Lesson on the Kingdom (Purpose 1.2.31)

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Welcome to Round 4!–we are in the homestretch now! There are only 10 days left. We’ve done so much these past 30 days; do you realize how far you’ve come? Once more, the pronouns change with this round, and we are back to using “I” as the subject of the Guiding Thought. However…you may notice that you do not feel the same way about “I” as you did in the first round after having been through “you” and “we”!

Guiding Thought

There is a Perfect Spiritual Idea of Perfect Fulfillment. My Inner Divine Presence Knows every form, experience, situation, event, circumstance, condition, relationship, and sequence that fulfills my desires. When I am diligent about maintaining my focus of desire on the loving benefit and fulfillment of all sentient beings, Divine Substance–which is the source of Spiritual Idea’s manifestation–flows through me and externalizes in my experience. Divine Presence appears as the perfect fulfillment of every single form, experience, situation, event, circumstance, condition, relationship, and sequence that I could possibly desire.


Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven, and all things shall be added unto you. (Bible, Matthew 6:33)

The Kingdom of Heaven is within you. (Bible, Luke 17:21)

The Kingdom of Heaven is you. (A Course in Miracles, Chapter 4)


I’ve written a lot about the idea of deciding 100% for God and the Holy Spirit. Once we make that decision 100%, we experience a shift from a consciousness of separation into a consciousness of Oneness; we experience Divine Perception; we experience the Holy Instant, perpetually.

This shift begins (or at least it did for me), with traditional concepts of surrender. Surrender, bears with it ideas of sacrifice or submission, and can feel scary, as though you are losing a part of yourself.

Deciding 100% for God and the Holy Spirit is more like a cooperation, a partnership; there is no loss, but a greater fulfillment, an added dimension of power to the (ego-less) personality.

I’ve been in and out of this space for a short time, going back and forth between my ego wanting to be in charge, and my higher Self wanting to choose God and the Holy Spirit 100%.  My mind has been experiencing this as a conflict, regarding a particular situation I am in.

On the one hand, my ego-self, tied to human solutions, including constructs of laws, rules, “payback”, “giving someone what they deserve”, etc., wants to charge forward using everything available to “solve” this problem. My ego-self knows it can win. It knows it can use these human constructs very effectively to get what it wants–to overcome, to dominate, to win.

And thinking in those terms felt so good. It felt powerful, motivating, successful (even before the fact).

But it also felt wrong. Part of me pointed out that human constructions cannot “solve” spiritual “problems”. If I were going to give in to using human constructs, then I would be denying the power of God, denying the flow of the Holy Spirit.

But I could also feel a part of myself wanting it to feel right. I could see a possible path of rationalization where I could make it feel right.

Do you see the conflict?

So, I went within and asked for guidance. The answer was: Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven. Seek ye the Kingdom of Heaven first, last, and always. 

What my inner-guide was telling me was that I can’t say that I rely on God, that I want to give myself to God 100%, and then use human constructs as a crutch when things don’t go my way. I must completely give up any reliance on human “solutions”. I must trust God. I must trust that when I trust God, when I seek the Kingdom first, last, and always, that His solutions are truly what I want.

It felt like a huge lesson, but one that got me even closer to that 100%.


Imperatives: I Will, I Kant: Journey of Gratitude – Day 09

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Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Gratitude makes all things new! When I am aware of my Source in Love, I see its activity everywhere. It is the Substance of Life itself! I am in the flow and create and expand with Love, in Life!


How often have I asked, “How do I know?” How often has the skeptic voiced its concerns about this consciousness process?

Today, and perhaps only for today, I feel like I have answers.

First, one way I can know I am in the flow, or on the right path, is I feel relaxed and at peace. My mind is not struggling, my thoughts are not overwhelming me; the circumstances of tension and antagonism driving me forward are still present, but I am calm within them.

This raises the question, “How do I make decisions I can feel at peace about?”

And for this, there is another mini Kant lesson:

Kant formulated what he called the moral imperatives. An imperative is: something one must do (the means) in order to achieve a certain end. A moral imperative is what one must do to achieve moral ends.

Kant says that for morality to be universal, everyone must follow three maxims. They are paraphrased here, but the original is in The Groundwork of the Metaphysics of Morals:

1) Ask yourself, “Can my actions be universalized without contradiction?” Or, if I take a certain action, what would the world be like if everyone acted that way?

2) Any treatment of people should be both as a means and as an end. Or, do not use people as a means to a personal gain. Each person has their own end—respect them for that (if for no other reason). [For Kant, this is the basis of treating everyone with basic human dignity]

3) Every person is both means and end (see #2). When everyone acts in consideration of everyone else’s means and ends (universalized action, see #1), we are acting in accordance with the Kingdom of Ends, which is the harmonious action that respects and dignifies all of humanity.

For me, the very first maxim is shaky. How do I know (there it is again) if my action can be universalized? And how can I even imagine what the world might be like if everyone behaved as I do? Maybe some people don’t like the way I behave…. There’s way too much wiggle room for justifying personal (selfish) actions in the name of “The world would be a better place if everyone acted like this”, even if people did follow the second and third maxims.

These maxims rely on people to be fully reasonable and rational. Kant was, but many people are not and even the ones who are can think and perceive irrationally, especially to justify their own ends.

So, what can I do in the moment to make choices I believe to be the best for all (universalized)? Here’s what I’ve come up with. Unlike Kant, these are not maxims, dictates, or directives (which Kant does address in his writing on duty and free will); these are questions I can ask myself in any moment, any situation, to help me know if my actions or decisions are the best I can do right now, to serve a universal end (which for me is Love).

1) What do I serve?

2) What serves me?

3) Toward what end do I utilize what serves me?

Think about this in your own terms. Come up with your own thoughts. Be critical for yourself of how I’ve put this together—thinking I’m “wrong” may be a stimulus to come up with what is right for you (that whole antagonism thing).

For the first, there are several religious/spiritual ways I frame it:

  1. What do I serve?
    1. “Man cannot serve both God and money”
    2. Good-evil
    3. Creation-destruction
    4. Life-death

[Okay, so I know what you are asking yourself: “With all her talk about Unity and Oneness, why this sudden shift to duality?” The beginning of the answer (for there is a lot more to it) is that when the mind is making a decision (like, “What do I serve?”), it is already in a mode of duality. Until all minds are healed into Oneness, humans remain as they are: perceiving, judging, comparing, making decisions. This exercise accepts the mind as it is, and prompts it to be conscious of the direction it takes, when it makes decisions.]

Today’s Guiding Thought says, “I am in the flow and create and expand with Love, in Life.” For today, my choice in answer to this question is: I choose Creation/Life.

  1. What serves me?

The answer to this is whatever comes up, at any moment. What is serving you right now? For me: this pencil. This fire. This notebook. The sun. My breath. These thoughts.

Most of the time, what serves you is very simple; in a sense, everything you experience serves you, every moment…just look around.

  1. How do I utilize what serves me?

This is the “walking your talk” question. If I say in question #1 that I serve Life-Creation, then how I use what serves me must also serve Life-Creation.

All of this then becomes the answer to the question, “How do I know.” Because if I use the things that serve me toward life and creation, I am being internally consistent; I experience Life and Creation with all of the Joy, Peace, and Harmony that comes with it (even in the midst of struggle or antagonism). If I say I serve Life, but then utilize things that serve me in a way that is directed toward destruction, I am internally inconsistent, and will experience conflict, dis-ease.What choices do you make?

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Copyright Susan Billmaier 2015
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What actions do you take?

Where are you already consistent? Where can you become more consistent?

For what ends (outcomes) are you most grateful—ones of creation, or ones of destruction?

Can you make choices that will lead you to greater gratitude?