“Riding the Rapids”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 08

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Copyright Tam Black 2016
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Guiding Thought

Today I erase all I think I know of my Inner Divine Mind. I am changing. I am changed. All is new. With a blank slate of pure luminescence, I wait, simply feeling my inner glow.


I want this. I invite this. I welcome this!

I allow myself to change, to become more attuned to my Self, more aligned with my Self, and more congruent with my Highest Purpose.

As I wait and watch my Highest Purpose appear in my activities as people and circumstances, I breathe, I smile, and I live.



Holy crap, it’s only Day 08, and this Journey has already been waaayyyy intense.

I started on Day 01 talking about inertia and the energy required in overcoming impediments to movement or to a directional change. Day 02 was about one of my most difficult impediments to overcome: loving myself more (and more and more). Day 03 was about how to overcome that impediment: surrender! Let my own Loving Presence BE the love I am. Then what happens? I love as One (Myour, Day 04). Day 05, I actually wake up and realize that I am going through a process–this is all part of it; you would think I would be used to that by now… Day 06 and Day 07 are almost like…once I realized on Day 05 I was in a process I began resisting, and trying to figure out what it all means (and being in “Its flow”, rather than in “my” flow). So today is perfectly timely. I have to remind myself that I want this (“stop resisting”; “go with it”).

For about a week now, a bunch of stuff about flow has been crossing my path. Flow is generally understood as that feeling of complete involvement in an activity, where time passes like nothing, where focus and involvement meet absolute peace and contentment. At least, that’s how I feel, when I describe myself being in the flow.

But this Journey…it has a flow of its own that is like nothing I can describe. It’s like my normal flow has increased, and instead of a gentle, gliding experience, I am riding the rapids. Complete involvement? Yes! Peace and contentment? Yes! But with a lot more “whooaaaa, I need to hold on!”

That’s why today’s Guiding Thought feels like such a great reminder (they ALL have so far!). I WANT THIS. It may not be what I thought it was supposed to be, it surely isn’t something I expected; I have no idea what is going on, but dammit, here I am…and I have to remind myself I ASKED for this. I WANT this. THIS is how we change.

And this ALL refers back to Day 01: I am changing my inertia…intentionally. I am shifting directions; I am moving differently. Of course it feels like rapids: it is.

On and On: Journey of Courage – Day 07

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Guiding Thought

Love is strong! Powerful! I embrace Love and wield it through my awareness of Oneness. Oneness destroys the illusions of the mind, of the past, and of the material world. I move forward courageously with Peace in the Truth of Love and Oneness.


Sometimes “wielding Love” provokes a fear-response.

I feel many layers/levels responding to this Guiding Thought today. One level is a deep, all-pervasive calm and peace. It feels like the observer, the stillness of Knowing, which is devoid of reaction, devoid of feeling anything is “right” or “wrong”.

As I sat with/in this space, I found I wanted to go deeper into some questions, concerns, and doubts. After all, if I am in a space of non-judgmental peace, I can look at “stuff” (supposedly) without a harsh reaction from my mind and emotions…so…that is what I did.

I looked with greater analysis and assessment of my thoughts and actions regarding several aspects of the expression of my Divine Self.

Part of being self-aware and of moving consciously in the world, expressing my Divine Self, is to ascertain whether or not I “walk my talk”. Thus, I look at—analyze and assess—what I say and what I do. I look for:

  • Consistencies—where I think I am aligned within and without. These help me acknowledge I am on the right track.
  • Inconsistencies—where what I say and what I do are out of alignment. These help me know where I am still experiencing the illusion of separation.
  • Those things that are not misaligned but that are things I can do better. I always find things I can do better.

That’s a large part of what these Journeys are for me: continual assessment and analysis of staying the path, becoming more consistent, going deeper, and aligning every single thing I come upon into Divine Oneness.

Acceptance and forgiveness are very important in this process. As long as my mind is involved, it will always find those places of apparent inconsistency and “need to do better”, which require me to relax and forgive, lest I drive myself (or the people around me) crazy.

Also very important is entering and being-with the all-pervasive calm and peace. “Oneness destroys the illusions of the mind, the past, and of the material world”.

As I said, in my state of peace, I began to look at, in a deeper way, my thoughts and actions. My focus was spiritual:

  • What is devotion?
  • Am I devoted enough?
  • Do I pray with heart-felt sincerity?
  • How pure are my intentions?
  • Do I have inner and outer integrity?
  • Do I praise and respect the Divine in/as All?

What I found is that even though I am doing OK with being consistent, my standard is rising. I want to be more devoted; I want greater sincerity, purity, and integrity.

With an increase in the standard, I felt more of the “I can do better”.

With that, I needed to invoke acceptance and forgiveness.

As all of this was happening, I also seemed to feel confused and frustrated. How am I supposed to do more? I was not unwilling, but I felt exasperated and small.

It was good!

Love lifts us to itself. When we are ready, it gives us more. Then we work through our responses to it (with gentleness, patience, and forgiveness), and raise ourselves to its standard. We become more congruent and consistent on a new level.

And on and on…until we finally Know Oneness together.

Intention Sets Direction, Brings about Experience. A Journey of Fulfillment: Day 04

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My Self wills only to extend itself. Extending, sharing, creating as Divine Love, through Divine Mind, is my sole purpose. My Self knows its fullness in Divine Love and wills only to liberate me to fulfill my purpose and my joy.


Purpose, Joy, Extending, or Sharing all fit together in fulfillment. Sharing Divine Love, though, is key. I can share or extend other things that are not of Divine Love, but these things do not fulfill my purpose and thus do not release my Joy.

When I share things that are rooted in exclusion or judgment, division or separation, arrogance or greed (which includes fear of loss or fear of scarcity), I am withholding my Self. I am limiting the un-limitable—or at least I am attempting to! But how much wasteful energy is this, trying to impossibly limit the infinite?

Not to mention the damper that puts on Joy.

Only I can block my joy; only I can withhold my purpose. I am the only one that limits me.

Why do I fight against my Self? It’s not intentional, I assure you.

But wait… “intentional”… intentional…I can say glibly, “it’s not intentional”, but what really is my intent?

In so many situations, how often do things “just happen”? How often can I say, “I didn’t mean for it to happen”? Underlying these is the implied, “It’s not my fault” and “I’m not responsible”.

Yet, I am the only one who thinks my thoughts, sets my goals, decides my direction, and catalyzes my intentions.

I am the only one that limits me; I am the only one that liberates me.

Everything I experience I have asked for—I have intended, although I may not be aware of what I have intended.

Either I can decide an outcome in advance and be aware of my intention, or a situation can “just happen” and I can try to figure out what it means after the fact.

Which is preferable? I choose intentional action.

In light of this, I have a new guideline, assisted by today’s guiding thought. As I go through my day, my goal is to extend my Self through Divine Mind, creating with Divine Love, and to extend Divine Love through my Self, creating with Divine Mind. I repeat this; I remind myself. As “things happen”, this intention becomes my standard for evaluation:

  • Have I thought with Divine Mind?
  • Have I acted in Love, sharing?
  • Have I been inclusive?
  • Have I focused on wholeness, cooperation, good will?
  • Am I joyful?

I experience. I observe. I assess and evaluate. I modify and change…(I remember Divine Love just a little bit more; I am kind, just a little bit more; I am patient, just a little bit more; I express my Self, just a little bit more)…then I have new experiences…