Gratitude for- Healing (1.4.2)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I go deep within my inner stillness, and feel Divine Mind’s presence within me. I hold out my empty hands, symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind, symbolic of seeking True answers, and I ask, “What is the essence of healing?” These words resonate within me, as though in a vast cavern.  The word essence reverberates with these thoughts, “For what do I care most deeply?”; “What is my own essence?”; “What is my Truth?”; “Where is my deepest hurt, my pain, my sorrow, that all may be healed?”

Reflection

May I begin by saying that I am so very grateful to be doing this Journey of Healing at this time. It feels so right.

First, in not defining what I want to heal, or what I want to focus on, I’ve opened myself to allow (it seems) miscellaneous stuff that needs to be released. I’ve been having a lot of thoughts about my childhood, and it seems I am working through some alone-ness, some “ignored”, and some “not-heard” issues.

Second, I’ve given myself permission to make healing the #1 priority in my life. Nothing else is important to do. What is most important is to do my healing practices, which include but are not limited to, this Journey. This is not to say I am not doing other things–I am still working, doing my household chores, taking care of my family, but the perspective is that of first making the healing practices a priority.  I feel almost like I have established (or at am working at establishing) the energy of a “retreat” within my daily schedule. If you’ve been on a retreat, call to mind how it felt to have the time and space every day to breathe into your Self. That’s it.

Third, just a note about the healing practices I mentioned above: I have committed to doing earth, air, water, fire, and mind every day for this Journey. These are my standard practices, but I do not always do all of them every day. So for this Journey, the schedule is: First thing in the morning bathe and breathe (water, air). Then a fire ceremony before 10 am (fire). Some time later, exercise for at least 30 minutes (earth). And at some point during the day, do the Journey, and mantra/japa (mind). This is how I have created a retreat-like atmosphere for myself–it does not matter what else I do, as long as these things get done.

Finally, for many years, I have understood that when I am working with spiritual energies, and spiritual practices, there are often things that I “learn” that are not conscious, and not a product of what I think I am intending. I’ve learned that much of the time, I need to simply listen to the energy or the practice; it has more to teach me without words and in silence, if only I pay attention. This is especially true of fire. I have learned to silently say to It (whatever the practice at hand is), “Tell me of You”. Then I listen with my body, so to speak. I feel the movement within, the energy, the flow. This is not always something that I even have to focus on, or be intense about. Just asking asking for It to “tell me”, is enough for It to teach me at very subtle levels. Especially with yesterday’s and today’s Guiding Thoughts, I am feeling this especially.

Love to you. Happy Healing. Be well. I am glad you are here.

Wheeee! Roller Coaster Ride– Worth (1.3.28)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

We are worth the effort it requires to move our minds to Love. We are worth the time of waiting, in patience, for Knowing to arrive. Every moment, every second that we open to simply being willing for Love to enter is a moment offered to Eternity; a moment offered to healing, a moment offered to Unity.

Love simply settles slowly, quietly, gently, beyond sense-perception. So we must wait in patience and take the effort to move our minds to join the quiet stillness of Love. Here we rest. Here is Peace. Here is all we want and need.

Reflection

I affirm: I am willing for Love to enter. I wait in patience. I move my mind to join the quiet stillness of Love.

The past four weeks have felt like an emotional roller coaster. Seriously. In all of the Journeys I’ve done, I’ve had ups and downs, but those were like a gentle roller coaster, with just a single track.

This Journey it’s been sharper, more frequent ups and downs, happening on several different levels and in a variety of areas.

Good thing I like roller coasters.

I’ve been reminding myself of different times in my life when I’ve experienced personal struggle, how I dealt with it (much of what I write about here), and how everything turned out fine.

I’ve been reminding myself that God always takes care of me–and everything works out really fine, as in ways that I would never be able to orchestrate, if I were figuring it out. And, that when I have tried to figure it out, I’ve been disappointed. Letting God do it is really the way to go. You would think I would not have to remind myself of this at this point… but, well, see the post a few days ago.

What is really humorous to me, is that this “struggle” isn’t even a struggle. It’s my mind playing tricks on me, and me buying into them. I’ve got so much going on that is exactly what the sages and gurus tell us happens in our minds, which things like meditation and spiritual practices help to tone down: my mind is full of chatter; it is telling me things that I know “aren’t real”; I’m “seeing” illusion; I’m feeling things that have absolutely no basis in either reality or my experience (even in the illusion). And yet, I’ve been buying into all of this to varying degrees. Thus the roller coaster.

This is humorous, because I can see it. I see exactly the tricks that my mind is playing with me, but I still buy into them. What is up with that?

I have reinvigorated some more of my mind-practices–japa mainly. I had slacked off of this when I began doing more fire ceremonies, and different daily prayers. And what’s funny about this is that I wrote about this very thing at the end of the last Journey.

The more I do these Journeys, the more they flow into each other, the more there are connections between them and within them.

Maybe the current roller coaster is because I’ve reached a point where I can deal with the convergence of more aspects, more layers, more dimensions of my being. But because this is a new point, and I’ve never actually dealt with this many aspects, layers, and dimensions of my being, it’s a bit of a challenge.

I’m going to go with that. And enjoy the ride.