“Masquerading Light”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 40

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Guiding Thought

I give today to Light. I feel the Light within pour forth; I feel my radiance, my glow. I see—with my inner eye—this light envelop and infuse all I encounter, all my words, and all my actions. I watch as others resonate with me, their light growing brighter in the sanctity of my own. To all beings and all situations today, I offer only light, and learn, as I do, the Wholeness of my Self.

 

Sharing

I’ve thought for a long time that humans are Light, masquerading as bodies. The feeling is kind of like the Wayne Dyer quote, “You’re a spiritual being having a human experience”. So, to paraphrase this, “You’re a Light Being having a human experience”. I never quite felt the truth in the Wayne Dyer quote, but I feel something, some stirring of recognition, when I paraphrase the quote using “Light Being”.

When I read today’s Guiding Thought, it’s almost like my entire being says, “Yes! This is what I want, this is who I am”.

In the spirit of being Light, giving light, and offering light to the Wholeness of my Self, I’d like to take a moment and give you light, right now. Take a minute to receive it…

In addition to Light, I feel so much love and appreciation for all of you out there, reading this, or not reading this. I have so much love and appreciation for all of the people doing the work, learning to love themselves more, helping others, being their own light, being an inspiration, finding their own way. If you are reading this, that means you. Thank you.

Our work, the work of love, of light, of service, is so necessary. Each of you making this contribution in your own life, taking any time what so ever to find ways to love, to find ways to give, are making a difference. Each of you sharing your stories, helping others, creating a network of empathy and compassion, are making a difference. I love you and appreciate you; you are so important to Life and its process.

As you recall, this Journey—and each round—begins with basically 3 days of emptying the mind and releasing any (old) notions of “what healing is”. Throughout this Journey I have thought (but not written), “What does this have to do with healing? What have I healed? What are the results? What is the relevance?” I have now figured out that the Journeys rarely lead me on a path of logic, but they always lead me appropriately, so I just “go with it”.

And I just realized, this moment of such deep love and appreciation for all of you, this recognition of Wholeness with you, this is the healing. We are Whole. We are Holy. I love you. The Journey is at an end (for now!).

There will be a short break for reflection on the whole Journey. I will post the afterword within the week! Then on to the next—Journey of Abundance begins July 28!

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Please enjoy this uplifting song of revitalization, hope, and pleasure of Life at the end of a Journey (the “theme song” for day 40)! 

“Literal and Figurative”: Journey of Healing – Day 39

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Before I get started today, I have a confession about yesterday. After I did the Journey, and talked about making the decision for the Whole and Holy Self, I went on with my day…and I had a moment of completely forgetting the Whole and Holy Self. I find that driving is the place where my more volatile emotions feel comfortable expressing themselves. No, I don’t get road rage. Yes, I do get very frustrated and angry at people who don’t DRIVE their cars, pulling out in front of me and going only 20 mph, braking at a green light, making a turn, then not accelerating. Sometimes I yell at people who do these types of things (“big peddle on the right!!”). No, I don’t swear at them. No, I don’t flip them off. It’s more like I just talk to them, sometimes very energetically and loudly. That happened yesterday. My behavior upset me. How can I be doing all of this spiritual work, and succumb to that kind of abandonment of principles? I felt guilty. Then I felt bad about feeling guilty… Then I let it go. Oh well. If getting a bit hot while driving is the worst behavior of my day and no one got hurt…I can forgive myself and move on.

I tell you this mainly because recently while watching Craig Ferguson on Join of Die, I was reminded that “Americans do not like hypocrisy…Charlie Sheen can be on the Late Show and say he loves hookers and alcohol, and the audience applauds…” but if someone like Bill Cosby falls, people really despise them, as much for what they did as for pretending to be otherwise.  I think I do a pretty good job of being transparent here, and not making any personal grandiose claims, but just to make sure you know…I had to make my “confession”.  🙂

And now the Journey!

 

Guiding Thought

I am the Light of Love. Light saturates my mind and body, surrounding every thought, and radiating out to All. Everything radiates Light in return. Everywhere is Light. I rest in Peace, Being Light.

Sharing

I love the idea of being Light. I always have, and I think about it a lot. It feels like something that is deep, old, familiar, and real. It’s like I feel like of course I am Light. But then, I’m not, I have this material body, so there’s a disconnection. But part of me feels like being Light is natural, normal, and once I think it enough and really focus on the Truth of Who I AM, then my body will be light.

Along these lines, I think about Jesus and the Transfiguration. He became light. And he also said, “all of this and more than this shall you also do”. So, it’s plausible I can become Light, right?

I also think about how I need to treat my body in order for it to become light. I think about what foods to eat, how much to fast (if at all), how to change my body to make it easy for it to become Light.

All of this is a literal interpretation of the Guiding Thought. I have a long way to go for this literal interpretation to actualize in my body.

Not everyone thinks about being Light in a literal sense. The Guiding Thought can certainly be interpreted in a figurative sense as well, where “Light” is the energy of Love, and represents you being the Love You Are.

I actually use the Guiding Thought in both the literal and figurative sense. I see myself as Light, and I see myself giving Love as Light to All. Whichever the case, I know it feels really good to think about Light.

“The River Delta Mind”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 38

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Guiding Thought

I decide today to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self working within me, expressing through me. As I move through the affairs of my life, with an open mind and empty hands, I look first to my Whole and Holy Self for guidance. My only decision today is to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with my Self.

 

Sharing

A decision is different than a simple statement of intention. The word decision comes from the Latin dēcīsiō, which means to cut off.  Think of your decision-making process like a river delta symbolizing different pathways in your brain where possible outcomes can flow. Then think about “cutting off” the flow to all but one of those pathways. That’s a decision.

If today we decide to be aware of the Whole and Holy Self, which means cutting off any activity of the lower mind. That means paying 100% attention to the Truth of us, expressing through us. (If you need a refresher on this, just look at yesterday’s post).

I know, I know. It’s not easy to do, especially when moving through the affairs of life. Those activities can be so distracting! Here is something I am working on for this: the affairs of life are Life itself. Embrace them as part of the Wholeness, as part of your Wholeness. And how do you do that? You do it by looking to your Whole and Holy Self for guidance.

That’s it. Decide today to be aware of the Whole and Holy Self, first, last, always. Everything else follows.

“Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven and all things shall be added unto you.”  The Kingdom of Heaven is within you; the Kingdom of Heaven is you, your Whole and Holy YOU.

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“The Truth of We”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 37

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Guiding Thought

Love is Wholeness. The essence of Love is Peace. The essence of Wholeness is Unity. My essence is Love, therefore, my essence is Peace; my essence is Unity. Since my essence is Unity, I share Love and Peace Wholly. Knowing the Unity of Whole Love and Peace with All is the essence of Holiness. I choose to be aware, to understand and to Know my Whole and Holy Self, which is Love. 

 

Sharing

I’m now interpreting this Guiding Thought in light of yesterday’s sharing, THE ALL in the All, because, what is more Whole than The ALL in the All and the All in ALL? I know it’s hard to talk about this stuff without sounding like I’m just playing word games…but I’ll try.

Think about it: What if you had 100 percent certainty, complete knowing that EVERYTHING (“The ALL”) was inside of you? What if you knew with absolutely no doubt that ALL of the love, presence, power, harmony, abundance, and intelligence of EVERYTHING is right there in you, as you? That’s your essence, the essence of Love…wouldn’t that give you deep and abiding peace?

And if you knew all that love, presence, power, harmony, abundance, and intelligence of EVERYTHING was also in everyone and everything else, as them, wouldn’t you feel Unity with everything around you?

And if you felt that Unity with everything around you wouldn’t you be absolutely happy to share that Love and Peace Wholly, with everyone and everything, knowing that they are doing the same thing, because they know and feel the same way?

That’s Holiness. That’s the Truth of You, the Truth of me, the Truth of we. One. Whole. Holy. Together.

“THE ALL in All”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 36

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Guiding Thought

As I unite in consciousness with my own Loving Presence, I unite with Divine Mind. Divine Mind is Infinite Being—it is now, here, always. I exist in Divine Mind, as It does in me, united forever—One. It leads me to Itself through my consciousness of my Self: my consciousness of my Self, as Infinite Being is Oneness with Divine Mind, is my Peace, is my Wholeness, is my Unity with All.

 

Sharing

Again, like yesterday, my early morning meditation was a prequel to the Journey. I was reading about The Kybalion, a collection of phrases, maxims, aphorisms, and precepts regarding the teaching of Hermes Trismegistus. One chapter this morning was titled “THE ALL” IN All, and the quote from The Kybalion which was deconstructed in this chapter was, “While All is in THE ALL, it is equally true that THE ALL is in ALL.”

Maybe it’s just me, but the phrase “While All is in THE ALL, it is equally true that THE ALL is in ALL.” sure feels close in meaning to I exist in Divine Mind, as It does in me, united forever—One.

Both of these are also in line with my recent contemplations on “I and the Father are One” (where the Father = Divine Mind = THE ALL).

I’m not going to dissect my own connections today or how I see more within all of this; I feel like this is something deep, which is stewing, and it needs time in the stillness within me (no stirring!) for all the flavors to blend appropriately.

I will, however, leave you with this extended quote from the book:

The Hermetic Teachings are to the effect that THE ALL is imminent in (“remaining within; inherent; abiding within”) its Universe, and in every part, particle, unity, or combination within the Universe. This statement is usually illustrated by [the Teacher instructing] the student to form a Mental Image of something, a person, an idea, something having a mental form, the favorite example being that of the author or dramatist forming an idea of his characters; or a painter or sculptor forming an image of an ideal that she wishes to express by his art. In each case, the student will find that while the image has its existence and being, solely within his own mind, yet he, the student, author, dramatist, painter, or sculptor, is, in a sense, immanent in; remaining within; or abiding within the mental image also. In other words, the entire virtue, life, spirit, of reality in the mental image is derived from the “immanent mind” of the thinker…

Let us say that Othello, Iago, Hamlet, Lear, Richard III, existed merely in the mind of Shakespeare, at the time of their conception or creation. And yet, Shakespeare also existed within each of these characters, giving them their vitality, spirit, and action. Whose is the “spirit” of the characters…have each of these characters a personal spirit, independent of their creator? …have the Venus of Medici, the Sistine Madonna, the Apollo Belvidere, spirits and reality of their own, or do they represent the spiritual and mental power of their creators? …Both propositions are true. [Othello is both Othello and also Shakespeare.]…

The ALL is in the earthworm, and yet the earthworm is far from being THE ALL. And still the wonder remains that though the earthworm exists, merely as a lowly thing, created and having its being solely within the Mind of THE ALL—THE ALL is imminent in the earthworm, and in the particles that go to make up the earthworm.

Can there be any greater mystery than this, “All in THE ALL; and THE ALL in All?”

The Kybalion: A Study of the Hermetic Philosophy of Ancient Egypt and Greece
Three Initiates
Pgs. 95-98, Kindle edition

“When the Light Comes Through”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 35

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Guiding Thought

My own Loving Presence is my personal connection with Divine Mind. Attuned to my own Loving Presence, I Know myself as Whole and Holy. As I feel my Inner Unity, I know: this is all I want; I have found all I seek.

 

Sharing

It’s not so much the moments spent here with the Guiding Thought that matter. It’s where those moments take you.

What do you see differently? What comes into your awareness that is absolutely right and perfect? What answers show up, sometimes without you even being aware of having asked a question? What do you find that seems to lead you to something more? What people do you unexpectedly connect with?

All of these things have happened for me, as I have been doing these Journeys. Most recently, it seems like I am being lead into the Guiding Thoughts, rather than the Guiding Thoughts leading me into something new—and that is a new experience!

This morning, before setting out on the Journey, I did my contemplative meditation. Mind you, I do not currently have a set meditation—I’ve kind of been jumping around with different styles that speak to me at the moment (including writing, reading, contemplating, drawing, making lists, writing letters to angels—maybe you wouldn’t call any of this “meditative”, but since through these activities, I connect with a flowing energy of Love, Openness, and Joy, I call it meditation!)

This morning, I was working with a meditation on the I AM presence: linking my mind to God, recognizing that God is the One Source, the One Power, the One Cause of Love, then visualizing God as a radiant sun, with me as one of the beams, thus acknowledging the Unity of myself with God: All that God is, I AM, all that God has is mine; the Father and I are One. Through this visualization, I was able to see/feel the energy of God coming through me. Like a river, a golden-white “beam” flowed through me, pouring out before me (“making all crooked places straight”). In different words, this follows the Guiding Thought almost precisely: Connecting with Divine Mind, feeling Whole and Holy, feeling the Inner Unity…and Knowing: this really is all I want.

It was as though the floodgates really had opened, without me trying to do anything. I could see and feel my Oneness with Source, and with that the phrase “I and my Father are One” took on new depth of meaning. But more than that, it took on new depth of application. It was both a reassurance of the reality of my relationship with God, as well as a call to greater action. I cannot know this river of Love flowing through me without taking it into every situation, every interaction, and seeing that Divine Light working.

What that means is that I must keep my channel clear, and make myself available for God at any time, and regardless of what is happening “out there”, I must remain fixed on God’s presence through me, trusting that all is well.

“Wrapping My Head around Wholeness”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 34

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Guiding Thought

To heal and be healed is to be aware; to understand, and to Know Wholeness. Thus I seek Wholeness, Unity, Oneness within my own mind and heart, and in all my actions and affairs. I focus on uniting the fragments within myself, so that I see only Oneness, which is the Truth of my Self. As I Know myself as the Oneness that I am, this Truth reflects in the world around me, confirming what I Know through my experience and life activity. 

 

Sharing

To heal and be healed is to be aware; to understand, and to Know Wholeness.
Why is this said as a statement of fact? Is it [a fact]? Does it require my belief? Is it True? What is Wholeness; what does it mean to “be Whole”?

One meaning of Wholeness is to be in an unbroken or undamaged state. Certainly this applies to healing. Does that mean people who seek healing are broken or damaged? Or, do they perceive themselves as broken or damaged? I supposed there are many types of “broken” or “damaged”—mental, spiritual, emotional; so, in this context, healing means repairing something that is broken.

Another meaning of Wholeness is “entire”, for example, “I can’t believe I ate the WHOLE thing!” How does this fit with healing? I think that in order for this to fit, it must be used in conjunction with the first meaning of “unbroken” or “undamaged”. If humans perceive themselves as anything other than part of an entirety (the Whole of Life), they do not perceive the Whole; thus, they perceive in a broken or damaged way. Healing in this second context means, opening up to the understanding that Wholeness includes everyone, every living being, including you (or me).

A final meaning of Wholeness is “a thing that is complete in itself”. How does this fit with Healing? Again, it must be considered in the context of the preceding definition. A person is only Whole within the entirety of Life, and the entirety of Life is incomplete without that person. Life is complete in itself, each person included in that completeness.

Thus I seek Wholeness, Unity, Oneness within my own mind and heart, and in all my actions and affairs.

If healing is Wholeness, as established above, then the only healing action to take is to seek that Wholeness, everywhere. Heal everything to Wholeness.

I focus on uniting the fragments within myself, so that I see only Oneness, which is the Truth of my Self.

Remember that Life is Whole, including you. This Wholeness and Oneness is the Truth of you. Seeking the Wholeness everywhere means seeking yourself everywhere.

As I Know myself as the Oneness that I am, this Truth reflects in the world around me, confirming what I Know through my experience and life activity.

Seeking is finding, thus the previous seeking comes to Knowing the Truth of your Self. When the Truth is Known, it is unassailable, unquestionable—and the Truth expresses itself in all your activity, confirming Itself.  

“Continuing on”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 31

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You’ve made it to Round 4, congratulations!

We are back to using “I” as the subject of the Guiding Thoughts. If you are new to the Journeys, please see this page for information about how the rounds change.

 

Guiding Thought

I clear my mind of all past notions of what I think healing is. I erase all memories and stories from my thoughts, leaving only a clean slate. I turn my attention to my Inner Divine Mind and I ask, “What is healing”? I wait and listen in silence; I take my attention deeper into the vastness of Divine Mind and ask again, “What is healing?”, “What is wholeness?”, and “What is holy?” I wait and I listen. Feeling stillness, I simply pause in the quiet and await my answer.

 

Sharing

 

In the English language, many times healing is called, “getting better”, as in “She had the flu really badly, but she’s getting better”. Or, “I was sick, but I’m better now”.  Can we then say that any kind of “getting better” is healing?

“The state of my finances is getting better.”
“I’m getting better at not always being late to an appointment.”
“I’m getting better at being more patient with people.”
“I’m getting better at not worrying so much.”
“My diet is getting better.”
“I’m living life, and learning to ‘do that’ better.”

In my (humble) opinion, any kind of “getting better” is about healing. “Improvement” is another way to look at “healing”. All these statements are intrinsically about healing: healing a mindset toward more stable finances, healing a predisposition to being late, healing impatience and worry, improving the diet, improving life.

The thing is, healing denotes an ongoing process, in a similar way that “journey” connotes movement, but not a destination.  Which requires me to ask, “At what point is one healed”? People can heal from an ailment, people can heal a broken bone, and these things are end points. When you’ve recovered, you are healed.

Healing is the process of being healed. What is the ultimate endpoint? Oneness. Love. Union with God. All the healings we experience (broken bones, ailments, itchy rash) are stops along the way of the Journey home.

For Journey of Healing, the intention and declaration written at the beginning, point you in the direction of your healing process. Since each Journey is really aimed at you “getting better”, all Journeys can be incorporated into any healing process. Though each person may have their own goal, like a particular healing from an ailment, the Journeys operate in the abstract, focusing on concepts such as “greater harmony”, Oneness, Love, etc. The Journeys, thus, are set up to heal–to improve– your mind/body/emotions/experience on all levels, in the various aspects of the Journeys.

My mind tends most often toward the abstract, toward enjoying “the Journey”. I am very comfortable with a process, without having a distinct end-point. You may find that frustrating, especially if you like closure, conclusions, reconciliations, and end-points, especially if you have an ailment that you want to heal.

Often, for me, the intention for each Journey is about simply “getting better” and being aware and understanding as best I can every day how I am “getting better”; the end-point is simply the end of the Journey when I reflect and ask, “What have I learned? How am I better?” Then, the next Journey starts, and I keep going, getting better, and continuing on.

“Shiva Dances on Me”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 33

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Prologue– I’d just like to make a quick “announcement” before the Journey today: You may or may not be aware that the Journeys up to this point have been a process leading up to a 50-year commitment, starting in 2018, to doing these Journeys. I’m in beta mode, working out bugs, getting the order “right”, working out the Guiding Thoughts, etc. I had planned for the next Journey to be Journey of Fulfillment, but as I have been going through this Journey, it has occurred to me that Journey of Fulfillment should really be after Journey of Abundance, so I have swapped the order. The next Journey will be Abundance (starting July 28), followed by Fulfillment (starting September 18). Thanks!

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Guiding Thought

I rely on my own Loving Presence to lead and guide me toward the meaning of healing. Seeking the meaning of healing frames all my activity and gives context to all my interactions. Though I may encounter disturbances throughout daily activity, I lay them at the feet of my own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing?” My own Loving Presence directs me as I listen in the stillness.

 

Sharing

Now is a time for courage. It’s time to be strong; it’s time to be brave. It’s time to remember what you want, what you really want, and be prepared to let everything else go.

It’s time for creation…and destruction. You are moving yourself toward Truth, toward the Truth of YOU. All false notions of who you are and what you are here to do must be laid aside. “Healing frames all my activity and gives context to all my interactions”. Healing is letting go of false notions and claiming the Truth of you. This can be experienced at times as upheaval–especially if you are invested in other peoples’ investments in you remaining the same. “Disturbances throughout daily activity” must be recognized for what they are: the release of the old, the destruction of things/situations that no longer serve your Divine Healing.

The Hindu deity Shiva Nataraj (dancing Shiva) comes to mind. The symbolism of the statue is instructive for understanding this process of creation-destruction. Shiva dances within a representation of the manifest universe, the material world, where the birth-death cycle holds everything in its grip. In this world, there is illusion, suffering, and pain. Shiva leads us out of this.

Shiva dances upon a dwarf which represents a human soul that is earthbound. The soul has forgotten its Divine connection and remains bound through its own confusion, forgetfulness, and unwillingness to lift itself (laziness). The leg which holds the dwarf down represents Shiva’s victory over ignorance. Shiva’s raised leg represents His assistance in releasing the Soul from its bondage.

Shiva is ever-active in taking action against ignorance, and releasing Souls from bondage. This is the destructive aspect of Shiva: He destroys those things that keep people bound. But people, in their confusion and forgetfulness, fear the destruction of those things that are familiar. Shiva is destroying what is counter to the person’s highest good, and creating that which is for the person’s ultimate good. (This is represented by the fire in the upper-left hand.)

But, Shiva even brings help to people. His lower right hand is in the position that symbolizes fearlessness. He offers this blessing to offer protection from both evil and ignorance to those who willingly embrace his ultimate creation (the righteousness of Dharma).

All of this adds up to Shiva leading souls out of ignorance and into liberation, signified by the lower left arm, in the “elephant trunk” pose.

There is, of course, more symbolism within the statue; I’ve only noted the aspects that feel relevant to this part of my Journey.

I am the dwarf, and Shiva is dancing on me. The difference between me and the dwarf is that I’ve asked for the destruction of things that hinder my healing, my spiritual growth, my enlightenment. I have the advantage of at least recognizing that the “destruction” is for my own good. And, I think this means that I am able to be more aware of Shiva’s protection, and I can face what comes with fearlessness. I can also be excited about what is being created!

“A New Era?”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 32

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Guiding Thought

I go deep within my inner stillness, and feel Divine Mind’s presence within me. I hold out my empty hands, symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind; symbolic of seeking True answers, and I ask, “What is the essence of healing?” These words resonate within me, as though in a vast cavern.  The word essence reverberates with these thoughts, “For what do I care most deeply?”; “What is my own essence?”; “What is my Truth?”; “Where is my deepest hurt, my pain, my sorrow, that all may be healed?”

 

Sharing

“Leave everything and follow me” – Jesus

Have you heard that the planet and it’s people are in the midst of enormous changes? Sure there is climate change, political upheavals, economic shifts, population movements. These, though, are merely the “symptoms” of the changes I am talking about. Some call the change the ending of the Kali Yuga (Hindu), the transition into the Age of Aquarius (New Age), or Earth Birth Changes (St. Germain), or “New Earth” (Eckhart Tolle). The crux of all of these is that we are at a time on the planet when people are “waking up” en masse, that there is a shift in how people think, what they think about, and how they want to live, and that shifting is affecting political systems, economic systems, etc . People are tired of being tired, downtrodden; they are tired of struggle, of anger, of hostility and violence; they are tired of a mass mind-set that does not value life, including the life of the planet. Sound familiar?

That is the context which “descended upon me” for today’s Guiding Thought. The empty hands are not only symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind, but they are also symbolic of leaving the old world behind. Leave everything behind. Leave behind anger, hostility, blame, desire, and greed.  Let’s create something new, something that is beautiful!

“Do not waste your time in wanting things that you know have their limit. Desire the ultimate, and you shall have it! Remember always the Divine Love, the Divine help, the Divinity ultimately within yourself. You are an instrument of this Love, and instrument of this joy and bliss and happiness. You have to reflect it, and for you to want to reflect it, you have to really want that reflection.” -Shri Swami Vishwananda

I don’t know what I believe regarding these changes. I don’t know if it’s a mass shift in consciousness, if the stars and planets are aligning in a new way, or if there are cosmic energies available now for transformation that have never been available before; I don’t know. But I do know that my current life-experiences do seem to fit the mold for changes are happening.

What is the essence of healing? “For what do I care most deeply?”; “What is my own essence?”; “What is my Truth?”; “Where is my deepest hurt, my pain, my sorrow, that all may be healed?”

 I’ve been asking these questions for a while now.  What it feels like is that I am arriving at an answer, but the answer is in the form of leaving everything behind, so that I can move forward. Leaving everything behind kind of feels like upheaval, as well as standing on the precipice of something unknown…scary…sort of.

It does feel uncomfortable, because “the unknown” usually is. But I also feel like I’ve asked for this, so even if I don’t know what is coming, it is totally for the GOOD, for my good. So I just need to let go, trust, and keep my focus on the Divine Love within.