Creation, not attraction: Journey of Creation – Day 04

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Guiding Thought

In Perfect Love there is no lack, only complete abundance. Perfect Love is Perfect Fulfillment. When I am aware of my Oneness with Perfect Love, I have everything; I am everything. With a mind fully aware of its own Fullness in Perfect Love, I have perfect faith in my creations, as they are of the same mind as Perfect Love.


Checking in: I have been doing very intense practices since the beginning of this Journey to release my ego, and increase my dedication, devotion, and commitment to God. SO much stuff has been coming up. I have felt: lost/in an identity crisis/angry/cranky/irritable/belligerent/stubborn/indignant/righteous… whiny/wanting my own way/wanting childhood pleasure-foods and simple childhood pleasures (like going to a petting zoo)… and this is just the past 24 hours.

Mind you, I have not been acting out…much, but I feel it, and can watch myself wanting to act out. Tam did take me out on a spree today, to satisfy my inner child with fun, beautiful colors and things, yummy food, and comforting deserts. I feel better now.

The point is: remember that when you do these Journeys, when you make a commitment, and give the dedication, you are inviting a new frame of mind which brings with it new experiences. If “you” are not ready for those new experiences, then you are also asking to become ready for them, which can mean getting rid of stuff that no longer serves the new vision you have for yourself. Be prepared for some stuff to come up. Recognize it. Observe it. Love it. Release it. If you aren’t sure how to do that for yourself, talk to your local healer, shaman, guru, spiritual teacher, or wise friend. You’re also welcome to take a look at my page on spiritual practices, or contact me.


So many people today are driven to “create” because they need or want something. What do I need? What can I get that is better than what I have? A new car? A new job? A new relationship? A trip to Hawaii? I can have anything I want, and all I have to do is magnetize it to myself! Viola.

I admit, I have gone through this myself, but it never quite felt right. Here’s why: If I believe that I was created by Love, with Love, for Love, then I am already fully Love, loved, and lovable. If I believe that I am  already fully Love, then I must also believe that I already have everything. Anything that I think or do which indicates that I need anything other than what I already have contradicts what I say I believe.

So I have to monitor very carefully that I choose thoughts and actions that support what I say I believe, rather than denying that I already am and have everything I could possibly want. This is not easy, but I have been practicing it a long time.

Today’s Guiding Thought is not about magnetizing or attracting anything.

It is about confirmation:

  • I am One with Perfect Love.
  • Perfect Love is Perfect Abundance (that is, abundance of all things, including Peace, Harmony, a beautiful, healthy body, all the material things I need to support the life of this body, etc)
  • In Perfect Love’s Perfect Abundance, I need not; I want not; I AM.
  • Only in this place of Knowing my own Perfect Fulfillment, can I create a continued Perfect Fulfillment. (If I create from the perspective of my mind; if my perspective is  of lack or limitation, I will create lack or limitation).

Journey of Creation–Why Journey of Creation

Here we go again! Are you ready? 40 days of committed seeking, asking, and finding! Let’s go.

Today we begin Journey of Creation. Take this time to think and feel about what the word creation means to you, and why you might like to learn more about creation in your own life. Think about what you think it is, as well as what you think it is not. Think about times in your life when you have created something (or someone, for those of you who have biological children). Creation may apply to situations, relationships, or interactions, not just things. What do you have in your life right now that you have created for yourself? What other thoughts come to mind? Let me know, I am interested in hearing your perspective. Do this exercise yourself, before you read my thoughts on the matter!

Why a Journey of Creation

There are two big reasons I am doing Journey of Creation, and several little reasons.

The first big reason is this: I want to get better at intentional creation. I want to be aware of what it takes to think about something, move toward it, and see actual results of receiving it in my life. I want to understand my role in the creation process. I want to become more confident in knowing how my thoughts/actions produce results.

I have done this. I am a pretty good creator, actually. I want to get better. Here are three examples of “things” I have intentionally created for myself:

  1. In 1985-86 I spent a year as an exchange student in Denmark. Before I left, I did everything I could for a 17 year old in rural Ohio (pre-computer age) to learn about the culture, the people, and the language. I was determined to immerse myself fully in the culture. My goal, which I was very conscious of, was: “I want to be Danish; I want to be indistinguishable from a native Dane”. After about 8 months I would find myself in conversation (in Danish) with someone, and in the course of the discussion, they would figure out I was not from Denmark and would say, “Wait, what? You’re not Danish”? Goal accomplished.
  2. In 1991 I spent the summer working for the USDA Forest Service, building trails in the Sierra National Forest. At the end of the season, after more hiking than I had ever done in my life, I twisted my knee and could barely walk. I was very thankful this happened at the end of the season. I was determined to heal my knee over the winter, so that I could go back to work the next summer. I spent almost every day of the winter-season giving my knee Reiki, and thinking about the hikes I would take, and riding my mountain bike. I went back and hiked and rode my ass off…in addition to working! Best summer ever.
  3. In 2003 I went back to school for a PhD. Why? Because I wanted a PhD., simple as that. I jumped through the mandatory hoops, got myself past my qualifying exams, chose a dissertation topic, and started writing a 250 page manuscript on Ernst Cassirer’s thought. As I was going through my studies and my writing, I would think, “how am I going to do this”? “Who am I to get a PhD”? About 15 years earlier, I had read Barbara Marciniak’s Bringers of the Dawn. I remembered her saying in her introduction that she was “told” (guided) to visualize the cover of her book, and then visualize flipping through the pages. So I did that. I also remember thinking, “if this really happens, it’s all You” (to God), and totally giving it up as I was doing it.  I visualized my dissertation completed; I visualized the letter P.H.D after my name; I visualized everyone loving my work. Now here I am, Susan Billmaier, Ph.D. Whoda thunk?

Here are some questions I ask myself regarding these “creations” (and these questions are some of the little reasons I am doing Journey of Creation):

  1. What’s the difference between creation and goal setting?
  2. What’s the difference between creation and attractiing or magnetizing?
  3. Was I responsible for these (above) “creations”? How do I know?
  4. Would they have happened anyway, whether I wanted/intended them or not? (I think, probably not…)

The second big reason I am doing Journey of Creation is this:

More than anything, I want to live in union with God (Christ consciousness, my I AM Self, the Holy Spirit…whatever you call “it”). More than anything.

I’ve been working on it a long, long time.

Living in union with God means dissolving and/or transforming the “little me”, the ego, the part of me that stubbornly wants to insist that I can do it without anyone else (or God), and turning over command to my Holy/Christ Self to orchestrate my life.

I believe that when I stand aside and turn over command of my life to my Christ Self, that is when real, True creation happens. That’s what I want: real, True creation. I want that which comes forth from the heart of God to Love and Serve all Life, with the highest benefit to all, to come through me, with me, as me.

In this scenario, creation would be more accurately termed co-creation, in which I and God are working together, and that I would be in a position to be fully aware of working in union with my Christ Self. This then refers back to big reason #1: I want to be aware, to understand, and to know what it takes to co-create with God.

It might be fun to change water to wine on occasion too.

And that brings up another question:

  1. If I turn over command to my Christ Self, how do set goals? Do set goals? How does this work, exactly…being myself and not orchestrating my own life? I mean, Jesus knew what he was doing when he changed water to wine. He intended; he chose; he accomplished. What does he know, what did he do, that I can learn? (Remember, Jesus said, “All this, and more than this shall you also do”. So, it’s not an impossible idea to think that I can learn what Jesus knew.)

I will start digging in to all this the day after tomorrow! Are you curious?