. We allow Love to lead us. We trust Love and surrender to its wisdom.

Reflection / Contemplation

Leonard Orr, who passed away earlier this week, was my second Spiritual teacher (my first was my Reiki Master, Penny Gnesin, who passed earlier this year). I worked with him directly from 1994 – 1998, then on and off again until 2017, the last time I visited him at his home in Virginia and gave him and Elvi Jharra. I would not say that Leonard and I were close, but–like so many others–his teachings deeply influenced me.

Babaji – Angel of the Lord
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You will see his influence all over these pages: when I write about Babaji (Leonard lead me to Babaji); when I write anything about earth, air, water, or fire; when I write about spiritual community, loving relationships, or spiritual purification. I can’t say that I always agreed with Leonard, but he was a “big idea” guy, and certainly provoked me to stretch my thinking. I am very grateful for Leonard; I would not be doing half of what I am doing today, if it weren’t for him.

It’s quite apropos that today’s Guiding Thought is about releasing patterns and habits– this, too, was something that Leonard taught. In a nutshell, his teaching on daily habits is “you’re only as good as your habits; keep improving your habits, keep improving yourself”. It’s the minutia of daily living that adds up to the quality of a life: every thought, every action, every intention…it all matters in the makeup of the big picture of who you are and the life you lead.

Leonard wrote the book, Breaking the Death Habit: The Science of Everlasting Life, in which he outlines the highest habits he has discovered to release the emotional energy pollution, keep the mental-spiritual-emotional-physical bodies clean from energetic impurities, release Karma, and live in health and wellness. These practices, too, have been highly influential in my life. It was through these practices that I learned to feel when my energy became “polluted” and it gave me the tools to cleanse it and return to a lighter state. I have also learned how it feels to release karma, and the benefit of doing practices that do so.

Leonard was the first person who I heard say, “I had to learn to practice Love, so I spent several years opening my heart chakra”. That motivated me to learn to love, and subsequently, I spent several years opening my heart chakra.

Leonard taught physical immortality: the idea that people can live for as long as they like in their physical body, until they choose to leave, merging the life of the physical body with the life of the Holy Spirit. Everything about Leonard’s teachings were geared toward this “bottom line” teaching. He was an explorer, a scientist, a researcher in this regard: he was his own most faithful student. To this end, he used other people’s deaths as “research”–asking the questions: What did they or did they not do? What could they have done differently? what are the minimum practices that are necessary to maintain human Life? And the related question: what can maintain our abundance of aliveness and joy of Life?  Do people choose misery and the pain of emotional energy pollution because they never learned the practice of fire purification, or do they just enjoy their own bad habits? Why do people doing the practices die? Leonard used to say that the gift people give you by dying is more information for your own research on how you can prevent your own death.

So today, I offer the Guiding Thought to you in this context, in honor of Leonard. What patterns, habits, and thoughts can you see in others right now, that you can release in yourself for greater Freedom? How often today can you remember the Love, which sets you free, and allow your thoughts and feelings to transform? Right now, you are free in Love…until you prove otherwise. Allow Love to lead you. Trust Love and surrender to its wisdom…

And here’s an article by Leonard that brings all of this together in his own words.



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Giving Beauty to God -Abundance (1.5.34)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Divine Love is infinite. Therefore, my Source and Supply are infinite. As I increase my consciousness of my Inner Divine-Love Presence as my Source and my Supply, money, wealth, and prosperity increase in my life experience—and I use that money, wealth, and prosperity to fully express my Inner Divine-Love Presence.


Every morning during this Journey, I have been doing a fire ceremony in the Haidakhan Baba tradition to begin my day. The overall tone of the fire ceremony is praise, devotion, and giving up ego. To this end, there are prayers with accompanying offerings to the fire.

With most of the prayers, the offering is ghee, or butter from which the dairy solids have been removed. But there is one point in which flowers are offered.

Image result for zinniaAt the beginning of the summer, I planted zinnias in my garden. I’ve never really had a flower garden (I’m more of a vegetable person), and I’ve never planted zinnias. But for some reason, this year, I decided I needed zinnias. This was before I began doing these fire ceremonies.

Before the ceremony, there is preparation. One thing to prepare is the flower offering. Each morning, I go out to pick one or two zinnias, one or two marigolds, and maybe a wildflower, blanket flower, or purple cone flower. But always at least one zinnia.

Image result for zinnia beeEvery morning when I pick the zinnia, I am thinking how beautiful these flowers are. I marvel at their form, their petals, the little yellow inner flowers, ringed by the larger pink petals. I watch the butterflies and bees enjoying them, and I am fully consumed by their beauty and the life they sustain.

One of these flowers is always offered to Haidakhan Baba, as part of the fire ceremony. I make sure to choose the “most” beautiful one to give to him–but since they are all beautiful, it’s an easy decision.

So, for 5 weeks now, I have been doing this: marveling at the beauty of the flowers, and offering that beauty to Babaji.

This morning, I realized the connection between this ritual and abundance: I want the abundance to give beauty to God. I want a beautiful home that I give/dedicate to God. I want a beautiful yard that I give/dedicate to God. I want my work to be beautiful and to give/dedicate it to God. I want everything I do to be beautiful, and I want to give this beauty to God.

This hearkens back (BTW) to Journey of Worth, in which one of the reasons for the Journey was to cultivate a life worthy of the Holy Spirit. Beauty is worthy of God, in the same way that the Holy Spirit deserves a life worthy of Him.

I have abundance issues, to be sure. I’ve been working on and through them for many years; this Journey is peeling another layer, so to say.

Beauty offered to God feels like a way for me to reconcile worldly things, “Not mine, yours”, with spiritual pursuits.

Nothing I have or own or do is mine. It is all given to God. If I think of it this way, that everything is God’s, then I don’t “have” anything. Nothing is “mine”, there is no “mine”. Everything that is already God’s can come through me, without me holding onto it, or wanting it. All of my “wanting” can be solely for the purpose of giving to God–releasing everything, and being the open door.

How this fits with today’s Guiding Thought:

Divine Love is infinite. Therefore, my Source and Supply are infinite. God is infinite. God is All-giving. It’s up to me to align my consciousness with that infinite Source and Supply. One way to do this is to remove all barriers to It, as it comes through me, and to do something with the wealth (in whatever form), as it comes through me that It would want done with that wealth. This is how money, wealth, and prosperity increase in my life experience, because I use that money, wealth, and prosperity to fully express my Inner Divine-Love Presence; I embody Love in the world, increasing True Wealth in the world and in my life experience.

Now I walk in beauty – beauty is before me – beauty is behind me, above and below me.

I Am Becoming -Abundance (1.5.13)

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Guiding Thought

Fill your mind and heart with Love, and align with the Light of Truth. Be Steadfast and focused on your own Loving Presence; live in the peace of fulfillment of your own Divine Identity.


I wonder what’s next for me?

I wonder this on many levels.

  • What’s next for my personal growth? I’ve been going through some personal growth (inter-relational stuff) for the past 6 years, that all has been very difficult; but I think I am through it, finally–and so much the better for it! What’s next!?
  • What’s next for my spiritual progress? My spiritual advancement has grown it seems by leaps and bounds in the past two years–first my mundan, then my 40-days of fire ceremony to the Divine Mother, now another 40-days of fire ceremony to Haidakhan Babaji and the Divine Mother; I recognize myself as spiritually fulfilled–which only began after the mundan. And I am now recognizing that fulfillment in others more and more.
  • What’s next for my service projects?  What’s next for my abundance growth?  My service projects are bringing me a different kind of fulfillment–and I think they are leading me toward my next abundance growth-spurt. So much of my wondering, doubting, thinking about “when will this happen” has just dropped away–it’s no longer in my mind.
  • What’s next for my healing? I am on a really good track with my healing; I’ve been eating kitchari almost daily, and my body has been very appreciative.
  • What’s next for my learning?  I’ve come to a bit of a lull with my learning (learning fire ceremonies took a lot!), but I am anxious to see what captures my fancy next.
  • What’s next for my Love? One of my most beloved pets died about 18 months ago; then another died about a year after that. There was a void that I was not ready to fill. Then, over the summer, the Universe decided to fill it for me: a kitten was abandoned in my garage. It took about 5 weeks for him to trust me enough for me to pet him, but now (8 weeks after he first showed up), he is in the house as family. What new Love will this little guy teach me?

I am wondering these things, because I’ve already come so far. Part of the wondering is “what could be better than this”? “If I’ve gotten here, how much more amazing can I have in my life”?

I now live, most of the time, in the space of always having my mind and heart filled with Love, aligned with the Light of Truth. I falter now and again–like earlier today, when I was tired and hungry, and felt cranky…but it rarely lasts very long.

I feel like I can see through the mud of material reality. I can see (or sense) the spiritual reality that enlivens everything, that exists as everything, that calls to everyone and lifts us up to Itself.

Be steadfast and focused on your own Loving Presence; live in the peace of fulfillment of your own Divine Identity. It happens. I’m here to tell you. Stay steady, seek ye first the Kingdom, and all will be added unto you.

I’ve not arrived; I am becoming. And it’s getting really fun to watch.


Dropping Patterns, Clearing Karma -Healing (1.4.28)

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Guiding Thought

Today we decide to be aware of our Whole and Holy Self working within us, expressing through us. As we move through the affairs of our lives, with open minds and empty hands, we look first to our Whole and Holy Self for guidance. Our only decision today is to be aware of our Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with our Self.


Remember, obstacles are part of change and change is the law of nature. If you react, then the obstacle becomes larger. If you observe, pure observation, then the obstacle passes, as quickly as it was created.

As for serious problems. Consider these problems as opportunities for growth. Change is not easy. The ego rejects change, yet change is the law, change is the real. Obstacles to the higher path are many. That is why few arrive. If obstacles are non-existent then the ego will create them. Understand? Your ego is creating obstacles. Maya creating maya.

~Haidakhan Baba

I’ve been falling apart the past couple of days. At least as far as the Journey is going–my deep introspection, and working out my stuff.

I’ve been thinking a lot about karma lately, because I have been experiencing stuff that does not have an immediate cause. It’s just kind of coming up. 

I’ve had a lot of really good reminders to keep me on track, though. First (obviously), the Guiding Thoughts. I’ve been pretty focused to day on my Whole/Holy Self, so that has been keeping my feet on the path, and preventing my mind from straying (my mind has done a lot of straying over the past 48 hours).

Second, a friend of mine was describing another friend, who has been on the path of the Higher Self for about 40 years (about 15 years longer than I have). This person, apparently is able to just shift out of an emotional pattern/habit in a second. She is, literally, able to simply drop whatever the pattern/habit is that comes up for her, and walk away from it. wow.

I often think about people who are “further along” than I am, and I admire what they are able to do, that I can’t yet do. I feel very inspired, because I know how far I’ve come in 25 years. Looking to them assures me that I will go even further in the next 25 years. This work compounds, after all. Once you have the momentum, just a tiny effort keeps that momentum, and you can use more energy to clearing away even more and more.

Clearing away. Oh, yeah! That’s the point I wanted to make about karma. Karma gets cleared away. It really does. There are actual things a person can do to evaporate karma. I’ve sort of known this for a while– doing bathing, breathing, fasting, praying, mantra…all that stuff does it. But finally, I think, I’ve gotten to a point where I’ve done so much (and added more) stuff that is clearing, that I can feel (and see) it moving out. This is still new, but it’s an actual experience, something I can watch as I am going through it and releasing it. And I gotta tell you, it’s really cool. Now I want to dive in to this as an experiment and see what more I can do to have tangible experiences of clearing karma. Stay tuned…

Third, the above quote by Haidakhan Baba was a wake-up reminder, especially the last line: Your ego is creating obstacles. Maya creating maya. I knew this at one point, it seems like a long, long time ago. I remember specifically having a conversation with my dear BuddhaBrad who said this exact thing to me, in Buddha terms. It was basically, “The mind does not like things to be easy. The mind likes to struggle. So, when things are going along smoothly, the mind says, ‘wait a minute…something’s wrong; this is too easy. I need to jump in here and perceive a problem somewhere just so I can be comfortable again'”.

This goes right along with the karma thing. While releasing some karma, we also create it. All action has a re-action. That is basically the law of karma. Being free of karma means No action. But as long as we have a body, and are not transcended beings, we are acting, and creating re-actions. This means mentally, emotionally, physically.

This is why it’s in our best interest a) to take “good”, “positive” actions, so that the re-action is “good”, “positive”. b) Do the best we can to observe actions as they happen, rather than re-acting. When we simply observe, we break the pattern. Think of actions as a ping-pong being hit back and forth across a table. We are the players, the ball, and the observer. If we become only the observer, and stop being at least one of the players, the ball stops going back and forth.



Dicrysahe -Healing (1.4.22)

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Guiding Thought

We go deep within our inner stillness, and feel Divine Mind’s presence within. We hold out our empty hands, symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind; symbolic of seeking True answers, and ask, “What is the essence of healing?” These words resonate within us, as though in a vast cavern.  The word essence reverberates with these thoughts, “For what do we care most deeply?”; “What is our  essence?”; “What is our Truth?”; “Where is our deepest hurt, pain, and sorrow, that all may be healed?”


Mantras are most powerful when energetically spoken silently within your Diamond Crystal Sacred Heart. ~Joseph Barry Martin

Meditation teachers generally say there are three ways to repeat mantras:

  1. Out loud (known as Vaikhari Japa). This way accustoms a person to the pronunciation and tones, and serves to calm the mind. In this method, the sound becomes externalized. For many people, especially beginners, this makes it easier to focus on the sound and its energy.
  2. Whispered inaudibly, with the breath merely passing over the lips (known as Upamsu Japa). The sound remains internal, yet the brain and body are engaged in the motion of making words. This requires a bit more concentration and focus, since there is no actual sound to bring the brain back when it starts to wander. The mind must be responsible for the brain, and keep it focused.
  3. Silently (known as Manasika Japa). This is generally understood as a mental practice; the mantra is simply repeated silently, which is said to require much focus, attention, and concentration.

Please note that this summary is not advocating that one way is “more powerful” than another way. You will find writings that say the first is most powerful, and the third the least powerful (as in the Chaitanya Bhagavata story, which says Vaikhari is 100 times superior to Manasika), and you will find writings that say Manasika is more powerful than Vaikhari (as in the Hari-bhakti-vilasa). I suggest you try them for yourself, and see what works for you, depending on your own goals and intentions. (Also, another form of japa that is not relevant here, but worth mentioning is Likhita Japa. This is when a person writes a mantra repeatedly.)

I have tried all three.  Personally, I like Manasika Japa the best. When I am doing japa, I focus my attention between my eyebrows, where I hold a picture of the energetic representation of the mantra. So, for example, if I am doing Om Namah Shivaya japa, I hold a picture of either Shiva or Babaji at my forehead; if I am doing Om hang Hanumate Rudratmakaye hung phat mantra, I have a picture of Hanuman in my imagination between my eyebrows.

This morning, I was reading a book by Joseph Barry Martin and came across the quote at the top. Today, while doing my japa, I changed my style. Instead of using my mind/brain to imagine an energetic representation while focusing on the words, I moved my focus to my heart area and concentrated on “hearing” the energy through my heart.

It was intense. I would like to officially add a fourth method of doing japa. I call it Dicrysahe- Diamond Crystal Sacred Heart 😉  -and it means feeling the energy of the words through the heart.

Why does this matter for the Journey today?

  1. Because when doing japa via Dicrysahe, I found there to be this resonance (as though in a vast cavern). It felt literally like a magnified pulse emanating from my chest.
  2. It felt like it was a very direct experience of the sound, without the sound. After all, sound is simply vibration; if I can feel the vibration in my body instead of hearing it, it’s the same energy but a different experience of it–visceral and without a brain-interpretation.
  3. I felt like I had a new grasp of my inner stillness, and could feel Divine Mind’s presence within. I admit, I have a hard time with stillness (until now…). Stillness, traditionally means something like “calming the monkey mind”. In order to get to stillness, one must pass through the mind, which is always in chaos–that’s why there’s meditation–to calm the mind and get to stillness. But Dicrysahe completely bypasses the mind. Instead of having a battle in the brain between what to focus on (the chaotic thoughts, or the calming ones), Dicrysahe changes fields, where no battle exists, because there is no mind, because everything happens in the heart.
  4. When I did the Guiding Thought with Dicrysahethere was a similar more direct experience of the Guiding Thought. It was more difficult than with a mantra, because with a mantra there is repetition of sound and syllables, and with the Guiding Thought I really had to focus on the energy, rather than the words. But it felt solid and pervading.

This is all new. Pretty cool, huh? Try it. Let me know what you think.



Enjoy the Scenery– Worth (1.3.15)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

There is only one Will. That Will is Love: your Love, my Love, our Love, together. Only when you will in Love is the outcome assured in Love. Only when you will in Love do you know the results are truly beneficial to all, including yourself. Only when you will with Love are you Free and can affirm with certainty “All is as it should be”.


There have been two predominant themes so far for this Journey, subtexts of my intention to dig deeper into a relationship with the Holy Spirit and Divine Mother. Those themes have been: change and connection.

This came across my path earlier today:

You will find great changes as time compresses. Much will be accomplished in less time. Events around you are changing in this fashion. Be aware of these changes. Be alert to this changes. Be careful. Observe carefully in silence as events and circumstances are in a flux. Be alert to emotional changes. Be alert to behavioral changes. Observe these changes through an unconditioned mind. Do not judge, nor be critical. Just observe through silence, through a quiet mind, and you shall see change. Now chant the mahamantra. Place all observations through the filter of Truth, Simplicity and Love. Observe the truth of change. Observe the simplicity of change. Observe the love in change. Place truth into change. Place simplicity into change. Place love into change.   –Babaji

And, did you know that the full moon on April 30 was in Scorpio, which is the sign all about change: birth, death, regeneration?

Change is everywhere.

How does this relate to the Guiding Thought today?

It seems to me that being able to say, “All is as it should be” is like saying every second that I trust Divine Will, through whatever is going on at the moment, which changes from moment to moment.

Divine Will, in a sense, is the constant through the change: it is what is moving us through the moments of change. Divine Will is the train we ride, while we watch the countryside roll past. We don’t have to get caught up in the change of scenery. We don’t have to identify with it, or think that because it is changes there is something wrong or “bad”. We can just watch it, and enjoy it, and just stay on the train. If we jump off the train to stop the scenery from changing, then we just get stuck in the middle of nowhere.

Convergence (Purpose- 1.2.4)

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Guiding Thought

My Inner Divine Mind is always expressing itself in all ways through my own Loving Presence. This is its True Nature, thus this is my True Nature. I turn to my Inner Divine Mind as the Source of my happiness, my purpose, and my fulfillment. I allow it to flow through my own Loving Presence and appear as all my activity, as every visible form and experience I desire.


When you’ve hit rock bottom, you have nowhere to go but up. ~ Pattie Mallette

Freedom’s just another word for nothin’ left to lose. ~ Janice Joplin

You are more powerful than your human mis-creations. ~ Patricia Cota-Robles

We should do our work with courage…Karma Yoga is what will make you like lions; it will make you strong in this life. ~ Babaji of Haidakhan


In a moment of convergence, I saw my true nature of my Inner Divine Mind coming through my Loving Presence as all of these–rock bottom, freedom, power, work, and courage–at the same time.

“Rock bottom” was realizing that I had not succeeded in the way I wanted to–on my (ego) terms, I had “failed”. The choices I had made in one particular area lead me to a void of nothing, quite literally.

I had accomplished nothing I had set out to do; there was nothing to show for my time, effort, or money. In an objective way, I had failed. (Subjectively, I was not beating myself up, or feeling like “a failure”, thank goodness.)

But realizing my failure freed me: I’ve got nothing to lose, might as well go for it. 

The going for it in this case is to be the power that is more powerful than my mis-creations–and believe me, this “failure” has been a mis-creation. I saw how changing my mindset, allowing Divine Mind to act through me could produce miraculous results.

In that moment of accepting that I am more powerful than my mis-creations, I saw and understood the real power that comes with uniting with my Divine Presence–and how not doing so is weak and cowardly… I have enough issues with God, and don’t really need to add “weak and cowardly” to those. My strength is the strength of Divine Will, Divine Love, Divine Mind. If I am not living in such a way that those come through me, then I am not being the person God created me to be…Living “its vision and plan for my life.”

Thus the distrust of yesterday completely dissolved, because this statement: I submit my mind and heart, all my thoughts, words, actions to my own Loving Presence to be lifted to its vision and plan for my life now makes perfect sense, and not only makes perfect sense, but is something that I can embrace wholeheartedly.

Please note, this is a real situation in my life at the moment (even though I’ve given scant details). How better to learn the practical lessons of Divine Truths than to apply them to an actual experience? To allow Divine Presence to flow through my own Loving Presence and appear as all my activity, as every visible form and experience I desire?

See how things work out? I’ll keep you updated!