remembering and forgetting

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Welcome to Round 4!

Congratulations! There are only 10 days left! We’ve done so much these past 30 days; do you realize how far you’ve come? Can you feel it!? After all, it’s not everyone who can think in terms of Oneness and expansion for 30 days in a row (and by the time we’re finished…40!).

In the first round, you affirmed your Self using “me”, “my”, “mine”. In the second round, you affirmed someone else using “you” and “your”. In the third round we all came together in unity (as we). Now in round 4, we come full circle and return to the Self as the subject, and repeat the Guiding Thought with “I”, “me”, and “mine”. Now that you have reached out to others to support their attainment in the second round, and united with others in the third round, the words “I”, “me” and “mine” will take on a new tint. With the infusion of the all perspectives—“I”, “you”, and “we”—you will now no longer see yourself as separate or apart from others. Now, in claiming your Self for yourself, your consciousness is attuned to claiming it for others as well. You will “see” others attaining their fulfillment with you. (See this page for more information on the rounds.)

Guiding Thought

I have forgotten my Self. I have forgotten who I am. I have forgotten that I was established in Love and by Love, which is infinite and eternal; therefore, my worth is infinite and eternal.

I seek to remember my Self. I choose to remember my Self.

I choose to remember who I am and my infinite worth in Love.

I choose to be aware, to understand, and to Know myself (my Self) as the Love I am.

I choose to share who I am with the world, giving my infinite worth, measured in infinite Love.

Reflection

Thirty days ago, I balked at this Guiding Thought. I didn’t want “forgetting” to be part of my reality; I didn’t want to “affirm” the forgetting. Today I embrace it. In fact, I want to go after all that I have forgotten, and bring it to the surface.

There are (IMHO) two primary aspects to the Big Journey of Enlightenment. They are 1) releasing the ego, (also known as the lower-self, the selfish-self, etc.) 2) embracing (striving for, seeking) God (or Love, or light, or the Higher, Divine Self). These two things underpin every Journey, every day. The seeking/striving/embracing of Love and Light through the ideas in the Guiding Thoughts expose the areas of the mind that resist the Love and the Light–and it is these areas the require transformation/release.

I now understand forgetting and remembering in this same way. Seeking to remember shows me how much I have forgotten, and the places of forgetting are where I need to remember.

On day 25 I realized that despite all of my work, all of my remembering, I still forget things that I know I should remember (for example seeking the Kingdom of God–an idea that I have remembered and worked with for over 20 years, and yet… I still forget it sometimes, and am still learning it more deeply every time I remember it). With all my forgetting, I asked…what is there within me that I have not yet even begun to remember?

So now, as with digging and dredging up all of the aspects of my lower, selfish self to release them, I now am happily, readily digging and dredging all of the aspects of my Self that I have forgotten. Bring it.

Guiding Thought

There is only one Will. That Will is Love. That Will is our Love: your Love, my Love, together. Only when we will in Love is the outcome assured in Love. Only when we will in Love do we know the results are truly beneficial to all, including ourselves. Only when we will with Love are we Free and we affirm with certainty “All is as it should be”.

Reflection

In reverse: If we cannot affirm with certainty “All is as it should be”, then we have not willed in Love.

Linearly: If I do this…then this… then this, all the while willing in Love, then I am assured of results that will be harmonious. If there is any disharmony along the way, then there is lack of alignment with the Loving Will somewhere within me.

After I wrote yesterday about the sub-theme of remembering-forgetting, in my sleep, I was reminded, “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God”.

I say reminded because seeking first the Kingdom of God has been a regular–near daily–theme and practice for me for over 20 years. And yet, I had forgotten it.

The past three weeks have been a bit of a roller coaster. The panic that I’ve been feeling, that I have written about, that is an indicator of not willing with Love. It’s an indication of results and outcomes that are not harmonious, not peaceful, not beneficial to all. I have not been able to say “all is as it should be”, because I have been too concerned about my little self, and not enough about my Divine Self–the Kingdom of God.

Seeking first the Kingdom of God is really a short-hand way of saying exactly what the Guiding Thought is saying: Will with Love first, last, and always, and all outcomes will be assured in Love. When all outcomes are assured in Love, then, and only then is there Peace within and Peace in the world (within and without, the Kingdom of God).

I wonder…if I can forget something that I have spent over 20 years reminding myself, 20 years practicing, 20 years of research and experimentation…then it makes sense that there are a whole lot of things that I have forgotten.

I feel like I am at various stages of remembering. Some things I have remembered more than other things–like seeking first the Kingdom of God, or Know Thyself, or Love thy Neighbor– I am pretty good at all of these, though I do still forget sometimes.

There are other things that I have not remembered as frequently, like how True Happiness feels, or how trusting God feels, or how abundance feels, but I do still remember them from time to time, and I know they are circulating about in my consciousness, to be remembered.

But then, what about the things that I have very rarely remembered or never remembered, but that I still know are true–like Worth does not need to be earned, that I am a beloved child of God, that Health and Wholeness are my birthright…

It’s like what I do remember is the tip of an iceberg, and what I don’t remember still lies 90% beneath the surface.

In a few days (day 31), I am going to remember this, and embrace the Guiding Thought for that day, to begin to remember all that I have forgotten, under the surface.