“Appreciation”: Journey of Fulfillment 2.0 – Day 12

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Guiding Thought

Invite, welcome, and receive the effects of Divine Love now… and be truly grateful. Experience Divine Mind as you experience these effects; allow Divine Presence to confirm itself in your life, activities, and affairs.


Conscious union with God. I have to remind myself sometimes what these Journeys are all about for me, and why I am doing this.  Conscious union with God is what came to me, as I was reminding myself. That about sums it up.

For me, the question, “Why am I doing this?” can sometimes have the existential weight of similar questions, like, “Who am I?” and “Why am I here?” Fortunately, unlike those larger questions, I only need to answer for right now, this moment. I don’t need to find an absolute answer. This helps me on a daily basis, because the answer can change on a daily basis—why I am doing this can change, and as long as I understand and have a daily (or even momentary) answer, it’s enough to keep me centered and balanced, and to continue.

Conscious union with God is a pretty big answer though, isn’t it? That’s ok for today, and besides, it fits quite well with today’s contemplation.

If I say I really want conscious union with God, what better way to go about it than to invite, welcome and receive the effects of Divine Love? I urge you to do this right now, if you too are interested in a deeper relationship with God. Invite Divine Love to be the Source of the effects in your life. This is what you do if you want someone to come over for dinner, or out for a drink, right? The invitation comes first: Invite Divine Love.

Then once you’ve sent out the invitation, the person shows up on your doorstep…what do you do? Welcome them. So, welcome Divine Love, give It a virtual hug at the doorstep of your heart! Open the door and usher It in.

Then, receive Divine Love. You have the greatest guest in your house you can imagine. Don’t just sit on the couch and play World of Warcraft, checked out and not paying attention to your guest. Have something special planned, like Turkish coffee with that beautiful set of cups and saucers that you almost never use. In other words: do something unique that demonstrates you acknowledge the presence of Divine Love.

Sometimes I think that traditions and rituals are really good to give people a role-model for approaching the Divine, but at the same time, I also think it can be a simple, small gesture from the heart that, for you, genuinely conveys your recognition of and appreciation for the Divine in your life. If something is complicated, or if it doesn’t “feel right” for you, you may not do it. Divine Love loves you! No matter what! How can you show It your appreciation, in a way that is unique and right for you?

When you think about having That Amazing Power and Presence right there, where you are, how can you not feel anything but gratitude? And Love? How can you not want more and more?

As you go through this, more and more, you open yourself up to recognizing the gifts of Divine Love, the effects. Sometimes they show up in your life, sometimes they show up in your heart. Keep looking. Keep recognizing, keep appreciating. Divine Love and Divine Presence know no bounds; your conscious union with Divine Love also need know no bounds.

“There’s a Reason for this Sunshine Day”: Journey of Abundance 2.0 – Day 16

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Guiding Thought

Increasing your thoughts of Love and your attitude of service dispels all fear of lack and limitation. As you serve more people with Love, money and wealth flow abundantly to you. Use money and wealth with Love and Wisdom to create a life you love through your highest vision.


There’s something to be said for having a heat index of 106 and no air conditioning–iced tea, cold packs from the freezer, and nothing, absolutely nothing, urgent enough for me to sweat over (literally and figuratively). This has been a weekend when it has been okay to do nothing, except enjoy doing nothing.

I’ve forgotten how relaxing it is, when my brain agrees with doing nothing, and I am not always thinking, “I need to do this…then I need to do that.” This is what giving myself permission to relax feels like.

Part of relaxing entailed spending a good bit of time with my inner child, coloring the Guiding Thought. My brain was fine with relaxing, I didn’t want to engage it, if I didn’t have to.

What struck me while coloring is that there is a balance between serving (i.e. doing) and allowing. There is not a direct connection between these in the Guiding Thought, but I think it’s inherent that if you serve more people with Love, you then must allow the flow to come to you. If you don’t allow it, the flow is there, you’ve just shut the gates.

I was surprised that my picture today depicts every line of the Guiding Thought. My Love is increasing…I am serving more people (doing work that I love, I might add), all of which exists in a natural flow of wealth and abundance (the green/blue wavy lines), then I stroll along happily, creating a life according to my highest vision.

Remember, if you are coloring, it is not about the accuracy of the drawing, the preciseness of your images, getting all the details correct, or any of those things your adult brain might be telling you. It’s about playfully communicating with you inner-child, your Spirit, your sub-conscious, your most sincere, honest depth of YOU. Your Inner Self knows what you need an want. Let it communicate with you in this open, playful, fun way. Just let yourself flow.



Feel the flow:

Waiting on Inspiration–Journey of Worth 2.0 – Day 28

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Guiding Thought

We are worth the effort it requires to move our minds to Love. We are worth the time of waiting, in patience, for Knowing to arrive. Every moment, every second that we open to simply being willing for Love to enter is a moment offered to Eternity; a moment offered to healing, a moment offered to Unity.

Love does not announce itself with trumpets and cymbals. It simply settles slowly, quietly, gently, beyond sense-perception. So we must wait in patience and take the effort to move our minds to join the quiet stillness of Love. Here we rest. Here is Peace. Here is all we want and need.


I’ve hit the wall. I usually hit the wall much earlier in the Journey, around day 9, 10, or 11, so I am thankful that it has held off this long on this Journey.

Sometimes the wall looks like doubt, sometimes it looks like cynicism, sometimes it looks like despair. Today it looks like uninspired.  I think, actually, I hit the wall yesterday, but I could not admit it to myself, much less publicly. So I tried to write something… and what I wrote yesterday felt uninspired, don’t you think? Maybe I shouldn’t admit that.

Today, I still feel uninspired. Bland. Neutral. Colorless.

It was three days ago that I wrote, “Worth is absolutely connected to material things, like money, but I have not even addressed that (yet)…This will be the direction for the rest of this Journey, bringing all this together a little better.” And yet, I still have not addressed Worth as a well-rounded idea which includes physical/material things. And I am still waiting–it’s been on my mind; writing about it just hasn’t been “right”. Especially not today. I want to get that right, and do it well, so today is not the day.

This Guiding Thought says, “We are worth the time of waiting, in patience, for Knowing to arrive”. I am waiting now, I guess, waiting for inspiration.

Waiting is hard to do. I get worried when I have to wait like this. How do I know what I am waiting for will arrive? How can I be assured that I will not be stuck in waiting? What am I supposed to do while I am waiting? (Do you see how the theme of my wall fits in with the theme of the day?)

When in doubt, write about what you feel–that’s the trick. Forget about what you “want” to write, forget about what you think you “should” write, and write about the wall, write about feeling uninspired or worried or doubtful.

The writing changes the river, changes your experience of it. That change is always enough to ensure not being stuck. The writing pulls you into a new place without effort. The flow changes easily. Everything becomes new. (>Woot!< Yesterday’s article comes through!)


“The Thing behind The Thing”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 23

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Guiding Thought

We are now fully conscious of our Own Loving Presence which seeks expression through us. Our Own Loving Presence Knows our hearts and Knows our happiness. It Knows how to fulfill our hearts and bring us joy by placing us in right situations, with right people, at right times where we may fully express our purpose. We submit our minds and hearts, all our thoughts, words, and actions to our Own Loving Presence to be lifted to our highest vision and plan for our lives.



The undercurrent of this Journey is definitely faith (in a similar way that surrender has been an undercurrent). How do I trust that my Own Loving Presence Knows my heart, and Knows my happiness? How do I have faith in that? What do I do to feel faith? How do I experience faith? What is “supposed” to happen if I have faith? If nothing “happens” does that mean I don’t have faith?

Maybe undercurrent isn’t quite the right word, although there is an undercurrent of working out issues of faith in this Journey. What else could I call it, instead of “undercurrent”?

Influencing factor?


The thing behind the thing?

Even if I don’t know the right name, I can describe it: For this Journey, faith is the uncertainty (funny juxtaposition there!) I am working through in order to have a better understanding of my purpose. Or: I am working on understanding my own faith, in order to believe in my purpose (or to believe that I have a purpose). It’s what I need to understand, to get through, to figure out in my own head and heart, in order to fully embrace my Divine purpose.

Then, behind understanding faith I need to understand my own belief, and behind that I need to understand patience, and behind that I need to come to terms with trust…then I need to take all of that and put it  back into Divine Truth. Here’s how it looks; you know how much I like my schematic representations:

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Who’s in charge? Divine Truth!

How do we show it? Faith and Belief!

>That’s about all the cheerleader I can muster today<

But seriously…The gold triangle represents the funnel of the Divine into us through our Loving Presence. It Knows. It Knows our hearts; it Knows our happiness. The blue boxes represent our “submission” to It; they represent our responsibility to It, so that It can bring us our highest plan for our lives.

The blue boxes are levels/layers of how I understand. Consciousness is composed of awareness, understanding, and Knowing. I am learning to understand my own faith, belief, patience, and trust in the context of my Divine Purpose. Do you see? The context brings out different elements, different facets, of how I have learned about faith, patience, belief, and trust–how I currently understand. I could also learn about faith, belief, patience, and trust in the context of my healing or acceptance or forgiveness or worthiness, and I would understand differently. Where there are stumbling blocks (or freak-outs) are the places that need to be coaxed into a higher understanding.

Once elevated to be truly One with Divine Mind, with Divine Truth, all those “behind the” concepts would become One:

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No Freak-out…Really: Journey of Courage – Day 14

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Guiding Thought

You are safe in Divine Love’s assurance. Have the courage to face the ignorance and illusions within yourself and root them out. Allow the Light of Love to enter your mind and heart. Divine Love shines within you destroying anything false, transforming you from within.


“You are safe in Divine Love’s assurance.” I’ve been feeling this in a new way on this Journey. It’s day 14 and I have not freaked out. That’s something.

If you remember, one of my recent “themes” has been working on trust. When I am “working on” something, there seems to be ups and downs. I experience things that bring out the very “problem” I am working on, I go through a bit of a tumultuous period, then things smooth out and I come to a point of clarity and/or peace. For the moment, I don’t feel like I am working on trust. I simply feel that I trust.

Yes, I know this does not represent an ultimate trust—I still have things I am working on. I am still working on trusting the Divine with financial matters as I move into greater and greater spiritual service; I am still working on my highest work; I am working on really listening to the Divine inner voice; I am working on personal health and aliveness; I am still working on releasing attachments. But for now, it is a reprieve, a spot along the path in which to rest in the sun.

It feels like I’ve gotten somewhere and now I am being given the assurance that I have what it takes to move forward.

In a way that’s a little scary. What’s next? You know that saying, “God doesn’t give you a problem without also giving you the strength to handle it”. Does that mean as you grow stronger your problems get bigger?

Okay, I’m being a little facetious with that, but I’ve learned it’s good to let the voices express their concerns. The concern in this moment is I won’t be able to handle something that comes up, something that has come up because I’ve become stronger, more trusting. Would that mean I would turn away from wanting to be strong or more trusting? Of course not; the only direction is forward. So, I think I am going to enjoy my reprieve and not think about it, not worry about some future what if-concern-problem my mind is pre-emptively reacting to before it’s happened. Silly mind. Sit back. Rest!

I feel like this reprieve is very much connected to both yesterday’s remarks about being devoted to Love, as well as the days of the last Journey about “being with the Love that is always with me”. And today I’ve gotten more. Love is always with us, but it’s up to us to accept it, allow it, and receive it. Since Love is constantly giving of itself infinitely, every little bit we let in (being with it, being devoted to it), allows it to give us more. That’s what I feel has been happening on this Journey. I’ve been opening up, and Love has been giving me more of itself…and I’ve been able to receive it.

It’s so subtle! Is it really that remarkable that it’s day 14 and I haven’t freaked out? Yes, because I have felt supported, loved, assured. Little things have been “happening” that just feel right, feel synchronous —small things I could easily overlook, but I want to see Love’s activity in my life. I am looking for it; I want to participate with Love consciously.

This feeling of being loved and assured is a direct result of the work I’ve been doing. That’s my intuition talking. I feel like this is a response. My mind does not know what to make of it or what it means, and I’m not letting my mind get in the way. I’m just going to rest here and let it be, let Love be…in me.




Journey of the Heart – Day 32

We are on round 4! These last ten days, the Guiding Thoughts return to using me and I for the pronouns. See how your perspective of your self has changed through using you or we the past twenty days. See if your sense of self is bigger; if you can include a broader vision of “you”.

You may also choose to continue to take a moment before the Journey to listen to this quickly—it is a thought for others, so that the effects of this Journey ripple out!


Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 32 Guiding Thought

Today I decide to give my heart reign.

Trusting in love, assured with its gentle comfort, I invite my heart to lead me with joy and peace to joy and peace.

I surrender my mind and will to my heart’s love.

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you :).   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

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Journey of the Heart – Day 32
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The first thing I saw in my head before starting the picture was a heart in a fire.  This made me think back to the day recently that I wrote about purity/purifying. Though, in today’s picture, it’s not about the heart being purified. It’s more like the heart is acting as a depository for the “garbage” surrendered from the mind and will to the heart that is being purified. That would make the fire symbolically the heart’s- love, which is doing the purifying.

The figure is surrounded by gentle comfort, which makes it easy to surrender and trust in love. The figure is in a position of offering. The mind and will are willingly being surrendered to the heart and its love.

There are two things that I “see” in this picture, when the mind and will are offered and surrendered to the heart. First: the mind and will are then transformed; they come out of the heart differently, and in joy and peace. Also, I keep seeing the word fun. It was and is important that I know that surrendering to the heart in this way can be fun. It does not have to be scary or uncertain (which, admittedly, I have thought). Some of the colors coming out of the heart represent fun, and being care-free.

Second: when the mind and will are surrendered to the heart, the mind and will begin to cooperate with the heart. This is huge for me. So often the “I” of my mind wants to direct my will, completely trammeling or ignoring the heart. But what I feel like I understood more deeply today is that the inclusion of the heart brings so much more. It’s hard to identify what that more is; it feels like a warmth, a confidence, a fullness that becomes available when the heart is included. My heart has an intelligence that my mind has not wanted to trust (a big reason for initiating a Journey of the Heart), but now, my mind is beginning to shift, and to understand how much more effective, efficient, productive (these are my mind’s words) life can be when it (my mind) actually uses my heart. (Can you tell that my mind still wants to be in charge?)

…But YAY! My mind is learning! My mind is “getting” my heart! That is huge.