Not Warm and Fuzzy –Journey of Freedom 02.12.21

Welcome to day 21, the first day of Round 3! How are you doing? How’s your brain holding up, maintaining a daily focus on Freedom? In the third round, the subject of the Guiding Thought is “we”. This is the “unifying round”. I am not just I, you are not just you. We are we, together, all One. Think of this as “society” or a social complex, if that fits for you; “we” are a collective of people. I cannot be in this by myself or for myself; I can only be with you and for you, equal to myself. This round serves to expand your notion of “I” and “you” into this unity of “we”.

Guiding Thought

Love is our natural state; In Love we remember who we truly are; we remember our holiness, our innocence, and our infinity. Love enlightens our minds and lifts our hearts. We feel buoyant and expansive! We are now aware of our Self as Infinite Love, unbounded and free.

Reflection / Contemplation

I have to come clean: I haven’t done a very good job sharing my frame of mind on this Journey. I’ve been doing the Journey, and outwardly the appearance is (I presume) that “all is well”–which it is, yet there are also things further underneath the surface that I have not shared. One of the big reasons I began sharing these Journeys publicly was to show, to demonstrate, the day-to-day process of shifting one’s consciousness, of progressing on the path. I want people to see that lifting one’s consciousness into higher levels of love, light, and Being is not always linear, it’s not always “fun”, it’s not just warm and fuzzy all the time. Doing this work is work. It’s work that cultivates the strength, courage, tenacity, and skills to do more of the work–and doing more of the work means having stuff come up to deal with in deeper/higher ways.

 

Recently, I have not been experiencing seriously f’d up shit–but certainly over the past 6 years of doing the Journeys I have. Sometimes I look back on things I have experienced and wonder how I made it through…but I didn’t just “make it through”…I made it through free of attachments or “negative” emotions. I am bouyant and expansive–and I owe it to doing this work (and a supportive relationship, and the Jharra, and the Havan, and prayers, and the Grace of God…).

That was all just a long preamble to my coming clean. Here is what’s going on beneath the surface for me while doing this Journey: I have not felt like I am focused on Freedom at all. My mind feels all over the place, everywhere except freedom. It feels like Freedom is too big for me to handle right now, so I am working on something much smaller, something I can handle, a much smaller “bite”.

But I am not sure what that bite is. It’s not like there is a focus, a theme, or a script. I am just doing the Journey as best I can, thinking about Freedom as best I can, and doing my best to notice, to be aware of what’s going on within me and around me.

I feel pretty certain that All is well. But I also feel a bit unanchored, “loose”, untethered, not understanding how pieces fit together. I don’t know where I’m going. Neither are these unusual or foreign feelings on a Journey–I just haven’t been telling you about them on this Journey.

I do know that the Journeys always get me to the right place–the next step for the evolution of my consciousness for it/me to progress further/higher/deeper.  It’s not “fun”, but I do love the work, and I love the anticipation of seeing where I’ll be “next”.

Peace to you. I am glad you are here. Thank you for the work that you are doing.

 

Journey of Freedom (August 11 – October 01) is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I have provided the Journeys free of charge since 2013. If you would like to contribute to site maintenance and administration costs, I accept donations and gifts via PayPal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

For information on Jharra, please see withpearls.com/jharra

For information on the Haidakhan Fire Ceremony, please see withpearls.com/havan

 

 

Realizing Freedom –Journey of Freedom 02.12.05

Guiding Thought

How can I live apart from God? God is indivisible. God is my Source and the Life within me. My Oneness with All through God was established at my birth, at the creation of my being. The realization of this Truth is the foundation of my freedom.

Reflection / Contemplation

The realization of this Truth is the foundation of my freedom.

I can think about the Guiding Thought.

I can feel about the Guiding Thought (see my reflection from Day 1!)

I can apply the Guiding Thought to my daily life and activities, and use it as a tool for growth.

or

I realize the Guiding Thought.

The first three happen every day. “I” direct my mind, emotions, and actions to accomplish (or at least strive to accomplish) the thinking-feeling-actions associated with the Guiding Thoughts. “My” mind is thinking. “My” emotions are feeling. “My” body is acting.

But realization is not “mine”. I don’t do it. IT happens. Without “me” doing/thinking/feeling anything, “I” suddenly Know something in a new way. I can’t predict it. I can’t say to Realization, “Come! NOW!” I don’t control it.

What “I” do think though, is “I” create the space where realization becomes possible.

And I do that through thinking, feeling, and applying the Guiding Thought. All the effort put into the contemplation of the Guiding Thoughts each day elevate my little mind, my little self to being receptive to the real (-ization) Truth of my Self, so that I can Know my Self. Knowing is way beyond feeling, thinking, or applying.

And what Truth is it to Know?

God is indivisible. God is my Source and the Life within me. My Oneness was established at my birth, at the creation of my being.

Journey of Freedom (August 11 – October 01) is now available as a free book.
You no longer need to wait for the Guiding Thoughts to be posted here daily–you may move at your own pace. This link will take you to the document in Dropbox; you may download it from there.

I have provided the Journeys free of charge since 2013. If you would like to contribute to site maintenance and administration costs, I accept donations and gifts via PayPal: paypal.me/SusanBillmaier Thank you for the energy exchange!

For information on Jharra, please see withpearls.com/jharra

For information on the Haidakhan Fire Ceremony, please see withpearls.com/havan

 

 

The Peacock and Caterpillar: Journey of Courage – Day 26

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

We are responsible! We are able to respond with and through conscious awareness of our inner-centered, silent knowingness, moment by moment. Anchored in the inner harmony, we face our own thoughts and actions with courage.

Sharing

I might be able to be aware of my inner-centered, silent knowingness moment by moment, but I don’t always know its plans for me. It sees the big picture of my life as a whole, where I see it frame by frame.

As I respond to each frame while anchored in the inner harmony, I am flowing with the big picture. If I step outside of that harmony I begin to wonder what the big picture is and how I fit into it.

When I am in the moment there is faith and trust because I can handle the moment. When I step outside the moment, everything becomes too big. I don’t put all the pieces together because I can’t see all pieces; I become confused and worried until I step back into the moment.

This is an extension of an idea central to these Journeys: co­-creating with the Inner Divine Self. I have to play my part. I have to be in the moment and let life take care of the rest. In every moment I need to be responsible for every moment. I am responsible for my participation in that moment through thoughts and actions, without necessarily understanding how those thoughts and actions fit into the bigger picture. When I try to figure out how they fit, that’s when things get overwhelming.

Simplify! The courage here is about staying in the moment, trusting without knowing the big picture. It’s about facing every part of life head on, directly and totally involved. Every part of my life is both my unique expression of thoughts and actions and an experience of the Divine Self’s bigger picture.

I bought a new phone about 6 months ago. Immediately I set a picture a friend had sent me of a peacock from his yard as my wallpaper. About 3 weeks ago I changed the wallpaper to a picture of a caterpillar I had found this summer in my garden. A week ago I “found” a healing practice called Jharra which uses peacock feathers. Is this coincidence? Or was my Divine Self, giving me a piece of the bigger picture in my daily moment-to-moment?  If it was, I wonder where the caterpillar is leading me!?

Picture attributed to Brad Vanlandingham Used by permission
Picture attributed to Brad Vanlandingham
Used by permission
"Caterpillar' copyright 2015 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
“Caterpillar’ copyright 2015
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls