Yours in the Work -Healing (1.4.26)

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Guiding Thought

As we unite in consciousness with our own Loving Presence, we unite with Divine Mind. Divine Mind is Infinite Being—it is now, here, always. We exist in Divine Mind, as It does in us, united forever—One. It leads us to Itself through our consciousness of our Self: our consciousness of Self, as Infinite Being, is Oneness with Divine Mind, is our Peace, is our wholeness, is our Unity with All.

Reflection

I feel like something is wrong with me.

Even just acknowledging that is difficult.

It’s just one area of my life. It has to do with accomplishment: what I thinkshould be doing vs. what I am doing.

There are several projects that I am working on. I think that I should be giving priority to (let’s just call it) project A, but I spend a whole lot of time on project C (or B or D…), which means I don’t “get around to” working on project A.

It’s not that I am lazy, or unproductive. I’m just being productive on something other than project A, that is less meaningful (or so I think).

Project A has been on my plate a long time and has lots of components and things to work on, things to work out. It’s both a bit complicated and time consuming…neither of which is generally prohibitive for me. I like working out complex ideas, and I don’t mind taking the time to do so. In fact, project B is also complicated and time consuming…So, why now, are these factors a point of resistance for project A?

I just can’t seem to get my sh** together to  work on project A. I have no motivation. I have no investment. I can’t see the purpose, the long-term. I wonder, “if I do project A, is that not just feeding and rewarding my lower-self, my ego?” Then that becomes prohibitive.

Yet on the other hand…project A is incredibly important in a big picture kind of way. So I wonder, “am I afraid of the impact? am I afraid of how big this is? am I afraid of success? of failure?”

I honestly don’t know.

The other day, I wrote about alignment. Project A was on my mind during that writing. Something is out of alignment. Or so I think. Maybe I just think something is out of alignment, and in reality everything is exactly as it should be.

That describes my entire mental conflict: “I think something is going on, and I feel wrong“….”but maybe it’s not what I think”. And I don’t know which it is. 

If something is going on and there is a reason that I feel wrong…then all I need to do is take the steps in the direction of feeling right, which means (pretty simply) working on project A.

And if things are exactly as they should be, then I should just relax. I’ve let this get too far. My mind spins. …and now I feel like something is wrong.

OK. All of this is context for the point I really want to make. There are two big ideas at play and these ideas are relevant to the project A situation and to this Journey. They are:

  1. Thought is creative
  2. What you seek you find

(1) Thought is creative both in imaginative (future) content (what informs your mind to work out as “reality”) and in attitude (how you approach content as it comes to you). This is why the daily Guiding Thoughts matter. They give imaginative content that your mind can then align with (create) in your experience, and they offer a framework through which to interpret experiences you are already having. The ultimate goal is to have congruence between the vision and the reality, so that the content you imagine is the content you experience.

Thus, it has concerned me that I have a new thought popping up recently that says, “something is wrong with me”. That is not content I want to either imagine or experience.

(2) What we seek on the Journeys, generally speaking, is Unity, Oneness, Peace through seeking the Truth of our Selves. We can find it precisely because Unity, Oneness, and Peace are the Truth of who we are. Again, this is a role of the Guiding Thoughts–they point you toward the direction that the You of you already knows exists, and It knows you are looking for It, so once you give five minutes a day to looking for It, It can help you find It so much faster and easier. The Journeys guide you to the only real direction there is, and in doing so make it easier for you to both seek and find the Truth of You.

But when someone has thoughts like, “what is wrong with me?” Guess what? A part of that creative mind takes that literally, and starts looking for what is wrong. And make no mistake…if you look for something –whether you mean to or not– you will find it.

And this is why I’ve shared this with you. This project A situation directly opposes the goal of the Journeys on these two points…and I need to change. I need to figure this out. I need get aligned, become congruent, root out the “wrongs”, do whatever it takes to free myself of these thought patterns, the inconsistency, the whatever this is.

Thanks for being here,

Thanks for your support,

Yours in the work,

swp

 

 

Courage, Contextually: Journey of Courage – Day 15

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Be ready and willing, here and now, to be courageous. Release your mind’s idea of security, of “right” and of “wrong”. Allow your personality to dissolve and to become One with the Love that Is, everywhere. All false boundaries evaporate like mist in the sun as you devote yourself to the Oneness of Love.

Sharing

Am I ready, here and now, to be courageous? I am still asking myself “What is courage?” How do I know if I am ready to be courageous if I am not even sure what courage is?

Is courage releasing my mind’s idea of security? Is courage releasing ideas of “right” and “wrong”? Is that what I am supposed to understand today? Is courage allowing my personality to dissolve? Is courage becoming One with the Love that Is, everywhere? Is courage being willing to give up false boundaries?

I am not sure.

I have this idea that courage requires some bold, brave activity in response to some threat, like soldiers, or people who have faced and overcome bodily trauma like cancer or the loss of limbs, or people who have recovered (or are recovering) from an alcohol or drug addiction, or people who face daily struggles of pain, or personal issues. I have this idea that courage comes under certain circumstances. It’s contextual.

So what does it mean to “have courage” without a context, to simply be courageous?

Is courage momentary, or perpetual?

If I have been courageous in the past, does that mean I am courageous in the present?

Is courage something that can be practiced?

If so, does that mean I would need to place myself in “threatening” situations in order to practice being courageous (and if so…would I want to do that!?)?

All of my contexts for courage include the body/mind, so what does spiritual courage entail?

The “answer” I got to that last question was, “release false boundaries”. I think that means my concept of contextual boundaries is “false”. But I am not sure. I’ll have to think/feel about it.

Ok, so who are spiritual people who have been courageous? The ones that come readily to mind are Jesus, Gandhi, and Martin Luther King. But now that I am asking myself that question, I can think back on history and I come up with Giordano Bruno, or Saint Thomas Moore, or any of the (primarily Christian) martyrs who have died for their beliefs about God.

What made these people courageous? The thing that connected them is that they loved, and were willing to stand for, God or a higher ideal, over and above politics or societal beliefs about “right” and “wrong”.

Am I courageous in that way? Am I doing this Journey so I can be? I am already seeing a lot of things to explore.

What do you think/feel?