Why- Healing (1.4.0)

Welcome to Journey of Healing! I am glad you are here. Are you ready to spend 40 days immersing your consciousness in thoughts of healing? 

I know 40 days sounds like a lot. And I suppose it is. But think about it: 40 days of nurturing and caring for yourself, being gentle with yourself, overlooking mistakes, giving yourself some slack (not being so hard on yourself), and generally being Truly nice to yourself, learning to be your Self. Now, doesn’t that bring about a grateful sigh? Oh yes.

To begin, the first step is to think about what this Journey means to you. Why do you want to do it? Is it about healing the body? Healing the mind? Moving body/mind into greater alignment with Soul? Whatever that is for you, take a minute to write it down.

As for me…

I was going to write a long expose about Oneness and Unity, and about how “True Healing” is really leaving behind perception, so that Oneness and Unity can be experienced beyond perception

I was going to write a bit about the need for Faith, and how the previous Journey increased my faith in Faith, and how that was brought about through some serious letting go and releasing…

I was going to write about how healing is connected to forgiveness, how the world needs SO MUCH healing and forgiveness, and it’s up to us

I was going to write about how it takes as much time and energy to invoke healing for the 7.5 billion people on the planet, as it does to invoke healing for just one’s self, or for just one other person, so, why not always invoke healing for everyone?

There was so much I was going to write about why I am doing this Journey, and what it means to me.

But then flippantly, I inserted that silly face above (which is a good representation for how I generally feel starting every Journey–a mix of “oh my God, am I insane?” and “OH YES, I am ready for this!”– and wrote a completely unplanned paragraph.

When I finished that paragraph, I knew. That’s it.

This is why I am doing Journey of Healing:

40 days of nurturing and caring for myself, being gentle with myself, overlooking mistakes, giving myself some slack (not being so hard on myself (really, I need this)), and generally being Truly nice to (and patient with) myself, learning to be my Self.

Simple. No big hopes, dreams, or goals. No pressure. No expectations. Just nurturing and caring for myself and being gentle with myself…

I really can feel a grateful sigh ripple through my whole body and being.

Whatever your reasons for spending 40 days focused on healing, I am glad you are here. I always invoke your healing, as I am doing these Journeys, so your intentions–whatever they are (given to Divine Light, for Divine Purpose, for the benefit of All) will be empowered.

We are all in this together. Every effort matters. Thank you for your contribution.

 

New Themes– Worth (1.3.24)

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Guiding Thought

Our worth is inestimable, beyond compare!

We always know we have everything to give—thus, we may always give freely! We know our worth and we give it; we give it freely, and Know in the giving!

As we give, we learn, allowing Joy and Peace to lead and to guide us. We follow willingly for we know: Where there is Joy and Peace, there is Love; where there is Love, we are; where we are, we are giving our inestimable worth.

Reflection

Quick update: The panic is over again. It’s just weird to me that this cycle–in and out of panic–has gone on this long. I continue to do mantra, prayer, and fire ceremonies, which always move me out of it and/or help maintain balance and calm. Onward!

Themes for this Journey so far: Change/transformation and connection.

I’m going to add a third and fourth theme too: forgetting/remembering and holding on/release.

Holding on/release: I am adding this because when there is change and transformation, there is an inherent letting go of something in order for it to transform into something else. I am going to keep this in mind for the rest of the Journey, because–especially with my panic episodes–I have to look at, or be aware of, what I am holding onto, and not wanting to give up. Why am I afraid? Why am I afraid of letting go? What do I cling to?

Forgetting/remembering: I am adding this because as I was reading the Guiding Thought today, it came up for me for the second time today. Though this has been a minor theme so far (see days 1, 11, 21), I am going to bring it greater awareness for the rest of the Journey. It seems like since day 21, my sensitivity to the gap between remembering and forgetting has increased. What I mean by that is I feel more of a tug at my consciousness that says, “you know this, you just need to remember“. In other words, I am more aware of my forgetting, which is pointing me toward remembering.

I was walking, listening to birds, feeling the breeze, watching the trees, and I thought, “I am part of this. I am connected to all of this. I know I am…why don’t I feel it more? What do I need to do to feel it more”. It’s like remembering a memory, without the details, “I know this happened… but what exactly happened”?

So I am keeping on. More to do, more to learn, more to remember, more expansion, more growth, more love, more light, more life.

Love to you. I hope your Journey is going well. Thank you for being here, supporting this Journey with your energy. We’re all in this together.

Peace, peace, peace.

EffervEssence (Heart- 1.1.19)

Journey of the Heart – Day 19
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Guiding Thought

Gratitude strikes your heart like a bell, resounding love through your being. Gratitude opens your heart to Love’s purity, your very own essence! Experience such deep gratitude for your heart, your essence, your ALL of Life!

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-

Sharing

There have been two times, over the past six months, that I’ve experienced “karma” or “energy” or “emotional crap” (I am not sure what to call it) lift up and leave my body/energy field.

The first time was shortly after I did the mundan, and I had done a fire ceremony. I don’t even remember what the “crap” was that I had been holding on to, but all of the sudden, I felt it evaporate. It was as though something material and heavy in my energy shifted, and floated up and out of my energy field. I felt it, and thought, “huh. That’s new”.

The second time was just yesterday. We all carry with us things we learned, or inherited through our family-line (at least we carry it…until we don’t). I’ve been noticing energies that I can identify as things that have been with me for years, that I can see having their origins in my parents, grandparents, maybe (probably) further back.

I was in one of those dunking booth moments, totally immersed in a chaotic emotion. But. I was also watching myself be immersed in the chaotic emotion: in the water and on the platform at the same time:

I felt sorry for myself. SO SO sorry for myself. “Woe is me”. “Nobody loves me”. “Nobody cares”. “If they did they’d…>fill in the blank<…” “If I were lovable someone would…>fill in the blank<. ” Boooo hooooo hoooooo.

I had been in and out of this state for a few days…no, longer… I knew the energy was “not mine”; I knew it was something that I was feeling, but it was not something I believed in, claimed, or identified with. But I was in it.

Sometimes it’s really hard to know what to do to get out when you are so deep in it. Sometimes it’s scary, cause I wonder if I will get out of it. Sometimes it feels like I want to be there, like I want to self-sabotage, and feel sorry for myself, and then I wonder what the hell that is all about.

All of this was going on in that fateful moment.

Then, the part of me that was watching myself go through the emotional contortions, finally, finally got leverage to pull myself out. I remember exactly the thought that gave me the leverage: “It’s not fair to my relatives who carry this, that I should continue it; it’s not fair to the people I project this onto.”

In that thought, I felt a profound sense of duty and obligation. Other people don’t deserve my bullshit. They may not even know, but that doesn’t matter. I have a duty to discontinue my own BS, to save others from guilt/blame/shame, and maybe even to break the chain of inherited BS.

I don’t know why I turned to the meditation that I did, but I immediately thought, “Transmute, transmute, by the violet fire, all causes and cores not of God’s desire. I am a being of Cause alone. That Cause is Love, the sacred tone.”

I said it once. And the bullshit lifted. Seriously, it was just gone. here…and then…not here. poof. In that instance, everything changed. I changed.

I continued saying the meditation a few times for good measure anyway.

I have read about how things can happen “in the twinkling of an eye”. I know A Course in Miracles talks about things like walking through the veil, or pushing aside the clouds. I’ve now had two experiences with this. It really can be that simple. Crap can just go away. Just like that. Gone.

 

Beneath words: Journey of Courage 2017 – Day 22

“Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another, not words.” ― Jalaluddin Rumi.

Words convey meaning. Any time a word is used there is a meaning beneath it. The trick is to get at the meaning beneath the words. Feel the words. Bring them into your whole being, not just your mind. Feel what they are conveying. Listen to the meaning, not to the word.

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Guiding Thought

When we attune our minds to the Oneness that is All of Life, we understand our place in Wholeness. We are the very Presence of Life, and this Presence of Life is us. We are blessed through this understanding. In return we bless all we encounter.

Reflection

There are words, and there are concepts. Words express concepts, and concepts can be expressed in many different ways, through many different words. One concept can be expressed through a variety of different words. For example, all these words express the concept of “universal” (“of, relating to, or characteristic of all or the whole” or “applicable everywhere or in all cases;general)

  • broad, common, comprehensive, extensive, global,
  • prevalent, ubiquitous, unlimited, catholic, cosmopolitan.

In other words…there are lots of ways to describe just about everything (and this does not even take into account the nuances in the variety of languages).

I mention this, because I have been deeply working on the concept that underlies today’s Guiding Thought, using different words. The concept has grown within my consciousness. Each day that I work with the concept, I understand it and feel it more deeply.

It started on the day of dedication and commitment for this Journey, to summarize: I dedicated all activity, energy, vibration, and movement of my all of my mental-emotional-physical-etheric bodies, and all of the effects of all of these bodies,  at all levels of consciousness to the Divine, for the benefit of all, including myself.

In this instance, the dedication was nearly equivalent to an offering, as though I am saying, “I offer all of every part of myself to the Divine”. All intention and energy of every action goes out to the Divine, to be received by the Divine. Goes out are the operative words. I am moving my energy with intention toward a specific direction (the Divine).

And then, the Divine gives it back to me: “For the benefit of all, including myself”. What goes out, comes back.

All of my energy goes out to All that Is, only to come back to All that Is, for the benefit of All that Is, including me. Do you see? There is only the Oneness of Life. When “I” put energy out, the only “one” I can put it out to is ONE with ME, and so “I” receive the very energy that “I” put out.

We all know this. This is the law of attraction, as you sow, so shall you reap and all that. You know this. I’m not telling you anything new.

I want to you feel it, to know it, and to understand it as a result of the fact of Oneness, however you can, whatever words you use. And so again…feel it:

When we attune our minds to the Oneness that is All of Life, we understand our place in Wholeness. We are the very Presence of Life, and this Presence of Life is us. We are blessed through this understanding. In return we bless all we encounter.

Love’s Possibilities–Journey of Gratitude 2017, day 36

Have you been mystified by the world, our leaders, the cultural/political climate? This article is about options. What can I do, when I don’t know what to do. Spoiler alert: the answer is always Love.

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Guiding Thought

When I look within and see the radiance of Love, I remember my wholeness. I am wholly loving and wholly lovable. In the purity of Love lays peace, which I share with all in gratitude.

Reflection

We live at a time when duality, opposites, separation, and polarization have been the dominant thought-form for centuries, even millennia. How we think about nearly everything is conditioned by this history. History has “proven” the reality of duality, opposites, separation, and polarization, has it not? We believe in the “reality”, because it is what we have learned, what we have experienced.

Do thoughts not create our reality? Do I not have the opportunity right here, right now, to have a reality of my own choosing, based on thoughts that I choose? Yes, but…

When we are born, all we learn or experience is based on a previous generation of thought-forms telling us what is “real”. We are born into a world that was constructed by someone else, and then told, “have your own thoughts, create your own reality”. But what model can we use? The only one we know is what we are taught, which currently is predominantly dualistic.

What does that mean, in practical terms?

This morning, there was a news story about immigrant raids in New York, Atlanta, Chicago, and Los Angeles. There were over 10,000 comments on the story condemning the action. I thought, “What can we do? What choice do people have? Either they can raise a ruckus, take up arms, and “fight” in whatever way they know, or they can passively let the government raid their communities, and allow their friends and loved ones to be deported. Neither is acceptable”.

Either/Or. Fight or be passive. This was my own dualistic response to this news story. But then I realized that there is another way; we may just not see it right now.

Here is how I know: I’ve been “doing the work of Love” for a while now, and apparently the work has paid off. Recently, I’ve had several situations which began with a familiar conflict, sort of like severe personality conflict, or conflict with authority (to give you a frame of reference). As these conflicts “began” I felt the old, either/or–the only solutions I could see to the conflict were fight or passivity and neither was acceptable. So I made a point to pray, and ask for infinite, unconditional Love to enter. Wouldn’t you know it? Each of the situations smoothed out, effortlessly. I have no idea “how”, except for the invocation of Love.

The solutions were, in my experience small miracles, but all I did was change my thoughts from only seeing two options, to thoughts which could include all possibilities. This is what Love does. It includes, and takes into consideration the good of the whole. Love sees all options, and when we think in terms of love, those options become available to us as reality.

When I thought about the news story this morning, and heard my dualistic reaction, there was immediately a part of me that recalled these recent miracles, and I knew there is another way for the immigration-raids to be resolved. We don’t see it yet, but Love does. We simply need to invoke Love’s solution, through thinking Love.

There is hope in this world for all the current conflicts, for us to create a new reality, one that we have not inherited, a reality based in the inclusion of all possibilities, for the good of All.

Getting out of my own head, seeing the macrocosm–Journey of Gratitude 2017, day 20

Energy Masters are those who wish to fully access more of their inherent power to not only be personally freer of the collective weight, but to also experience the greater freedom of being human, and then to deliver and share their divine action with people and ALL energies on this Earth. -Lee Harris 

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Guiding Thought

Love is always with you. Focus your whole Self on being entirely with Love. Tune out distractions and place your entire focus on simply being with the Love that is always with you. This is the return. This is eternal Comfort and Peace: Being with Love, as Love is with you.

Reflection

“Tune out distractions”… There is a lot going on in the world to distract us these days.

Most often, when I do this day, this Guiding Thought, the distractions have to do with my own mind, how it spins, and goes on tangents, and generally “has a mind of its own”. Today, this Guiding Thought speaks to me of everything going on in the world. 

There is a lot of opportunity to be pulled away from Love, if you pay attention to politics, culture, the environment, the economy. Collectively, especially in the United States, we are seeing a lot of anxiety, near-panic or panic, distress, uncertainty, fear.

I know, I’ve been feeling it too. It took me some time, but I came to understand that very few of the charged emotions that I am feeling are mine. There is a collective anxiety rippling around the world, especially in the United States. It comes, it passes, another wave comes, and they just keep coming. Do you feel it?

In this environment, the Guiding Thought takes on a whole ‘nother dimension and meaning. Those ripples and waves of emotion can distract you from what’s real–Love. The distractions are just on a larger scale than when you only have the distractions in your own mind. Being with the Love that is always with you, as the collective emotions are heightened, is simply an opportunity to expand and strengthen your practice, strengthen your relationship with Love.

There are upheavals going on all around the world. How do we make it through this?

We matter. This work matters. Being with Love matters. Love is always with us.

If you have anxiety, uncertainty, panic…first ask yourself if it’s yours. You may be picking up on the collective mind. If it’s not yours, observe it, name it, talk about the feeling as something flowing through you, not something you are.

Your healing matters. Whether the heightened emotion is yours or not, help to heal it, transmute it, release it. Your practices are so important–they will keep you anchored and steady, as you return to them during this time. Whether it’s prayer, yoga, meditation, taking a bath, or painting, or working with me through these Journeys, use your practices. Heal. Release. Intend Good Will for all. Keep going.

If all you can do each and every day is show up, and offer yourself to Love, in Its service, THAT is not only enough, it is exactly what the world needs.

If any of this resonates with you, I encourage you to click the link above to Lee Harris. I had never heard of him before today, but he has some (in my opinion) wise and comforting words on that page.

An Exercise of Acceptance. A Journey of Fulfillment: Day 01

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Everywhere Fulfillment is – I am.

Fulfillment is everywhere.

Fulfillment is.

I am.

 

 

In all the places fulfillment fills, I am also there. And Fulfillment is everywhere. There is no space, no point, where fulfillment does not reach.

Fulfillment does not think or wonder or inquire; it simply exists. It does not have to do anything, does not have to prove its existence. It just is.

In the same way, I need not think or wonder or inquire. I can just be. Or, rather, if I do think or wonder or inquire, I am still just being behind the thoughts, musings, and questions.

Today’s Guiding Thought is very simple and matter of fact. It acknowledges the existence of fulfillment and me. There are no definitions, no extrapolations, no correlations, metaphors, inferences or interpretations. There is only simple, straight-forward acknowledgement.

I did, however, find myself thinking about “everywhere”, picturing it as best I could. I went outward and thought about fulfillment existing in the oceans, in the sharks and jellyfish, in the water and salt and rocks.

On one level, I thought, “this makes no sense; how does fulfillment exist here?” But I let that go and pictured tundra, deserts, plains, and acknowledged that “fulfillment exists here, too”.

Then I went inward, into my body, and pictured cells and nerves and synapses and hormones and enzymes and acknowledged that –even if I don’t feel it—fulfillment exists here too.

Then I thought, “Fulfillment even exists here in my thoughts.” And I waited. Then the thought came to me, “Fulfillment even exists here, in the space between my thoughts.”

This was not an exercise of trying to figure anything out. This was an exercise of acceptance.