Yours in the Work -Healing (1.4.26)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

As we unite in consciousness with our own Loving Presence, we unite with Divine Mind. Divine Mind is Infinite Being—it is now, here, always. We exist in Divine Mind, as It does in us, united forever—One. It leads us to Itself through our consciousness of our Self: our consciousness of Self, as Infinite Being, is Oneness with Divine Mind, is our Peace, is our wholeness, is our Unity with All.

Reflection

I feel like something is wrong with me.

Even just acknowledging that is difficult.

It’s just one area of my life. It has to do with accomplishment: what I thinkshould be doing vs. what I am doing.

There are several projects that I am working on. I think that I should be giving priority to (let’s just call it) project A, but I spend a whole lot of time on project C (or B or D…), which means I don’t “get around to” working on project A.

It’s not that I am lazy, or unproductive. I’m just being productive on something other than project A, that is less meaningful (or so I think).

Project A has been on my plate a long time and has lots of components and things to work on, things to work out. It’s both a bit complicated and time consuming…neither of which is generally prohibitive for me. I like working out complex ideas, and I don’t mind taking the time to do so. In fact, project B is also complicated and time consuming…So, why now, are these factors a point of resistance for project A?

I just can’t seem to get my sh** together to  work on project A. I have no motivation. I have no investment. I can’t see the purpose, the long-term. I wonder, “if I do project A, is that not just feeding and rewarding my lower-self, my ego?” Then that becomes prohibitive.

Yet on the other hand…project A is incredibly important in a big picture kind of way. So I wonder, “am I afraid of the impact? am I afraid of how big this is? am I afraid of success? of failure?”

I honestly don’t know.

The other day, I wrote about alignment. Project A was on my mind during that writing. Something is out of alignment. Or so I think. Maybe I just think something is out of alignment, and in reality everything is exactly as it should be.

That describes my entire mental conflict: “I think something is going on, and I feel wrong“….”but maybe it’s not what I think”. And I don’t know which it is. 

If something is going on and there is a reason that I feel wrong…then all I need to do is take the steps in the direction of feeling right, which means (pretty simply) working on project A.

And if things are exactly as they should be, then I should just relax. I’ve let this get too far. My mind spins. …and now I feel like something is wrong.

OK. All of this is context for the point I really want to make. There are two big ideas at play and these ideas are relevant to the project A situation and to this Journey. They are:

  1. Thought is creative
  2. What you seek you find

(1) Thought is creative both in imaginative (future) content (what informs your mind to work out as “reality”) and in attitude (how you approach content as it comes to you). This is why the daily Guiding Thoughts matter. They give imaginative content that your mind can then align with (create) in your experience, and they offer a framework through which to interpret experiences you are already having. The ultimate goal is to have congruence between the vision and the reality, so that the content you imagine is the content you experience.

Thus, it has concerned me that I have a new thought popping up recently that says, “something is wrong with me”. That is not content I want to either imagine or experience.

(2) What we seek on the Journeys, generally speaking, is Unity, Oneness, Peace through seeking the Truth of our Selves. We can find it precisely because Unity, Oneness, and Peace are the Truth of who we are. Again, this is a role of the Guiding Thoughts–they point you toward the direction that the You of you already knows exists, and It knows you are looking for It, so once you give five minutes a day to looking for It, It can help you find It so much faster and easier. The Journeys guide you to the only real direction there is, and in doing so make it easier for you to both seek and find the Truth of You.

But when someone has thoughts like, “what is wrong with me?” Guess what? A part of that creative mind takes that literally, and starts looking for what is wrong. And make no mistake…if you look for something –whether you mean to or not– you will find it.

And this is why I’ve shared this with you. This project A situation directly opposes the goal of the Journeys on these two points…and I need to change. I need to figure this out. I need get aligned, become congruent, root out the “wrongs”, do whatever it takes to free myself of these thought patterns, the inconsistency, the whatever this is.

Thanks for being here,

Thanks for your support,

Yours in the work,

swp

 

 

“I Found It!”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 23

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

We rely on our own Loving Presence to lead and guide us toward the meaning of healing. Seeking the meaning of healing frames all our activity and gives context to all our interactions. Though we may encounter disturbances throughout daily activity, we lay them at the feet of our own Loving Presence and continue to ask, “What is healing?” Our own Loving Presence directs us as we listen in the stillness.

 

Sharing

I often ask questions (seek answers) that I know are beyond my current comprehension. For example, recently I’ve been asking, “What does it feel like to be buoyant?” And what I mean by that, as I am asking, is really, what do I need to embody to rise above the disturbing effects of physical life? I’ve been experiencing some “disturbing effects” lately, and I’ve vacillated between optimism and despair, but in those moments of optimism, there has been a buoyancy that just existed–I didn’t do anything that I’m aware of to make it happen. So now I want to know how I replicate that consciously. I don’t know how to do it, I don’t understand it, but I know I can.

Another example is that I’ve been talking to angels lately. (That sounds kind of weird for me to say, even to me, but there it is…I’ve been talking to angels). The thing is, I don’t know what to listen for, if an angel responds to me. How do angels communicate? Do angels talk and use words? Is there some energy or vibration I could be aware of? Do they just communicate by acting in my life, and I need to be able to recognize it? Talking to angels, I can do that; receiving communication from angels, though is currently totally beyond my comprehension (well, maybe not totally, I’ve understood a few responses…).

When I ask, I get answers. I don’t always recognize the answers, but I do always get them. I think of it as a way that my sub-conscious is working with me to progress my understanding.

This Guiding Thought falls into this same questioning/seeking answers, “What is healing?” What is healing right now? And now? Every moment there is an answer to this question, and it may not be the same from moment to moment. It’s my job to be alert, to want to know the answer, and to look for it. I can only find if I seek, and since I always get answers when I seek, seeking is finding.

  • First I must seek.
  • Then I must accept that seeking is finding.
  • Then I must do my best to recognize answers.
  • I won’t ever recognize the answers if I don’t know what I’m asking/seeking.
  • It’s in my best interest to consciously ask/seek, then at least I know what I am looking for.

When I am doing this, which is every day when I am on a Journey, I am always alert, always looking for how every situation applies to the Journey, how every situation is speaking to me, giving me answers.

Because I don’t always comprehend, I can still get lost in “the disturbances of daily activity”. Sometimes there is so much to sift through, sort out, figure out that I feel overwhelmed, even when I am applying the principles in the Guiding Thoughts. And even though I understand that I can “lay the disturbance at the feet of our own Loving Presence”, it’s not always easy to do.

But you see, I just found an answer: there is absolutely nothing for me to “sift through, sort out, or figure out”. No wonder I feel overwhelmed. I’m trying to do it. I’m trying to do it alone. It’s not the disturbances I need to lay at the feet of my own Loving Presence…It’s my feeling that I need to do something that I need to lay down.