Expansion Pains -Healing (1.4.36)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

As I unite in consciousness with my own Loving Presence, I unite with Divine Mind. Divine Mind is Infinite Being—it is now, here, always. I exist in Divine Mind, as It does in me, united forever—One. It leads me to Itself through my consciousness of my Self: my consciousness of my Self, as Infinite Being, is Oneness with Divine Mind, is my Peace, is my Wholeness, is my Unity with All.


Only 4 days left after today. How are you doing to finish this Journey? Are things coming together for you? Are you seeing connections with earlier parts of the Journey? If you are, great! If you are not, don’t worry. The Journey is and does what is meant to be and do. Remember that, as with a physical journey, you don’t always notice every step. Think of the last time you traveled more than 100 miles. Do you remember every moment? No…probably not. You remember the beginning, the end, and maybe some relevant parts of the middle, but mostly, you remember leaving and arriving. That’s sort of how it is with these Journeys. You begin; you end. And often, the end is a new beginning after all, because these Journeys track the ultimate journey of life. The “middle” of these Journeys can last a long time (at least they can for me, since I never really stop Journeying). So the changes come quietly and subtly. But then out of the blue, you will notice. And you’ll think, “huh, how about that? I don’t do that anymore”. Or “I’ve changed…”

That’s how I’ve been feeling lately. “I’ve changed”. I am not the same person I was when I began these Journeys almost 5 years ago. But I can not for the life of me tell you exactly what is different. Somehow I am more patient, more observant, more attuned to people, more empathetic and responsive. These Journeys are not in your face. They are slow progressions that help you become aware of your own becoming, your own unfolding. Everyone is becoming and unfolding anyway…might as well be conscious of it, don’t you think?

With four days left to this Journey, I am not sure what I’ve accomplished. I’m not really sure where I’m at.

…So I just looked at what I wrote on the very first day of this Journey, the Why. Here is what I said:

40 days of nurturing and caring for myself, being gentle with myself, overlooking mistakes, giving myself some slack (not being so hard on myself (really, I need this)), and generally being Truly nice to (and patient with) myself, learning to be my Self.

Simple. No big hopes, dreams, or goals. No pressure. No expectations. Just nurturing and caring for myself and being gentle with myself…

And, you know what? That is what I have been doing. And it feels really weird.

Yesterday I wrote about my conflicts. Today, I was thinking about how indulgent I have let myself be since the beginning of June (ice cream, not working out, eating at restaurants more regularly, sloughing off work/responsibilites (that I impose on myself), having priorities that have to do with letting myself go to bed early and take naps. I have been behaving differently, as far as expectations, responsibilities, accomplishments, getting things done, etc.

When I wrote Yours in the Work, I was really feeling this– and I was really down on myself about it (so, not being so gentle with myself…that always needs work). Now I realize…

OMG… I have been doing exactly what I wrote/stated that I wanted to do on this Journey.  I just wasn’t paying enough attention, and therefore not cutting myself enough slack. I have been learning to be my Self, and dropping old identities, old ways of being, old expectations, old personas.

Who says I need to be responsible all the time? Who says I shouldn’t eat ice cream? Who says I need to work on “the next big thing”? These are just ideas that I have imposed on myself. And I can unimpose them.

Of course I might experience this as conflict, or as uncomfortable. It’s new to me! I don’t know who I am becoming. But if I am to begin to expand my awareness of who I am to coincide with how that Infinite and Eternal mind already Knows me–as Infinite and Eternal, then I have to go through some growing pains. (The bolded text is what I wrote on day 6 of this Journey, about this same Guiding Thought. Maybe everything does come together in the end.)


“We Need To Talk”: Journey of Worth 2.0 – Day 20

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Copyright Tam Black 2016
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Cracking The Oyster

Happy Thorsday! Welcome to Day 20!

I don’t know about you, but that phrase almost makes me feel like I’m in some sort of trouble when I hear it, “We need to talk”. That phrase or “can we talk?” are just about enough to send shivers down my spine; just about nothing good in my life has ever followed either of those two phrases.

I’m far too serious of a person. It’s far too simple for me to “go there” and stay there. I’m extremely fortunate those closest to me balance me out.

Today’s article is very serious, yes. No, we’re not breaking up with you WP, you can relax…lol!

Grab yourself a temperature appropriate beverage, get to your favorite cushy reading spot, and as always…




Guiding Thought

If you are to be your Self in the world, you must be for others as well as yourself. There is no other.

Be willing to receive the Infinite Love of All. Be willing to understand how to rise above the struggles and pains of the world. Be willing to rise again and again with each call for help, each outstretched hand. Be willing to be the one to choose to change. Offer your pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation, into the light of Love that you may see and give only the light of Love always.



I have a responsibility to you. This Guiding Thought encapsulates that responsibility.

The first responsibility is to be willing to receive the Infinite Love of All. Yes. This is my responsibility. It’s not just a wish, or hope or fantasy, or some airy-fairy feel good statement. This is serious, a serious responsibility. The reason this is serious? Marianne Williamson says it this way, “As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.” In the same way, when I open myself to receiving Infinite Love, I give you permission to do the same. In Love, what I do for me, I do for you; you are my responsibility. I am my brother’s keeper.

The second responsibility is the “rising above”. In situations where there is pain or struggle I must be aware, turn my thoughts to Divine Love, allow Love to lead me, and rise above. This is not an easy thing to do, but it is my responsibility to try, and be willing. People learn what they see, learn what they experience. When I can really remain in Love during times of struggle, I am showing others they can too; I am opening up a path for others to follow.

And I must get myself through my own pain or guilt. I need to heal those parts of me that are hurt or feel unloved or abandoned or overlooked. As I heal those parts, they turn into light and love (really, they do!), and that pain or struggle no longer even exists in the same way within me. At that point, the “rising above” becomes easier. There is nothing for another’s pain to resonate with within me; in the absence of a sounding board, it can disperse, and I can help it along through Love.

We are One, there is no other. You are my responsibility. Am I yours?

“Here’s to You, Mr. Price”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 05

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Copyright Tam Black 2016
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Guiding Thought

My Purpose is to awaken to the Truth within me and share it. The Truth within me–My Inner Divine Mind–flows constantly and purely. As I go deeper in my awareness, the current of this broadens, strengthens, and brightens. It fills me and pours forth. This is My Source, the Source of all my good, all my happiness, and all my abundance. I awaken to My Inner Divine Mind and invite it to express itself as every person and event that will increase my awareness of it.


Following from yesterday:

If my Inner Divine Mind–the Truth within me–is myours, why do I need to share it? If we all have it, if it belongs to all of us, what’s the point? Isn’t that redundant?

Though the questions were my initial reaction, I knew my mind was just doing what it does–trying to understand. I had to think about it for a bit, but I think I understand and have answers to my questions.

As you may know, the Withpearls Consciousness Journeys were inspired by John Randolph Price’s Abundance Book Prosperity Plan. The Journeys intend to, in a small way, pay homage to his work. The answers to my questions came in the form of a recollection of one of Mr. Price’s “Statements of Principle”. Day 7 of the Prosperity Plan says this:

The Divine Consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of Abundance. This is its responsibility, not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this Truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all sufficiency in my life and affairs. (emphasis mine)

That’s how I realized my answers: Divine Consciousness (Divine Mind) has its own responsibility, its own purpose within its Divine Plan. That responsibility, that purpose, is to express its true nature. I have no control over its purpose or its responsibility, but I do have control over my acceptance or allowance of it.

That’s why it’s up to me to awaken to my purpose and allow Divine Mind to express through me. The fact of it is beyond my control; what I choose to do with it is for me to decide. Sharing it is that decision.

And why would I not? If my sharing and giving it brings me people and events which show me evidence of it as the source of all my good, all my happiness, and all my abundance–I say, “Sure”.