Peripheral Vision– Worth (1.3.19)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

Extend the Love that you are, for that is all you truly are. As you learn to be aware, to understand and to Know your own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, your life experiences become worthy of you. Expressing your Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings you satisfaction, the only choice that allows you to experience your Self—the Love that you are. Your-my-our- freedom depends on your right choices, depends on you to choose what is worthy and what is not; it depends on you, depends on me, depends on us.

Reflection

Worth–feeling worthy–seems so far to be one of those issues, or emotions, or psychological states that I cannot yet look at directly. There are lots of threads crossing, weaving, tying to each other that need to be gently pulled, untied, and  disentangled. I am too focused on the threads to understand how they work together (or not) and combine for my worthiness.

One thread is called prosperity or abundance. It represents the worth I am able to bring from within to without, how my financial situation reflects how I feel about what I am worth.

One thread is called esteem. It represents what I respect and admire about myself–what I like about myself, those qualities that I enjoy expressing, and that I feel bring me the respect and admiration of others.

One thread is called value. This thread represents deeper qualities than esteem, but still qualities that I like about myself. These qualities are those qualities upon which esteem is built: what do I value in myself, and in the world? What do I care about most deeply?

One thread is called self-image. This thread represents how I think the world sees me, and how I see myself. What am I able to do? What can skills and talents and personality traits do I have? What am I good at? How much do I like myself?

All of these make up worth and worthiness. Each one is pretty huge of itself, which is probably why I am not quite ready to address worth head on.

What that means, or what it feels like, is that I am looking at worth only through peripheral vision, or a side-glance. Abundance, esteem, value, or self-image “issues” are going on in my center focus. At least that’s what it feels like. However, even in my center focus, these “issues” are still hard to look at, to deal with. So, I feel like my sub-conscious has been doing the heavy lifting for me, and that I’ve just kind of been “hovering” and un-involved.

I feel good that I have just written about this. At least I am at a level of awareness about what’s going on. This makes me want to get a bit more involved.

 

 

Pity No More (Heart-1.1.25)

Journey of the Heart – Day 25
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Guiding Thought

We bring our awareness to our hearts and resonate with their love. Naturally and easily our heart-love radiates through us. Love is present now—rippling in to the future, releasing the past.

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-

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QuestionsHow can we deepen and expand our relationship with our beautiful, blissful hearts? How can we give our love, our wisdom, our compassion more openly and freely? How can we know our hearts of love, as ourselves?

AnswerWe bring our awareness to our hearts and resonate with their love. Naturally and easily our heart-love radiates through us. Love is present now—rippling in to the future, releasing the past.

In other words: you do it by doing it.

During Journey of Worth, the very first Guiding Thought starts out this way: I have forgotten my Self. I have forgotten who I am. I have forgotten that I am established in Love and by Love, which is infinite and eternal; therefore, my worth is infinite and eternal. I seek to remember my Self. I choose to remember my Self.

This came to mind today, as I realized the simplicity of the answer to my questions, the answer to letting go of my frustration and aggravation of yesterday.

When I forget myself, I feel sorry for myself. I become aggravated. Simple things seem difficult. Everything that I know, or at least that I have known, seems distant, remote…unknown.

…and I know this.

Why is it, that when I am so aware of being held captive by false ideas–even when I know it–I can’t get out of it?

you do it by doing it.

But there are times, it seems, that I don’t want to do it, that I want to remain enmeshed, bogged down, and in the dark. Rationally, I would say, “no, I don’t want this”…but I remain in it, I don’t get myself out of it, which indicates that I want to be in it, because if I know, and do not do it (i.e. don’t get out of it), then either I don’t know, or I am choosing the situation I am in, choosing my “plight”, my confusion, my aggravation (see yesterday’s post).

If I am choosing the situation I am in and the situation is one of aggravation or frustration, and I know I could get out of it, why don’t I? This line of inquiry has lead me to begin to think about self-esteem.

Why do people stay in “unhealthy”, “negative” situations when they know better? It seems to me, the answer is really no different for a person in an abusive situation, than for someone seeking enlightenment–it all boils down to self-esteem, self-worth; the “levels” are just very different. Once a person decides (really decides) to have self-worth, any situation that trammels on that new level of self-esteem is no longer viable, it can be easily discarded. The goal is to increase self-worth, increase self-esteem so that situations that do not support higher self-esteem can be left behind, while new situations that validate a new level of self-esteem can be cultivated.

I’m doing it by doing it. Done.