The Voice for God -Healing (1.4.33)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I rely on my own Loving Presence to lead and guide me toward the meaning of healing. Seeking the meaning of healing frames all my activity and gives context to all my interactions. Though I may encounter disturbances throughout my daily activity, I lay them at the feet of my own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing”? My own Loving Presence directs me as I listen in the stillness.

Reflection

Healing is not creating; it is reparation. The Holy Spirit promotes healing by looking beyond it to what the children of God were before healing was needed, and will be when they have been healed…The Holy Spirit is in you in a very literal sense. His is the Voice that calls you back to where you were before, and will be again. It is possible even in this world to hear only that Voice and no other. It takes effort and great willingness to learn. (A Course in Miracles, Chapter 5)

Here is what stands out to me today, both in the Guiding Thought, and in the Course in Miracles quote (which came up for me earlier today, out of the blue):

When a person seeks for healing, the seeking need not be blind, haphazard, arbitrary, or random. There are guides who know and can guide one to healing.

…but, “It takes effort and great willingness to learn”, which may be why healing seems like looking for a needle in a haystack. Most people a) don’t know where to turn for True help (one’s own Loving Presence and/or the Holy Spirit) and b) don’t want to make the effort. (Let me just note, that I am not conflating “Loving Presence” with “Holy Spirit”; however, I would assert that a person’s Loving Presence is the inner channel–a person’s personal radio-station, let’s say–to tune into the Holy Spirit.)

In other words, we don’t know what we are doing when it comes to healing. We try this, we try that; we listen to this guru, try that affirmation, take these pills, go on that retreat, buy this product, then that product, then the next product…because we don’t know what to do, so we have to try it all until “something works”. And here and there, something does work…we heal a bit, or feel a bit better, or get more energy, or relieve some pain.

This is why healing seems random and arbitrary, and sometimes is temporary. We are looking without a guide who Knows. Sure, some gurus, physicians, healers, can tap into Divine Source and give us really good information (which is then up to us to put into action); sometimes there are people who can help us connect with the Holy Spirit; but we have to find them, and in the meantime, the rest is trial and error. (See this page and this page for things that I find to “work” and that I use regularly to heal body-mind-soul…and to connect with God).

Until we go to the source of healing, the Voice of the Holy Spirit, and turn to God, we are relying on incomplete or inaccurate information; sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. God–the Holy Spirit–always works. We just have to make the effort.

With this, I now have an even better understanding for why we begin each round of this Journey with really hammering home that healing needs to be approached “forgetting” everything we think we know, with empty hands, and as a blank slate.

We have to drop everything so that there is only the Holy Spirit’s Voice.

Do Unto Others– Worth (1.3.30)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

If we are to be our Self in the world, we must be for others as well as ourselves. There is no other. We are willing to be receptive to the Infinite Love of All. We are willing to understand how we must rise above the struggles and pains of the world. We are willing to rise again and again with each call for help, each outstretched hand. We are willing to be the ones to choose to change. We offer our pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation, into the light of Love that we may see and give only the light of Love always.

Reflection

I had an incredibly emotionally uneventful day. Such a welcome after the past four weeks! Maybe it’s the japa I’ve been doing; I can–by now–feel my mind sort of tighten, like it’s flexing after a session of strength-training, when I do a lot of japa. I am very thankful for japa. It’s one of those things that whenever I leave it alone for a period of time (as I have for the past 2 months or so, even though I’ve been doing other mantra practices), and then come back to it, I always wonder how I stopped, because it just feels so good.

My practices, my “little devotions” as I now like to call them, are often in flux. There are several that are my backbone practices– bathing, breathing, japa or mantra. Then, there are others that come and go and come again like the spiral dance, yoga, Sacred Geometry, Om meditation, Violet Flame meditation, sitting with fire, orthodox prayers, etc. I am hoping that the fire ceremonies become a backbone practice, but I have not been doing them long enough to know.

Sometimes I wonder why I don’t or can’t just stick to one practice, like all those folks who have been meditating for 20+ years. I used to worry about it. I used to have this definition about spiritual practices that said “you must choose practice; you must do that practice.”

But I decided that my practice–my devotion— is God. Seeking God. Living a life worthy of God. Doing what is pleasing to God. With this, everything can become a practice, or a devotion. Life is the devotion.

I felt good about this insight when I read this in A Course in Miracles:

Use all the little names and symbols which delineate the world of darkness. Yet accept them not as your reality. The Holy Spirit uses all of them, but He does not forget creation has one Name, one meaning, and a single Source which unifies all things within Itself. Use all the names the world bestows on them but for convenience, yet do not forget they share the Name of God along with you.

We live in this world together. Despite our different bodies, we are unified, sharing the name of God.

If we are to be our Self in the world, we must be for others as well as ourselves.There is no other.

We are willing to be receptive to the Infinite Love of All.

Our struggles and pain divide us; these things take our attention away from the Infinite Love of All, and “demand” that we focus on ourselves. This is why we must rise above the struggles and pains of the world.

This is why we must understand our worthiness, understand our unity, and offer our pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation (healing!).

Only then can we rise to aid those with outstretched hands. Only then can we love our brothers and sisters as ourselves. Only then can we truly do unto others as we would have them do unto us.

And life itself becomes devoted to seeing and giving only the light of Love always.

 

New Beginnings– Worth (1.3.29)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

We extend the Love that we are, for that is all we truly are. As we learn to be aware, to understand and to Know our own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, our life experiences become worthy of us. Expressing our Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings us satisfaction, the only choice that allows us to experience our Self—the Love that we are. My-your-our- freedom depends on our right choices, depends on our choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us.

Quick check-in: How are you doing? Have you had a smooth and steady Journey, or has it been a bit tumultuous, like mine, or somewhere in-between? What types of insights have you had? Do you have any themes that have popped up? What feels significant to you? Don’t worry if you have no answers right now. When I first started doing the Journeys, I did not have any insights or connections until day 38, 39, or 40, or even after the Journey was over. The main thing is to get through the Journey. 40 days is a long time (at first), but you’re worth it!

Reflection

I really needed today’s Guiding Thought. While reading it, I just relaxed, and let out a huge sigh, thinking, “yes. yes. This is it. This is exactly what I want”.

I was also reminded of / reinvigorated with commitment. That is: my commitment to you.

This past month, I’ve really been in a haze of self-interested worry. “What about me?” “What am going to do?” “really need this >thing< to happen, so I feel better.” “How does this affect me?” and on and on.

And I owe you an apology. I’ve been self-absorbed (that’s the little self, the selfish self…), when I should have been Self-absorbed (in my higher Self, which universally cares for the highest good of every being). So, I apologize. My-your-our- freedom depends on our right choices, depends on our choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us, and I have not done a good job being dependable for the past few weeks.

I do feel like I am back on track–especially today, after this Guiding Thought’s kick in the ass.

It was a gentle kick, reminding me exactly of why I am doing this Journey. This is exactly what I want:

As we learn to be aware, to understand and to Know our own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, our life experiences become worthy of us. Expressing our Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile.

I want to Know the Will of Love. As I’ve been doing my prayers over the past 48 hours, the subtext has been, “Thy Will be done”. And sometimes, I include, “Thy Will be done also in me, a sinner”. (Just a quick explanation: worthiness, or unworthiness, for me is tied up in feeling the guilt of having “fallen”. I mean this, “fallen”, as both in a Catholic sense, but also in a broader sense, of simply having forgotten who I am, and forgotten my divinity. I find that acknowledging this helps me move through/past it. You may read this  for more detail from earlier on this Journey.)

I want my life to be worthy of my Highest Divine Self, worthy of the Holy Spirit, worthy of God. It seems ironic, or a bit of a paradox that in order for “me” to have a life worthy of the Divine, “I” cannot do anything. I have to let the Divine operate in me, through me, as me. If “I” do something, invariably, I screw it up (I’ve been reflecting on this a lot lately, too.) Yet, “I” am the recipient of the results, that is, the “me” that experiences this life. It feels so counter-intuitive to do nothing, yet receive everything. I still don’t really understand…and yet…I do.

Finally, I do not often talk about astrology, mainly because I don’t really know that much. But I do pay attention, and think about “what’s going on out there” and “what’s going on in here” to see what kind of reflection/learning I can see.

Here is a short description about today’s New Moon:

May 15th 2018 is the big day. We have a New Moon in Taurus and just 3 hours later, Uranus enters Taurus! New Moon = new beginnings and Uranus changing signs = major new beginnings…just keep in mind that this is BIG. Something in your life will shift. If you have planets or angles in the first degrees of the fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius) you will feel the shift even stronger. (from astrobutterfly.com)

“New beginnings…and major new beginnings”. With this is mind, I dedicate today’s post to the new beginning of focusing, with renewed vigor, on making choices according to Divine Will, and creating life experiences that are worthy of US. I dedicate this to you, and your freedom in Divine Love.

Peace. Peace. Peace.

 

Heal and Forgive– Worth (1.3.16)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

We are ALL One. You are not alone. Alone becomes All One in Unity and Healing. You are that which I am, which we become together. There is no separation— through healing and forgiveness, we unite. At One there are no limits, at One there are no boundaries. At One you are free—with me.

Reflection

Oneness is a tough concept. How can I say, “we are ALL One”, when obviously you are you and I am I?

I get it. I get how people don’t understand Oneness, or deny it, or can’t grasp it.

I’ve been wrestling with this a long time. I still don’t get it, really. I still perceive through my senses in a way that separates and divides. I’ve come a long way, and I would say that I have faith in Oneness, but I do not Know and experience Oneness. But I am still working on it 😉

Here’s how I currently understand it:

Oneness is “that place” (that is not a physical place, but more like a mental place) that is beyond the senses, beyond the body, beyond all material reality.

Oneness is (simply, ha) a shift into non-perception, into Knowing, also known as salvation or moksha or freedom.

This place can be called (and even has been called) Pure Consciousness, Pure Love.

It is “Oneness” because in that place of no-perception, Everything is simply Known as Everything.

But here on planet earth, we live with senses, in a material reality, with brains that like to categorize and think, and discern, and judge.

So we have to teach our brains to go beyond, to let go of perception, discernment, judgement, and all of its divisions.

This is (one of the) the role(s) of healing and forgiveness. In a moment of healing, we “perceive” ourselves as whole. In a moment of forgiveness, we unite with another person.

We can do this again and again and again, with every moment, with every perception: heal and forgive, heal and forgive, heal and forgive.

The more we do this, the more our little brains expand into broader perceptions of wholeness and unity. But it takes time, because our brains like to work how they work (separating, categorizing, etc), and we do not really insist on shaping our brains in a new way. The more we practice heal and forgive, heal and forgive, heal and forgive, the more our brains evolve, the faster we get beyond perception.

Oh, and the Holy Spirit is the great unifier. Working with the Holy Spirit is a way to speed up teaching the brain to evolve. The Holy Spirit is a bridge spanning from separation to Oneness, that we may cross more easily.

Serendipitous Connections–Worth (1.3.9)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I extend the Love that I am, for that is all I truly am. As I learn to be aware, to understand, and to Know my own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, my life experiences become worthy of me. Expressing my Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings me satisfaction, the only choice that allows me to experience my Self—the Love that I am. My-your-our- freedom depends on my right choices, depends on my choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us.

Reflection

As you know, I’ve been working with the idea of transformation recentlySpecifically, the transformation of being directed 100% by the Holy Spirit, of submitting my will to Divine Will, through the Holy Spirit–as the Guiding Thought puts it, “to Know my own will as Love, and make choices according to that will”.

You may also be aware that even though I use terms like “Holy Spirit” (or any of the terms I use), I am not specifically ChristianI am not specifically anything. God is not Christian (or Hindu, or Muslim, or Sikh, or Eck, or B’hai, or whatever), so why should I try to be any one thing?

In that spirit, I’ve been thinking about the Holy Spirit, in relation to Shaktiwhich loosely defined is the power, or force, that brings the unmanifest into the manifest.

Here is what I found, quite unintentionally, when I was digging around for something completely different (funny how that happens–I was looking up Tandava). It was this first line that really grabbed my attention. I think I may be on to something.

Transformation is a gift from mystery to us.

As we awake to the reality of impermanence, Shiva appears as the ending of a cycle and ignites within us our inner fire of transformation. As we surrender unto the ever changing flow of life, Shiva supports us to see within the burning, a new way, a new path, the possibility to renew.

Simultaneously, destroying what is dying with one hand (fire) and reviving life with another (drum).

Shiva is the friend of all and his cosmic dance of Tandava keeps the world going round and round. Turning ignorance into new opportunities to free oneself.

He is called “The Auspicious One” and his blessings are infinite.

Shiva is the Exhale that brings a possibility for the NEW.

His consort is Shakti and without HER, Shiva is Shava (corpse – formless).

Shakti is the Goddess, the creator-ess of this world we live (inner and outer).

Shakti means sacred force or empowerment. She is the primordial cosmic energy and represents the dynamic forces of Nature, the compositional forces of the 5 elements. She moves through the entire universe as creative power, or the Great Divine Mother.

Shakti is the manifestation of creativity, fertility, abundance. She is creation, preservation and destruction. (see this link for full page)

Ripped Open– Worth (1.3.10)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

If I am to be my Self in the world, I must be for others as well as myself. There is no other.

I am willing to be receptive to the Infinite Love of All. I am willing to understand how I must rise above the struggles and pains of the world. I am willing to rise again and again with each call for help, each outstretched hand. I am willing to be the one to choose to change. I offer my pain, suffering, guilt and blame up for transformation, into the light of Love that I may see and give only the light of Love always.

Reflection

Mother, this is our only prayer: May no one in all the worlds experience pain or sorrow. Save us from out (inner) enemies. Om Tat Sat. (Sapta Sloki Durga)

Compassion is the understanding of suffering. There is no peace, joy, or hope until those who suffer are understood. Compassion is the soul of these words; without it, they are empty. Compassion fills them with truth, honor, and purpose. (From Medical Medium by Anthony William)

There is so much here today.

  • Being willing to see others as yourself (walk in someone else’s shoes).
  • Being willing to feel pain and suffering–and walk through it.
  • Being willing to feel the pain and suffering of someone else, and respond to it with compassion.
  • To release pain and suffering “up for transformation”.

As I’ve mentioned several times now, I have been working more with the Holy Spirit, and the Divine Mother/Femine energy. I’ve been praying, chanting, and doing other devotions specifically to connect with this “Shakti” energy.

When I wrote this Guiding Thought a couple of years ago, it meant something different to me than it does today. Then, I thought it meant that I’m supposed to “be the strong one”, or “help people through something”, or “take on the pain and suffering so others don’t need to”.

Not today.

You see, I’ve been digging deeply into my own pain and suffering (which has come out at odd times, mostly in the middle of the night as anxiety and panic, with tears, many tears). I feel frozen, I feel defeated. I feel hopeless. Sometimes I feel like I am going to die.

And there is nothing can do. The feeling is, “I’ve tried everything. I’m at a loss. I don’t know what to do, or where to turn”. There are prayers written for this feeling.

From the Orthodox tradition:

  • Suddenly the Judge shall come, and the deeds of each shall be laid bare; but with fear do we cry at midnight: Holy, Holy, Holy art Thou, O God; through the Theotokos, have mercy on us.
  • Grant me not to fall asleep in the death of sin, but have compassion on me, O Thou Who wast voluntarily crucified, and hasten to raise me who am reclining in idleness, and save me in prayer and intercession
  • It has been a lesson in asking for Divine intervention, Divine help, and giving up…really giving up. When the feeling is deeply that “there is nothing I can do to help myself”, there is comfort in turning to the Divine Mother/Holy Spirit.
  • heal the perennial passions of my soul. Guide me to the path of repentance, for I am tossed in the storm of life. Deliver me from eternal fire, and from evil worms, and from Tartarus. Let me not be exposed to the rejoicing of demons, guilty as I am of many sins. Renew me, grown old from senseless sins, O most immaculate one. Present me untouched by all torments, and pray for me to the Master of all.

From the Hindu tradition:

  • I have fallen in the ocean of birth and death, and I fear their sorrows. I am trapped by my ego, with its countless desires, greed, pride and lust.
  • I do not know how to be righteous or find your abode. I do not know how to achieve freedom by dissolving my ego. I am devoid of the will to fight; I surrender. I am not strong enough to make any vow.
  • My mind is always engaged in worthless thoughts and actions. My intellect has become dull, enslaved by old habits. I am unable to behave honourably and my intentions are self-serving. My speech is harsh and hurtful.

I have asked for this; I have asked for transformation. I have asked to be cleansed and purified, so that I may be a pure vehicle for the Holy Spirit. Ask and ye shall receive. But be prepared–it ain’t all smiles and roses.

My current experience is that when I allow myself to really feel these things, it is like I am just ripped open and stuff I didn’t even know was there (and that I don’t know what it is, necessarily) pours out, and keeps pouring out. This is when it’s not all happy and pleasant.

The good news is that this is the death of the ego, and there is Divine aid. Jesus is there to help. The Divine Mother is there to help, along with the Holy Spirit, and any/every other Divine being who you call to.

They are the embodiment of today’s Guiding Thought. They are fully for others, and they know there is no other. They are the embodiment of Infinite Love of All. They have already risen above the struggles and pains of the world, and they are here to help us do the same. They accept our pain, suffering, guilt and blame and transform it, into the light of Love that we may see and give only the light of Love always.

 

Why A Journey of Worth (1.3.0)

Greetings, and welcome to the first day of Journey of Worth! Whether you are here for the long-haul, or just stopping by, I am glad you are here. Perhaps something within you is beckoning to you to seek/find your greatest worth and its expression?

For those of you who are new here, this is a Consciousness Journey: a way to communicate with your Inner Divine Self, to gain deeper connection with your Highest Self, your Divine Self, and thereby enrich your relationship with God. This is done through a series of contemplation exercises (40 days!).

The Journeys are not rooted in any religious tradition; the idea is to connect with God through you, through yourself–your mind, heart, and will, however, whatever, God is to you. I have kept the Guiding Thoughts non-specific (non-religious) in this regard, but feel free to substitute words that you like better (for example, if you don’t like when I use “Inner Divine Self”, you might use “best self”, or “highest self”)–what matters is that the words pull you toward your “best self”.

Today we begin with a little reflection about why we want to contemplate worth for 40 days. 40 days is a long time…might as well start with some clarity, don’t you think?

What follows is my own reflection. Pull out your journal to write, or get some crayons to draw, and spend some time reflecting on worth. What is self worth? What defines it? How does a person express it? Do you have it? How can you get more of it? Etc.

Ready? Here we go!

Reflection

Yesterday I wrote a bit about finding purpose (from the previous Journey) in strengthening my relationship with the Holy Spirit. Now, this purpose is a foundation stone to this Journey: my relationship with the Holy Spirit is key to understanding my worth, and increasing my awareness of it.

Here is how this realization happened for me: I am constantly working on uniting my will with God’s will–I’ve gone through lots of phases/stages/levels, including issues of trust, submission, letting go, faith, courage, etc.

As I was better-acquainting myself with the Holy Spirit during the last Journey, I more-or-less had a feeling/understanding that working with the Holy Spirit was another level of cooperating with Divine Will. It was as though I had passed through all of the tension-fear-uncertainty of “submitting” and “letting go” and I had entered the phase beyond those–where trust is the fact, not an issue to be worked through.

I’ve been praying to and thinking about the Holy Spirit fairly regularly on a daily basis, increasingly for about 6 months (so, yes, Journey of Purpose began with some momentum in this regard).

Just a few days ago, I was musing about my life, what I wanted from it, where I want to go, while also connecting my mind/heart with the Holy Spirit. All of the sudden, out of the blue, I thought, “I want a life worthy of You (meaning the Holy Spirit)”. Immediately, of course, the word “worthy” caught my attention because I knew I would be starting this Journey.

So, I thought about that. What does it mean to have a life that is worthy of the Holy Spirit? What does that look like? How do I do that? I realized that having a life that is worthy of the Holy Spirit is the only kind of life worth having. And that kind of life is the only life worthy of me.

So there it is: Why a Journey of Worth? To expand my consciousness that I might live a life worthy of the Holy Spirit and my Self, through myself.

Thank you for being here. I look forward to the Journey with you. Love to you…