Feelin’ It (Heart- 1.1.9)

Journey of the Heart – Day 09
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Gratitude strikes my heart like a bell, resounding love through my being. Gratitude opens my heart to Love’s purity, my very own essence! I experience such deep gratitude for my heart, my essence, my ALL of Life!

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically). Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls:


There was something rhythmic and steady about drawing repetitive lines while listening to the Guiding Thought. I felt my mind let go so that the words were able to quite literally resound through my body, carrying with them the feeling behind the words. By the time I was finishing the picture, I felt gratitude that was in my body, visceral and organic. I’ve never experienced that before.


Success! on my terms– Journey of Gratitude 2017, day 10

This one Guiding Thought is all I would need. It, alone, is enough for enlightenment. If I could master this one thought, that would be enough…


Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Love is always with me. I focus my whole Self on being entirely with Love. I tune out distractions and place my entire focus on simply being with the Love that is always with me. This is the return. This is eternal Comfort and Peace: Being with Love, as Love is with me.


I couldn’t do it. I did not succeed in focusing my whole Self on being entirely with Love. I could not tune out the distractions  (most of which were my own mind); I could not place my entire focus on the Love that is always with me.

My mind drifted. My mind asked, “what is Love, anyway”? My mind thought, “What constitutes my ‘whole Self'”? “OK, focus… tune out distractions…” Then I realized that thinking about tuning out a distraction is itself a distraction.

This is one time, when not succeeding is also not failing. On a Journey, there are only steps. There is no individual success, or failure, when each step brings about forward movement, when each step increases my awareness.

Each step demonstrates to Love, my commitment to It, my commitment to Knowing It. Each step is its own success, because each step brings me closer to the Ultimate Return.

One of my favorite Lessons from A Course in Miracles is Lesson 68, “Love holds no grievances”. Today, it has a different import. It says, “If you succeed even by ever so little, there will never be a problem with motivation again”.

The same is true with today’s Journey. If you succeed, ever so little, you have succeeded (I paraphrase…). You see, every step of these Journeys strengthens your True Self. Every step gives you a bit more of a glimpse of the Love you are, as you are. If you succeed even by ever so little, you will want to keep taking the steps toward that Self of Love. That is success: continuing, every day, small steps.

Highest vision for the world: (on Twitter, #pearlsofvision. What is your vision?)

How would the world be, if everyone were happy, and they acted out of happiness? There would be no jealousy, no greed, no deceit. Everyone would be satisfied, content, relaxed–able to give others encouragement and support, able to help others if they should need it, able to make decisions and take actions without worrying about the outcome, without trying to figure things out in advance, without trying to manipulate or control–there would be no reason for any of that. Happiness overrides the need to want something else.


“Mind Moving”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 15

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Your own Loving Presence is your personal connection with Divine Mind. Attuned to your own Loving Presence, Know yourself as Whole and Holy. As you feel your Inner Unity, Know: this is all you want; you have found all you seek.


I’ve been working with a big idea lately. The idea is that anything I want, or anything I want to feel or be, already exists. It is. Somewhere. Even if it’s not here, in my conscious awareness, it exists. All I have to do is move my mind to it. It is there, in Divine Mind.

This is a bit like a tool I have used called the Behavioral Barometer, by One Brain. On the barometer, there are words on one side of the paper that correspond to a feeling. I find the word that most closely describes what I am feeling, and I repeat a dozen or more times, out loud, “I feel >blank<”. Today the “right” word was unimportant

I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant.

Feelings flow through me. Feelings are not me, they are not who I am. I can feel without claiming the feeling as an identity, getting bogged down in it, or being overwhelmed by it. “To feel is to heal”, as the saying goes. Feelings need to be acknowledged. Feelings need to be expressed. Sometimes just saying the words is enough to release the feeling.

Once the feeling is released, there is a corresponding word on the other side of the barometer, to “fill in” the space (the neural connections), where that feeling just vacated. That word today was Unified. So I repeated, “I AM Unified”. This statement is used to claim the quality (Unified) as a State of Being: in other words, proclaiming, this is Who I Am.

I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified.

Being Unified, or being in the State of Being Unified, already exists in Divine Mind. Thus, thinking this thought I AM Unified confirms to my mind the Truth, unlike saying I feel unimportant, which is passing, and not something that even exists in Divine Mind.

When you tell yourself, tell your mind, the Truth, you move your mind that much closer to what already exists, to the Truth of You. This is becoming Being and Being becoming.

ANY time you feel weak, or unimportant, threatened or unacceptable, unloved or rejected, KNOW none of that is True. You are an amazing, loved, appreciated, invigorating, creative, caring, essential, protected, purposeful person.

Know that.

Acknowledge your feeling. Then move your mind to what already exists: the Truth of YOU. You are all you seek.

I love you for you, for the Truth of you, for all you are, all you are becoming, all you give, all you seek, all you do, all you strive for, all you love, all within you, just You.  Thank you for being.

“This One’s for You”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 37

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Of myself I am nothing, yet in union with My Inner Divine Mind, through My Own Loving Presence, I am everything and have everything. As I infuse my consciousness with Knowledge of my Inner Divine Mind, my activity expresses this Union and I experience life. I breathe in this life. I smile with Joy and gratitude, and I affirm: I LIVE.



[This was ALL SET to go yesterday, but apparently IT needed to stew some more, because I completely forget to actually hit “publish”. You know how that works, when you’re all set for something and the universe says, “Uhhhh, nope, not yet”. So today, you get yesterday’s (day 37) and later you get today’s (day 38). It’s a sign! But of what? Of what? Yesterday’s entry was predictive…]

In spite of myself My Inner Divine Mind works with me and flows through me. Despite my railings, my impatience, my aggravation, it’s there. It waits. It sends me messages. It waits some more.

How do I know? Because people show me. When I am having trouble feeling my own union with My Inner Divine Mind, someone else’s Loving Presence speaks to me. Sometimes that Loving Presence says, “Snap out of it!” Sometimes it gives words of encouragement in a comment, sometimes it’s words that say just exactly something* that nudges me ever so gently to listen closer.

This is a way, I think, of recognizing the truth of the Guiding Thought. But I should change the words a bit: “Of myself I am nothing, but in union with Your Inner Divine Mind, through Your Own Loving Presence, I am shown I am everything and have everything.”

We are so important to each other, those of us traversing the upward spiral, making the trek, taking the journey (whichever path or journey that is), listening to the Inner Voice, following the Inner Guidance. We support each other, strengthen each other, whether we know each other or not. We are this life; we are in union through Life.

Right now, that’s enough for me to simply breathe, to smile with Joy and gratitude, and to affirm: I LIVE.


*”When I have “problems,” the problem is always that I am fighting reality.  The problem is always that I think things should be different than they are.  I have judged and found the situation lacking in some way.  My ideas (my ego’s ideas) are that God’s version of things is not up to snuff.  This is a lesson about realizing that the only “problem” is that I have judged and found the perfection of what is to be lacking.  I have omitted love from the equation…Everything becomes a path to greater love, even stuff I think should be different than it is.”        -Nancy Bowers

“It Really Sounds as Confusing as It’s Not”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 22

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Our own Loving Presence is our Self. We turn our attention inward and become aware of our own Loving Presence. With focused awareness, our own Loving Presence fills us, grows brighter, and grows warmer. We claim our Self with these words:

I AM My Own Loving Presence. My loving Presence is the Self of myself. I love my Self!

We want to give our Self everything it desires–and our Self wants the same for us. What do we desire, but total Peace, Freedom, Love, and Harmony? These are the infinite and eternal qualities of the Self! We are now aware of the inner activity of our own Loving Presence and we invite it to express itself through us and externalize in our lives as circumstances, people, forms, and events that fulfill our desires.



At first, this Guiding Thought can be confusing. It uses the plural “our” to describe a singular “Self”, and it then uses the singular “I AM” to claim that plural Self. What’s going on here?

Here is my understanding:

“Loving Presence” is singular, plural, and collective.

  • There is One Loving Presence. That Loving Presence can be called a Unified Presence, Oneness, One, Christ Presence, I AM, etc. That One Loving Presence is the same Loving Presence within each of us (“we’re all connected”).
  • That One Loving Presence comes through each of us, individually, taking on the “imprint” of our personalities. When it is expressed through us, in the world, as us, it can seem like there are many “loving presences” because we each express it uniquely.
  • Collectively, we express the One Loving Presence as individuals in communities, societies, etc. Communities and societies show us a barometer of how much of the One Loving Presence “most” people are expressing. What are the eternal qualities of Loving Presence? …“total Peace, Freedom, Love, and Harmony”…how much of this do you see in your community, in society?

This is why:

  • When I invoke or call upon my own (singular, individual) Loving Presence, I am also able to invoke or call upon yours. All I have to do is intend it.
  • When I raise my consciousness of my own Loving Presence, I raise the collective consciousness of the One Loving Presence.
  • The more my personal expression of my own Loving Presence brings forth the eternal qualities of the One Loving Presence, the more others are able to bring forth those eternal qualities through their own Loving Presence.
  • One person is the doorway for the collective; the collective is the doorway for the full expression of the One Loving Presence.

This is really what we are doing in this round: we are individually invoking the One Loving Presence for All (we), allowing (being the doorway) for a higher awareness/consciousness of the One Loving Presence in the collective consciousness.

Collectively, the world needs us.



“Myour”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 04

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

My Inner Divine Mind is always expressing itself, in all ways, through my own Loving Presence. This is its True Nature, thus this is my True Nature. I turn to my Inner Divine Mind as the Source of my happiness, my purpose, and my fulfillment. I allow it to flow through my own Loving Presence and appear as all my activity, as every visible form and experience I desire.


My + your + our= “myour”. The first round uses “my”. The second round uses “your”. The third round uses “our”. By the fourth round, “myour” –the space where all of these live at the same time, not just me, not just you, but you and me, together–should be more readily accessible through myour consciousness.

Is it significant that this is round one and I’ve already started thinking/feeling in terms of myour?

Today, this Guiding Thought shifts continually between a subjective me and allusions to the collective myour.

My Inner Divine Mind: even though the “my” begins the Guiding Thought, Divine Mind is all ours, together. My, in this case indicated how the One Divine Mind which we all share comes through me. The Guiding Thought says this Mind is always expressing itself thought my own Loving Presence, but it is also always expressing itself through your Loving Presence–the same Mind, all our presences.

This is its True Nature. It is myour True Nature.

The same Divine Mind that is the Source of my happiness, purpose, and fulfillment is the Source of your happiness, purpose, and fulfillment is the Source of all our happiness, purpose, and fulfillment.

When I allow it to become every visible form and experience I desire, since it is also yours, it will bring me what is also best for you, what is also best for all of us. (The reason it does not seem to “work” this way is because there are still too many people, resisting, not allowing, blocking the flow. As more people open to Divine Mind’s intelligence, allowing it to flow through their own Loving Presence, we will see the tangible results more and more quickly, more and more frequently.)

“Through the Mire”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 03

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

I am now fully conscious of my own Loving Presence which seeks expression through me. My own Loving Presence Knows my heart and Knows my happiness. It Knows how to fulfill my heart and bring me joy by placing me in right situations, with right people, at right times where I may fully express my purpose. I submit my mind and heart, all my thoughts, words, actions to my own Loving Presence to be lifted to her/his vision and plan for my life.



I’m getting a glimpse of how big my own Loving Presence is. It’s the bridge between finite and infinite, my direct-line to infinite.

When I say, “It Knows…” that really means IT KNOWS. It has all the answers to any possible question. It has every possible scenario for Divine Perfection in my life. IT KNOWS.

And yet, I have to remind myself to submit to this all-knowing, all loving, presence in my life? This presence that wants my life filled with joy and light, freedom and love, peace and harmony? The channel through which all Divine Perfection comes to me?

When I think about it that way…I wonder…what I am thinking. Why have I not just rolled over and said, “OK! I’m yours! Whatever you say!” Or, perhaps more accurately, why is there a process involved in this? Why can I not just surrender immediately, for now and forever? Why do I have to take steps?

Is it easier than I think? Can I just surrender for now, forever?

This is what I think (at the moment…): I am an infinite and eternal being with free will. I have misused my free will (i.e. used it in ways not accordance with Divine Will and Perfection) for millennia, for lifetimes. Each time I have misused (or misuse) my free will, contributing to my own mire, and have created something out of harmony with Divine Will, the patterns of energy which hold-on in my emotional-body from which I have to free myself before I can act freely with Divine Will.

And that’s why it’s a process. I have to get through my mire, and I have to make sure I don’t keep creating mire while I’m getting out of what I’ve already (mis) created.

I am free now. I have always been free, that is my natural (Divine) state. But I can choose not to be–and I have.

Every time I fully accept my freedom and choose from my Divine Oneness, the Being of Love that I AM, all those patterns of mis-creations are undone–immediately, in an instant, for now, forever. But the patterns of mis-creation are deeply ingrained, and if I have not undone them thoroughly, not fully accepted my Divine Being of Love that I AM, those patterns kick in again. Even though I can free myself every moment, if I have not released the patterns, they are still the default.

And that’s why it’s a process. I have to keep releasing the patterns as I keep replacing the patterns with thoughts of my own Loving Presence, Divine Oneness, and the Being-ness of Love.