“Mind Moving”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 15

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Guiding Thought

Your own Loving Presence is your personal connection with Divine Mind. Attuned to your own Loving Presence, Know yourself as Whole and Holy. As you feel your Inner Unity, Know: this is all you want; you have found all you seek.


I’ve been working with a big idea lately. The idea is that anything I want, or anything I want to feel or be, already exists. It is. Somewhere. Even if it’s not here, in my conscious awareness, it exists. All I have to do is move my mind to it. It is there, in Divine Mind.

This is a bit like a tool I have used called the Behavioral Barometer, by One Brain. On the barometer, there are words on one side of the paper that correspond to a feeling. I find the word that most closely describes what I am feeling, and I repeat a dozen or more times, out loud, “I feel >blank<”. Today the “right” word was unimportant

I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant. I feel unimportant.

Feelings flow through me. Feelings are not me, they are not who I am. I can feel without claiming the feeling as an identity, getting bogged down in it, or being overwhelmed by it. “To feel is to heal”, as the saying goes. Feelings need to be acknowledged. Feelings need to be expressed. Sometimes just saying the words is enough to release the feeling.

Once the feeling is released, there is a corresponding word on the other side of the barometer, to “fill in” the space (the neural connections), where that feeling just vacated. That word today was Unified. So I repeated, “I AM Unified”. This statement is used to claim the quality (Unified) as a State of Being: in other words, proclaiming, this is Who I Am.

I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified. I AM Unified.

Being Unified, or being in the State of Being Unified, already exists in Divine Mind. Thus, thinking this thought I AM Unified confirms to my mind the Truth, unlike saying I feel unimportant, which is passing, and not something that even exists in Divine Mind.

When you tell yourself, tell your mind, the Truth, you move your mind that much closer to what already exists, to the Truth of You. This is becoming Being and Being becoming.

ANY time you feel weak, or unimportant, threatened or unacceptable, unloved or rejected, KNOW none of that is True. You are an amazing, loved, appreciated, invigorating, creative, caring, essential, protected, purposeful person.

Know that.

Acknowledge your feeling. Then move your mind to what already exists: the Truth of YOU. You are all you seek.

I love you for you, for the Truth of you, for all you are, all you are becoming, all you give, all you seek, all you do, all you strive for, all you love, all within you, just You.  Thank you for being.

“It’s up to me”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 04

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Guiding Thought

To heal and be healed is to be aware; to understand, and to Know Wholeness.  Thus I seek Wholeness, Unity, Oneness within my own mind and heart, and in all my actions and affairs. I focus on uniting the fragments within myself, so that I see only Oneness, which is the Truth of my Self. As I Know myself as the Oneness that I am, this Truth reflects in the world around me, confirming what I Know through my experience and life activity. 



I read the first sentence and thought, “I don’t know…there’s got to be more to it than that…” This was not, however, the doubt and skepticism it sounds like. It was genuine curiosity about what is really going on, what the Truth is, and how I can understand what healing is.

You see, recently I’ve been feeling a bit conflicted about this Journey being so mental, when I, and so many people, think of healing as physical. We all know that there are many types of healing, there is emotional healing, soul healing, heart-healing, psychological healing; but most generally, when people think about health, it’s all about the physical. So, isn’t it a bit misplaced for me to be so focused on concepts, rather than concrete, tangible things and actions that people need for healing?

These conflicted thoughts were also the reason for my initial reaction to the first sentence. How can I claim Wholeness is healing, when that does not move people closer to actual physical healing?

The thing is, I actually do think it’s right: Wholeness is healing. Wholeness is Holy, is Divine Health. I also think the mental does move people closer to actual physical healing, but it’s not direct, and I think it’s easy for people to overlook, or fail to take responsibility for it. The mental is just the first step; a person must act; a person must choose to act.

I just don’t understand or know enough yet for physical healing to materialize immediately in my life, in my world. I don’t get it. Yet. But that’s what this Guiding Thought is all about, isn’t it? —Seeking Wholeness within my mind and heart, in all my actions and affairs.

This is why I am incorporating more earth practices in my daily routine. Earth is about the body, about living in the world, working, having relationships, doing what it takes to live fully in a body, all my actions and affairs. I know that I need to integrate healing the mind-emotions-spirit into my physical body.

My mind, body, and soul, are all my responsibility. In a way, I have a responsibility to my mind, emotions, and soul to bring my body to Wholeness. If I am going to work so hard on lifting my heart and mind to new levels of understanding, I should work just as hard to incorporate new levels of understanding Wholeness into my body. What does my body need to be whole? How have I fragmented my body? What is going on in this physical vehicle that needs to be transmuted?

Despite all of the vacillations within medical research, there are some things that I think are probably right: for example, fluoride in the water is not good for the body. Aluminum poisons the nervous system when ingested. Processed white sugar, particularly that made from GMO sugar beets, wreaks havoc on the body. Alcohol suppresses the immune system.

I have minimized most of these things in much of my diet. But not completely. And, what damage was done inside me when I was still drinking out of aluminum cans, or eating more commercial sugar, that has never been repaired? How do I need to heal my body that I am not even aware of?

Just as these Journeys are a proactive way to heal the mind and heart by consistently focusing on Whole and Loving thoughts, there are proactive things to do to repair damage done within the body.

As my Healing consciousness elevates, it tugs at me to get my body elevated also. My body needs to heal, so that it can hold the energy of my elevated consciousness, so that it can channel, reflect, and transmit the energy of more Love, more Wholeness, so I can be the change I am effecting.

Some other things that I also believe to be true, despite varied fads and opinions: Fruits and vegetables nourish the body with natural, unadulterated vitamins, minerals, and enzymes. Certain herbs and teas “flush” toxins out of the body.

It doesn’t do me any good to think really high and loving thoughts, then act competitively with my co-workers. It doesn’t do me any good to talk about Oneness, then pick a fight in my relationship. It doesn’t do me any good to talk about health and continue to eat GMO sugar, drink alcohol, or drink fluoridated water.

As above, so below, but it must be me who makes the decision to act in a consistent way with the “as above”. It’s up to me. If I am going to talk about healing, ask for healing, then I need to be prepared to act in a healing way toward my body. That means increasing the things that support my physical health, and decreasing the things that suppress my immune system, or leave toxins in my tissues.

This is going to be a big part of this Journey. It means changing habits and making adjustments.  I don’t know if I am ready, but I’ll do the best I can.


Working Toward My Heart’s Ph.D.: Journey of Courage – Day 38

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Guiding Thought

I allow myself to connect with my pure Inner Divine Heart of Oneness. I am aware of the expression of the Divine Heart through me, as me. I connect with my heart, and am aware of embodying its pure Love intention for All.  I am filled with Joy as I embrace my heart’s Love.


Heart Love is so healing! The heart unifies; it’s through the heart that I am able to balance the thoughts in my mind, thoughts which tend to dissect things in order to figure them out and put them back together. If I connect with my heart, when I do this “figuring out” and “putting back together”, my overall understanding is more complete, more whole.

Although I know this and practice heart-love, I have to admit, it’s one of the harder things I am learning. I like my mind and my intellect. I rely on my mind for so much and I’ve spent a lot of time developing it.

Connecting with my heart is not difficult per se; it’s just that my heart-development is so far behind my intellect—my heart is like an elementary student, while my mind has a Ph.D.

Actually…that is a good comparison. My mind does actually have a Ph.D. and I know what it took to get it there. There was study and research, focus, intense concentration, and there was a lot of work with single-pointed aim and intention.

Now it’s time to get a Ph.D. for my heart, using these same skills. Perhaps it is not such a coincidence the next Journey is a Journey of the Heart.

But what does the heart have to do with courage? Why has this seemingly random Guiding Thought about the heart shown up on the 8th day of each round?

I have a glimpse of an answer:

The heart unifies. Unity is wholeness and completeness. Thus, the heart is the vehicle through which we are able to connect with Oneness. In Oneness, there is: equality, compassion, love, and understanding. In fact, many times here, I have equated Oneness with Love. Love is All and All There Is. Thus, the heart is how we also connect with the Oneness of Love, with All That IS. Living as Love, with Love, has been one of the major themes of Journey of Courage: encouraging living as Love. Thus! Courage!

Of course, in those sentences, I hear my intellect, not my heart. A whole answer will require a heart-connection, which will require the study of and concentration on the heart!

Of Oxymorons & Slippery Slopes: Journey of Abundance – Day 21

Welcome to Round Three!

We went through round one of this Journey (days 1-10), focusing on ourselves, the experiencing subjects of the Journey. That only makes sense after all, I’m doing this Journey so that I can experience greater abundance.

For the second round (days 11-20), the Guiding Thoughts were focused on a “you”, but the “you” was non-specific. You could have been directing the Guiding Thoughts to another person, or you could have imagined someone directing those words to you. Furthermore, the “you” could have been singular or plural, depending on your imagination.

Now we begin round three (days 21-30). This round intentionally joins us, with “we-our-us. I am not just I; you are not just you. As we, any abundance that is mine is also yours; I want abundance as much for you as for myself. We are in this together, and as we, we are equal.  Let that which flows through us all unite us and lift us!


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Guiding Thought

Divine Love-Light is the Source of All. It is all good, all God. This Source is always seeking expression through us. Our awareness of our personal identity as this Source provides us with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.


Today I am fixated on these words, “Our awareness of our personal identity…”Awareness and “personal identity” are both, well…very individual; the phrase is contradictory, an oxymoron! It is really making me think…in a good way!

The first thing that occurs to me is that I have not yet achieved a level of awareness that lets me know for certain what someone else’s level of awareness is. I do my best to be in tune, in touch, “mindful,” aware, etc., and there are some times that I feel like I am perceiving in a more aware state than someone else, but that is a slippery slope, not to mention a judgement that I am not qualified for. So, what is “our awareness” if I am really only aware of my own awareness?

Uh-oh! My philosophy training just kicked in. I apologize in advance…

I am now thinking of some of my doctoral work, which was on Nicolas of Cusa, a fifteenth century Roman Catholic priest (and bishop), theologian, philosopher, and mathematician. In his work, he gives us a metaphor for thinking about God: In mathematics, when trying to find either the maximum or the minimum, the effort fails because there is always something more maximum or more minimum. Thus, “more” and “less” become transcendent in their meaning, in that there is always something beyond the immediate, beyond the knowable. This transcendence coincides with the transcendence of God as “beyond”—He is always beyond human understanding, there is always more. Yet, in God, everything corresponds only to God. In God all diversity is unified, all variety is unified, all increments are unified… (etc.)

 “According to the movement of reason, plurality or multitude is opposed to unity. Hence, it is a unity of this sort which properly applies to God, but the unity to which neither otherness nor plurality nor multiplicity is opposed. This unity is the maximum name enfolding all things in its simplicity of unity, and this is the name which is ineffable and above all understanding.” Nicholas of Cusa (1997), Nicholas of Cusa: Selected Spiritual Writings, H. Lawrence Bond, tr., (New York: Paulist Press) P. 28

Whew! How does this relate to today’s Guiding Thought and awareness?

The Source is One. We—our awareness and our personal identity—are many.

As individuals work on increasing their personal awareness or on the flow of Source through them, they are seeking “a maximum” (so to speak). Or should I say their next maximum, because there is always “more” to experience, “more” to achieve. There is always only more.

What if everyone is doing this all the time, in their own way? What if everyone is always in the process of seeking and finding more, whatever that is for them personally?

Then (if we use the thought of Nicholas of Cusa), we are all united in the transcendent pursuit of more, which becomes unified in its very transcendence, called by the name God. It is the very diversity and multiplicity that gives us the transcendent experience, as its own unification.

We are gorgeous, diverse, multiplicities unified by and through the very differences we pursue!


Journey of the Heart – Day 28

We are on round 3! For this round, the pronouns for the Guiding Thoughts change again; we will use the pronoun “we” or “us”, instead of “I” or “you”. When you listen to the Guiding Thoughts (or read them), unite yourself with me, and I will unite myself with you. We are the “we”!

Before you begin each day, take a moment and think about this from Day 08’s Guiding Thought: Love-as-light streams from my heart to your heart! We are connected by Love; we are One in Love. You may even choose to listen to this quickly—it is a thought that will turn your mind to the right attitude for the day’s endeavor.


Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 28 Guiding Thought

Love-as-light streams from our hearts to all hearts!

We are connected by Love; we are One in Love.

Imagine this stream of love-as-light connecting with everyone in time and space.

Imagine receiving this stream of love-as-light as it returns to you from everyone in time and space.

This is enough. We are One.

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you :).   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

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Journey of the Heart – Day 28
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Sometimes hearing the heart is very difficult. Sometimes understanding what the heart is saying is perplexing. The heart teaches us concepts that our rational mind wants to analyze, sort out, understand rationally, but how are love, unity, patience, and acceptance understood rationally?

What I love about this journey is that the process of drawing, simply sitting with the thought and letting my fingers-hands-arms do the “thinking”, by-passes my rational mind. Somehow I understand more clearly and deeply some aspect of love that I didn’t when I began.

I can’t put a finger on it. My mind does not understand. I can’t explain. There are no words. And this is why I am loving this journey. I am growing and deepening in ways I don’t understand. And yet, I know it’s true. Somehow, this picture perfectly says the guiding thought—and more! And I get it in a way that is so much more than the words themselves.

I hope you do too.

Context and Method for Enlightenment

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May those who seek, help others find;

May those who sorrow, be compassionate;

May those who are lost, light a path for another;

May those who question or doubt, give guidance;

May those who worry, lift the burden of another;

May those who hide, see their own light in the eyes of a stranger;

May we all give peace, no matter what.



I believe in enlightenment. I think that enlightenment is real and attainable for me, and for you. These articles and Journeys are really just recording the steps on the path to my own enlightenment. If you are reading this, this is one of your steps too.

Today, though, I had a big shift in how I think about enlightenment. I don’t even know all of the ramifications and implications of this shift. I have to think about it, let it sink in, let it work on me, lead me, and guide me, where appropriate.

Here it is, as best I can describe it: I used to think enlightenment means I reach a point of mental-emotional-physical experience where nothing bothers me, nothing hurts me, nothing troubles me; in that state of experience, I just have all the answers and know exactly what to do, and I’m always right (in that “higher-spiritual sense”, of course). In this state, life is always blissful, carefree, peaceful, harmonious.

I still think this is basically accurate—this is the experience of perpetual enlightenment (let’s just call it that for now). It is the “Ultimate Enlightenment” that I am striving for.

What shifted is how I saw the context and the method, both of which are given in today’s guiding thought.

The Context: In a way, the context is simplified by the phrase “it’s the journey, not the destination”. What this means is with every moment, every step, every interaction there is a choice between the experience of perpetual enlightenment or… not.

There are 3 ways this choice can happen:

1)      Not deciding, not making a choice, letting your default actions/habits/thoughts make the choice for you. You go on at the whims of all of the previous choices you’ve ever made in your life that have established themselves as patterns in your mind/body.

2)      Make a choice that puts mental/emotional/spiritual/physical distance between yourself and another. This choice is made by preferencing “otherness” or exclusion.

    • (for example) “They are them and I am me, and what we want is mutually exclusive, so I have to look out for my own interests, because if I give in, I won’t get what I want.”
    • (for example) “You were just really rude and inconsiderate to me; I am going to be rude and inconsiderate to you, to show you how it feels!”
    •  (for example) “If I don’t stand up for myself, you’ll walk all over me” ~or alternately~ “If I stand up for myself, you’ll walk all over me, so I’ll just be quiet and not resist the inevitable”

3)      Make a choice that includes another’s interests in with your own. See your interests as compatible, not contrary to another person’s;   join your interests with another’s in a way that benefits everyone, including you.

Notice that I am not talking about this in terms of making a “loving”, “compassionate” choice, as I so-often am inclined to do.

This is about pure practicality, in the interest of interests. Because that is a large part of how people interact (at this point in human evolution…). “What are my interests?” What do I get out of this?” “What do I have to lose?” “What have I lost?” “What do I need to fight for?” These thoughts are behind a LOT of human decision-making, whether we like it or not.

The point is that the “enlightened” choice is to include another’s interests in your own (which is actually the loving, compassionate choice). You can both have what you want. No one needs to lose. There is enough for all. We are working toward the same ultimate goals. This is unity; this is Oneness at a micro-individual level.

That’s why it’s a journey. “Well, I only chose Oneness 10% of the time today…maybe tomorrow I can choose it 11% of the time”.

With every interaction we have the opportunity to make a choice for Oneness, for enlightenment…or not. But we will never get to Ultimate Oneness without doing it every step of the way, 100% of the time.

Think about Ultimate Oneness: Every single human being making a choice to include another’s interests with their own, 100% of the time. And we have a way to go. (Or we could just all do it now, then we’d be there.)

The Method: In a sense, the method is what you hear so often from spiritual seekers, gurus, teachers: “Love.” “Be kind.” “Help others.” “Be compassionate.” Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. We got that. The difference is when and how we do it, within the context above.

For me, it’s not too difficult to give love, be compassionate and kind when it’s someone I like, at a time when things are going smoothly, when my emotions are stabile, when I am not worrying about this or that.

But I’ll be damned if it isn’t a bitch to try to be compassionate when I’m the one who’s hurting—especially to be compassionate to the person who hurt me?! Uh…hell, no. You know what I mean?

But the guiding thought is saying this is precisely when I need to be compassionate, when I need to choose not to put distance between myself and another. That is precisely the moment I need to take a step toward enlightenment by thinking and choosing an action that joins rather than alienates.


When lost, help another find; give encouragement; light a path. When in sorrow, be compassionate;

Sometimes this means just being patient, sitting and breathing with someone going through a rough time; sometimes it means holding a hand, giving a hug. When you feel lost, what do you wish, in your heart of hearts that someone would give you? Give that. When you are sad or grieving, what do you wish, in your heart of hearts, that someone would give you? Give that.

When questioning or doubting, give guidance;

You may be experiencing doubt, but that doesn’t mean you don’t have wisdom to share. What encouraging, reassuring words would you like to hear? Give those. It’s ok if the context is completely different with another person. Encouragement and assurance, given from the heart, are received in the same spirit.

When worrying lift the burden of another;

“How can I help?” Sometimes just saying that sincerely to another person is enough. They may just need to hear that someone is willing to help. They may just need to vent, or to cry to an uninvolved person. They may need a ride somewhere, maybe a babysitter, maybe a sandwich. The solution in the moment may be simple and painless for you. You can’t solve their problems; you can’t lift their worry—they need to do that for themselves, but many times what will help in the moment is a small demonstration of care, of showing them they are not alone.

If you are “worried” about not having the time/energy/resources to be able to help someone at that precise moment, don’t verbalize the question. Just say to them in your mind, “how can I help”? This, too, is a connection, a willingness to share the burden. Sometimes something concrete will come as an answer in your mind, like, “offer to run an errand” or “buy him a cup of coffee” or “say, ‘I felt that way too, when >this thing< happened to me’ (but don’t make it about you)”. An answer always comes: “how can I help?”

When hiding, look for light in the eyes of a stranger.

When you are hiding, the last thing you want is to be seen (I’ve been kind of into tautologies lately!). That’s why looking for light in a stranger is safe. You never have to interact with that person again. But it still reinforces the looking for light. Thus it reinforces your light (and the strangers). Just try it.

This is how we “arrive”. We are always both on the journey and arriving with every choice we make in every moment. We make the choice to be what we want to become, to unify, and to join with others. Each time we make a choice which unites rather than separates, we are enlightened, until we all finally, reach ultimate enlightenment.