Wiser Self to the Rescue!: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 14

Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Divine energy nourishes you, heals you, and brings God into your mind and body. Enlightenment moves you, awakens your Soul, and firmly grounds you in all you do. Your energy creates your life experiences; your being is only love and light.

Reflection

I want to live in the space of this Guiding Thought. I want this description to be how every moment of my life is.

I feel like it can be; I feel like I am on an edge, where it’s possible. Yet, I am pulled constantly into the “reality” of fluorescent lights, chattering, and computer screens (or phone, or tablet…).

I feel like I am in a tug-o-war. On one side pulling me is the energy of enlightenment, and on the other stands the humdrums of “life”.

Even though the Guiding Thought says that “Enlightenment…firmly grounds you in all you do”, I feel instead like “all I do” distracts me from enlightenment.

At least today. I do not always feel this way. It has been particularly strong, this feeling of distraction, the past few days.

Am I “trying to escape” something? Am I just bored? Whatever “it” is, I am neither fully “in” one thing, nor fully “in” another. And that feels distracting too, as well as aggravating.

I am in this gray in-between space, I feel the pull of where I want to be (let’s call it Love and Light), but cannot follow it, because following it would mean closing my eyes and going within to feel it (which I can’t do while I am, for example, driving, at the store, or trying to fill out databases).

Yet it does not “seep” into my activity—it sits there on the edge of my consciousness, beckoning to me to pay attention to it.

Feeling divided in this way is wearying.

I know it’s all in my head. I know it’s just a “state of mind”. I’m not sure why exactly I stay in this state.

Even now, writing this, I am coming out of it. I can feel the difference—I am more alert, more able to feel the love and light coming through. Why am I not able to do this all the time? (I can feel a part of myself saying (screaming, really) what is wrong with me!? I am simply acknowledging this voice… no judgement!)

I am glad that I know to be patient with myself. I have it written down, in fact! “Your brain may resist and object, and try to muddle your understanding, getting you to give up. Just acknowledge this, write about it, and move forward.”

It’s so funny to me. I wrote those words to myself weeks ago, and have not looked at them really until today. But there they are, saying exactly what I need to hear, when I need to hear it. What is also funny, is that I took the advice: Today’s whole theme is “acknowledge, write, more forward…” before I found the words reminding me how to handle such a situation.

Thank goodness for my wiser self who looks after me! Thank goodness for my Self who listens!

Making Fear Obsolete: Journey of Courage 2017 – Day 02

I am feeling very committed, very determined today. There is no wishy-washy in my determination to accomplish this Journey. Too much is going on in the world not to give absolutely, completely, 100% to Love, Peace, Harmony.

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

When I attune my mind to the Oneness that is All of Life, I understand my place in Wholeness. I am the very Presence of Life, and this Presence of Life is me. I am blessed through this understanding. In return, I bless all I encounter.

Reflection

I am very excited about beginning this Journey. I’ve never been prone to panic or anxiety attacks, but recently (ok, let’s be honest, since November 9, 2016), I’ve had bouts of feeling overwhelmed with near-panic and worry. It does not happen often, or regularly, but when it does, I can’t even say what triggers it, or why. It just “comes upon me”. This morning was such a time. I thought, “this feels bigger than me”. And what was implied in that was, “I don’t know how to handle this, or even if I can”.

This is why I need a “Journey of Courage” just now.

Three  days ago, I wrote “[Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego] were so filled with trust in God, in His plan, that whatever the outcome, their Peace was unshakable”. Putting courage in the context of unshakable Peace, really makes courage unnecessary. Peace goes first into everything, clearing out any doubt, fear, or worry, which would otherwise require courage to face.

This is why I need a “Journey of Courage” just now: I want the idea of courage to become obsolete, as fear, doubt, and worry dry up, evaporate, become as dust to be blown away in the gentle breath of Peace.

This Journey does not focus on strengthening courage. Instead of strengthening the tool to use against fear, this Journey aims to eliminate the fear, so the tool is not necessary.

How?

Unshakable Peace.

We can get there.

What do you want? How badly do you want it? When I woke up this morning, with that lump in my chest from nowhere, thinking, “this feels bigger than me”, I was so glad that I had just written this two days ago:

I declare that I know my Divine Self is bigger than my fears. I know that I am connected with a Power greater than myself which flows through All, connecting each with ALL, and providing All Good to All, at all times. Thus when I am aware of, understand, and Know this Power through me, as me, I am able to walk in Peace and Harmony with All, approaching All with Love. I am committed to realizing this Power through me, as me, in every aspect of my life.

My near-panic may feel bigger than me, but the power I AM is even bigger.